I’m watching you you watching her^^

You’re the only one that can make me smile through my hard time, make my gloomy day like the most beautiful day, and the only person that I wanna share everything with. But… you don’t feel the same as me, you’re waiting for someone else's message, you’re still sad over her even though you know that she has a boyfriend. Well, I’m still watching you, worrying about you secretly, and still waiting for your text;)) From stupid me C

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2025-08-14

Lany - 13

29 Jan 2022, I saw her... It's been months since we last talked. A lot of things happened but memories of us still sculpted in my mind. I know that was solely my fault for pushing you so faraway that you and I have no idea how we could go back to the old us. It's ridiculous to say but despite my cold acts, I desperately want you to be mine although it's seemingly impossible. Being the third-wheel isn't my thing and me being a cheater would definitely out of the question. (Hey audiences, I know this sounds confusing. Lemme explain this, we both have our own partner) I don't know how to put this into word - the reasons why I chose to leave. However, I guess that was not a very bad decision I made, at least not to you. We both can focus on our own relationship. I'm so glad that you still can go on without my presence and be happy with your significant other and friends. You know what? I've been trying so hard to get you out of my mine. Countless attempts have passed, this time I admit that I failed... especially today. I was riding back home, listening to random songs on YouTube and thinking of you like I always do, and imagining how I would react and what I should say when we get to meet again... "the smell of you is way too much, not gonna put my heart through that... where did we go wrong? I know we started out alright" I was stunned. You were in front of me. Like 2m apart. You had your fav jacket on, the one that I tried to steal because you said your confidence dropped without this jacket. I saw some foods hanging on the hook which I thought that was for your mom because that's what you always did when we went back home after our unofficial date -- buying some foods home for your mama. I slowed down. My heart skipped a beat. That was unexpected, the person I'm thinking of and haven't talked to for months suddenly appeared in front of me, at the moment when our fav song played. I was stumbling, trying to figure out what I should do. Yet, nothing was done... Stupid, wasn't I? "Lately I've been someone and it ain't myself I'm spending all my time on somebody else I'm feeling all these feelings I don't understand You're the one good thing I ain't questioning Like ohh, if I knew that it would kill me I would still be there a thousand times over" This song came up next while I was secretly following her on her way back home. She rode too fast, without her helmet on (this girl is making me worried again). I really wanted to do something but I was not ready for this unexpected reunion. Finally, we seperated, not knowing when we'll officially meet again... même si je sais que je le regretterai plus tard. __________________ Hey, please take a good care of yourself. Untill we meet again. That time, I will be the one who comes to you first like when we first met :) though it might take some times, probably 2-3 years since I'll be going somewhere farway, but I promise I'll be back to pickup where we left off. Last but not least, be happy, even without me... and... I hope you think about me the way I think about you. And yes, it was enchanting to meet you :)

2025-08-14

Appreciate

"ការស្រលាញ់ដែរចេញពីចិត្ត គឺជាអារម្មណ៍នៃការផ្តល់អោយ ផ្តល់អោយដោយចេញពីចិត្តដោយមិនមានការទាមទារពីភាគគីម្ខាងទៀតទេ ដូចជាការគោរព ការទុក្ខចិត្ត ការបារម្ភ... " ទាំងនេះគឺជាពាក្យដែរខ្ងុំនិយាយប្រាប់ទៅ មនុស្សម្នាក់ដែរសួរខ្ងុំថា "what is love". ទោះបីជាពេលនេះពួកយើងលែងជាអ្វីនឹងគ្នា ប៉ុន្តែការផ្ដល់ឱ្យរបស់ខ្ញុំចំពោះអ្នកនៅតែមាន ខ្ញុំមិនដែលខឹង ស្អប់ រឺក៏គុំគួនអ្នកឡើយទោះបីជាអ្នកដៀលខ្ងុំតាមរយះ status share or story ដោយការយល់ច្រលំលើទង្វើរបស់ខ្ងុំក៏ដោយ. បើសួរនៅអាណិត ស្រលាញ់ទេ អារម្មណ៍នេះនៅតែមាន តែខ្ងុំមិនអាចបកក្រោយទេ ព្រោះចង់ឃើញអ្នកនៅជាមួយមនុស្សដែរល្អជាងខ្ងុំ ចំពោះខ្ងុំបានត្រឹមធ្វើជាសង្សារ និងបានលឺពាក្យថា I feel love when I'm with you and I never feel this with anyone before គឺគ្រប់គ្រាន់ហើយ. អ្នកប្រហែលជាគិតថាខ្ងុំអត់ដែរស្រលាញ់អ្នកទេបានជាខ្ងុំកាត់ចិត្តបានលឿនយ៉ាងនេះ ប៉ុន្តែផ្ទុយទៅវិញខ្ងុំគ្រាន់តែទទួលការពិតថាពួកយើងមិនអាចនៅជាមួយគ្នាបាន រួចទទួលយកការឈឺចាប់ទាំងអស់ ហើយក៏រំសាយម្តងបន្តិចៗតាមតែអាចធ្វើបាន បែបនេះហើយបានជាអារម្មណ៍របស់ខ្ងុំមិននៅជាប់ជុំពាក់នឹងអតីតកាល

2025-08-14

Always You!

To you my priority, since the day you left, I’m certain that I’m not the same person as I used to be. I’m sure that my feeling right now isn’t okay and it hurts me the most. I wanted to let you know that, you’re the only one who made me know what love is, you’re the only one who made me feel warm and secure while I was with you, you’re the only one that my love for you is still the same since our first day until now, you’re the only one whom I have any plans for the future. All of the sacrifices, efforts, and times that I put in, I didn’t expect anything in return, other than your love and dedication. I did everything just to make you feel that you’re the only one that got all of those things from me, not everyone else. I did everything just to make you feel happy, warm, and comfortable. I’ve never stopped daydreaming about how I’m going to build my life, buy my first house, first car with you, and marry you one day. You know what? I see you every two weeks, and when I return home I feel as if I've lost something that no one or nothing can replace. I had the feeling that I was leaving something behind that would never come back. I miss you, I'm upset, I didn’t want to return home, and I want to spend the rest of my life with you. You’re the only one, when I’m having fun and all I could think of is what if you were right here with me? I’d go on trips and while living in the moment, I allowed my imaginations to get ahead of me and I was able to picture you beside me and I got that feeling of “how nice would it be for you to be here with me”. To me, you’re perfect. To me, you’re beautiful as always in my eyes. I’m grateful you came into my life, I’m grateful for everything you’ve done for me. My love for you hasn't changed, and no one can take your place in my heart, my mind, and my brain. And I’m so sorry for what I’ve done to you. Sorry that I can’t keep you by my side. I’m still hoping everyday that you will come back to me again. You’re special to me. I’m so proud to have you in my life. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Your photo is still in my wallet, and your picture is still on my lock screen wallpaper. I wrote these letters with a song that I used to sing for you, When you’re home - Tyler Shaw. It’s 3AM now and I’m still thinking about you. I hope you will come back to me! #NL

2025-08-14

Who am I to you?

Been a long time since we spoke.y But one day, you texted me then you acted like you don't wanna talk to me. I just don't get it, why and what do you want? Have you ever wanted to talk to me? I trynna tell myself not to be upset but I still did. At the end of the day, you still did like you used to.

2025-08-14

Hatred

What would you do if you found out you're just an alternative or a shadow to his ex? Do you feel hurt? Angry? Hatred? Because I do. It was not wrong to not love somebody. What's wrong is how you keep telling me how much you love me, then keep going back to your ex. What's wrong is how you told me to forget the past and start it all again, then betray me and do all those things again the next day. What's wrong is how you told me to put my heart into trusting you, but you're using my trust against me. You kept saying you love me, but that's not love. There's no way you can love me when you still keep everything from your past. There's no way you can love me when you can fall in love with another girl within a week. There's no way you can love me when you regret being with me and hope you have chosen her instead. The funny thing is, people hurt me, but I'm now the bad guy. I hope all those people who did me wrong, who invalidate my feeling, who blame me for reacting the way I did, will all get their karma very soon. I have all this rage in me because I'm the one that has been suffering. To the people that said that it was normal and I was the one that overreacting, I hope you will be treated like this for the rest of your life. I was never someone who hold a grudge and be so revengeful, anyone who knows me knows how I always forgive people, but not this time. I choose to heal in hell.

2025-08-14

feeling lately

I miss you a lot more than I realized. things keep happening and I always find myself wishing I could tell you about them.

2025-08-14

The Complicating

Prior to reading the story, I just wanna say sorry to those who related for posting this I hope you feel me Note: The characters' names ain't real I just Oppakech XD LET'S GOOO!!! love is a great thing to find out that love is not desire. If love is not desire, then what is love? Love is not attachment, it is not a pleasure, and it is not jealousy or ambition. The fulfillment of desire, which is pleasure, is not love. So, I have come to realize that love is not a desire. It is not a pleasure, it is not an attachment, and it is not jealousy or ambition. To truly understand it, one must first go beyond the superficial. Now, let me take you on a journey beyond the sun's setting. Through the light of the sky, I will create a marble golden breeze effect. As I walk away, I will allow you to focus on the blackness of your pupil, while at the same time, letting your mind wander into the distant future. As long as you look, the world will continue to unravel, and love will find a way to find a way to be kind. On an epic journey, you will meet someone special. Starting with the journey of my love story, definitely, we started as strangers by chance studying the same major in university. The day coincident brought us, we started knowing each other and started being closed. At the beginning of this complicated relationship, we didn’t really know each other even though we are studying at the same university, we then knew each other. After a few months of knowing her, I noticed her brightness and started loving her day by day. Her name is Jasmine. She is a girl in a slim fit with a height of about 162cm. Her long blonde hair is fit with her and also the smell of it which is my favorite smell ever. The most adorable thing about her is her eyes, which are light brown that I cannot stop staring at. She has a pointed nose, which makes her look gorgeous. She has a heart-shaped lip and a soft cheek, which I expect that one day I can be able to kiss “lol”. She is such a good person I have ever met, she got a beautiful heart and other good things she got is that I couldn’t describe all in a day. After we got to know each other for about 3 months, one night my heart was beating so fast that I couldn’t recognize what happened. I started to gain confidence and finally decided to let her know about my feeling tomorrow. I moved around the remaining place to try to get to know well what was wrong with my heart, and after I couldn’t sleep at night, in the morning I started to know my heart is all on her, which is I couldn’t live without her. Later on, in the morning, I went to school with a feeling of panic and also a feeling of confidence. During the class on that day, I couldn’t stop staring at her with a feeling that I wanted to propose all my feeling that I got inside to her. After the class ended, once everybody got out of the class, and now only me and her, I finally stood up, and I said to her: “I got something to tell you, Jasmine. Please don’t leave yet.” “What is it?” she asked me with a face full of confusion and curiosity. Then, I expressed my good intention, my good feeling to her. I have also proposed to her to be my princess. After she heard all the words that came from my mouth, she started to look stunned. At that moment I felt like I wanted to run away from this awkward situation that I am the one who brought us into this, and one most important word that I wanted to say in this circumstance is “I am really sorry.” I felt like I was so wrong to put her in this while she looked like she wanted to tell me: “I really appreciate how your feeling has to me, but I don’t feel the same.” Turns out it was not the same as I had expected, she didn’t tend to reject, and she kept being silent during this whole disaster. “I have to go now.” she left as soon as she said this. I was so confused by her answer, and I couldn’t even eat or sleep at all after this disaster. More than this, because I was loving her so bad at that time, I then sent a message to her and asked her to choose between friendship and a relationship. After that, she has seen my message, but she still remained silent and did not reply to my message for a week. That night, I couldn’t sleep again because I felt hurt and ashamed for thinking that she also loves me so much as well. I went to a mart at the midnight and got alcohol drinks to treat my sorrows. In the morning, I still wanted to clarify her feeling to me because I don’t want my overthinking to overwhelm the reality, so I called her to meet up at a cafeteria nearby our school. We met at the exact same location where I called her out. After I saw her face, I started to feel panic because I was afraid that she is going to reject me again. I started to talk to her first, and I couldn’t hold my feeling and started to ask the same question that I sent a message to her that night. After she heard my question, she stopped smiling at me and started to answer my question without any hesitation. The words she said were ‘I like you’ instead of ‘I love you’, which made me feel like something has stabbed my heart. After this, I still don’t wanna give up, it was not my final destination, I have been trying to relax and try not to get her to answer this again. I know what she meant to me is that I am just her best friend who treats her such many good things than other men did. Although she counted me as her best friend, I treated her like a queen, I gave her a caring, warming heart and everything I could do. After a long period of those actions, yet she still not seeing me as the good man, she deserves. Even before we did many good things together as if we were a couple. We usually went out after a tiring class to somewhere we felt comfortable, we also said what deep down our minds to each other while we were together. Moreover, every couple always sees their partners daily or weekly it depends on them, same goes for us, we did what other couples do, I think we are more than a couple and best friend. Those days were unforgettable and memorable days for us, especially me. Since I used to be a football player and joined many competitions and now, I am still taking some time playing, I need her “Jasmine” to be that one person who could go to the football court with me and watched my performance and cheered me. She is my motivation in my daily life. She used to go there with me, giving me all the encouragement I had ever got in my entire life. But now we don’t even talk to each other anymore like we used to... People’s defining moment in their life can change their whole personality and their point of view in their life. It was a day in the middle of the week, we didn’t have class at all but we were requested to prepare some materials and lessons for our practicum. Jasmine and her friends were doing those things at school, I went there quietly without telling her. Once I had arrived, I saw an unexpected moment I didn’t expect to happen. There was another boy who was also with her sitting nearby, and that boy is my friend. After arriving in the class, she pretended not to see me coming. She didn’t say anything to me until that boy was no longer there. Before, coming into the class, one of her friends stopped me in front of the door because she already knew what would happen if I saw them being closed to each other. No longer than five minutes, I got to get in. After seeing that moment, I pretended as if something happened as she pretended not to see me, but deep down this moment was hurting me so much. All I could do is watching her and that friend of mine from far away. I could see on her face that she felt pity for me, but she didn’t say anything. After that day, I felt like I am scared to lose her even more than before. I was waiting for the class to end, and I decided that I will ask her one last time about her and me. I had to clarify everything. The class finally ended, I stood up and walked to her seat. I grabbed her hand energetically when she was about to leave. “Can we be more than friends?” I asked her confidently again. This disaster is even worst than before. She looked like she was about to cry. I remember that look on her face was like someone who got humiliated in the middle of the city. One thing I forgot is that moment, everyone even the teacher was looking at us...no... more like they looked at her. The confidence in me has awakened too fast I forgot that everyone was still in the class. I then let her hand go, and she ran away from me again or we can say ran from the embarrassment... but this time is like there is no other time she would run away from me. I felt bad for Jasmine. I didn’t even get to apologize to her for my rudeness even though I already know she hates this kind of situation. I wish I had not done it. If I had been more sensible, the mistake would not have happened; but it’s no use saying that now. We, people, are not the best and perfect of out of all time. We often make mistakes intentionally and unintentionally. I am not writing this story with good intentions but I also include my mistakes and fault. We, the man, don’t disappoint ladies or break their hearts like me. A month later, the unexpected moment came, she started going out with one of my friends. After their friendship appeared, they had made a relationship without letting me notice about them. It was a moment I had never expected; It hurt me from my soul I swear to God. What if you face or you’re in this sort of moment? What are you going to do? Will you be able to face her or them? How much you can pretend like nothing happened? Do you still keep your friendship with your friend or her? Can you do the same as I did? To be honest, I swear you all can’t; you can’t even hold your tear and keep your mind calm. Oppositely, I nominated that they are by chance knowing each other which similar to me. I was pretending what was happening was just daydreaming happening in the period of time. I still keep in touch with her once she needs me, even though, she was with him... Enjoy the adventure that brings laughs through hate, and fills up a plate with tears that create.
Rome through the bark-filled woods and watch the deer stand and run from your room. Venture upon the moon in the lake, while holding a candle for no given sake. Breathe the frosty morning into your souls while the fire burns bright at your little toes. Seek a quest that finds memories more expensive than gold. Do it all and do it together as love offers the fabric for a voyage to be told. #Thankforreading #Unforgettablememories

2025-08-14

My Fault

-N💗 Im sorry for hurting you. It was childish of me to do that to you. I don’t expect u to forgive me. I wish I could take every ounce of pain u feel right now. I love you, always. #221020