Always You!

To you my priority, since the day you left, I’m certain that I’m not the same person as I used to be. I’m sure that my feeling right now isn’t okay and it hurts me the most. I wanted to let you know that, you’re the only one who made me know what love is, you’re the only one who made me feel warm and secure while I was with you, you’re the only one that my love for you is still the same since our first day until now, you’re the only one whom I have any plans for the future. All of the sacrifices, efforts, and times that I put in, I didn’t expect anything in return, other than your love and dedication. I did everything just to make you feel that you’re the only one that got all of those things from me, not everyone else. I did everything just to make you feel happy, warm, and comfortable. I’ve never stopped daydreaming about how I’m going to build my life, buy my first house, first car with you, and marry you one day. You know what? I see you every two weeks, and when I return home I feel as if I've lost something that no one or nothing can replace. I had the feeling that I was leaving something behind that would never come back. I miss you, I'm upset, I didn’t want to return home, and I want to spend the rest of my life with you. You’re the only one, when I’m having fun and all I could think of is what if you were right here with me? I’d go on trips and while living in the moment, I allowed my imaginations to get ahead of me and I was able to picture you beside me and I got that feeling of “how nice would it be for you to be here with me”. To me, you’re perfect. To me, you’re beautiful as always in my eyes. I’m grateful you came into my life, I’m grateful for everything you’ve done for me. My love for you hasn't changed, and no one can take your place in my heart, my mind, and my brain. And I’m so sorry for what I’ve done to you. Sorry that I can’t keep you by my side. I’m still hoping everyday that you will come back to me again. You’re special to me. I’m so proud to have you in my life. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Your photo is still in my wallet, and your picture is still on my lock screen wallpaper. I wrote these letters with a song that I used to sing for you, When you’re home - Tyler Shaw. It’s 3AM now and I’m still thinking about you. I hope you will come back to me! #NL

Feeling bottled up?

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Why?

Growing up, not bragging, Ppl tell me I look decent (not ugly, not so pretty either). Those who look decent tends to have people interested in them, right? Not me though. I don’t know why and please tell me if you do. Why isn’t anyone ever interested in me? Do I look so bad? Is my personality that hard? I’ve seen others having people crushing on them and having boyfriend and all those stuff. And I look at myself and my chat box is so freaking quiet, no fling, no flirt, nothing. Trust me, I’m not that desperate, it’s just pure curiosity. Why the hell isn’t anyone interested in me? Why? I see in drama ppl be like having crush and all those fling stuff and my life is so freaking boring 😂😂😂😂. My standard isn’t that high either, just average, like others. I’m also not looking for relationship, just some flirting, just knowing the fact that someone is actually liking me, having a crush on me would be enough. What could be the problem? My problem? 🥲🥲

Mr. Perfectly fine ( Taylor swift )

Hello mr perfectly fine, how ‘s ur heart after breaking mine •3• This song really talk how I feel about you ~~

Can we be more than friend?

I have this friend and well, one day we're friend and another day he's being so sweet and all. He tells me about the other girls he met or girls that he's into. Being a good friend, I'm always there listening and giving him advices so that other girls will like him. When little did he knows that it hurts me like hell because I have feelings for him. We have almost nothing in common as far as I know but we are cool with each other. Or maybe we are only cool with being friends but why does he keeps taking care of me and making me flatter with butterflys in my stomach. I want to tell him how i feels but if things dont go well I also dont want to lose him as a friend. We chat abit before this and he's so supportive and nice and tell me to tell him if something is going on but I just cant bring myself to say anything. Staying up late and overthinking this things is killing me and I feel like I'm about to explode.

What should I do next?

I’m sorry but I don’t freaking know what to do anymore. I don’t know whether he has feeling for me or he is just being nice. I don’t know whether to move on or keep holding into this one-sided love. I want to move on before I fall for him harder than this, but the love I have for that man right now is already deeper, deeper than you can ever imagine. I don’t want to be friend with someone I love, also I can’t accept the fact that one day we’ll be stranger again. A man who I’ve never expected I’d get closed to, a man who I’ve never expected that I’d fall for this hard, a man who I’m really happy to be around…

Yuu pek hz

Kal ke trov knea ving ? #thy #leak

Barrier

You finally open up. Just like I alway wish for! Because I don’t know where did we go wrong that you choose to push me away and end it. I alway hope that we still have hope. I hope that one day you will realize and resolve thing between us. Because I am sure I don’t deserve it, being push away like that, cut out like that and I am sure I did you nothing wrong. Even if there is, at least we should give it our best shot to make thing better or to make sure that it can’t go on. Don’t true love story at least should end like this? Now that the barrier is open, my wish is granted but my hope is dying once again. Maybe it not going to go as I expected. Maybe you just want to officially show that you have someone new standing in my place.

Let you go

It's not my wish but I gotta let go cuz I'm not as great as I was before I wannna see you smile not feeling like a bored and I'm sure I'm not capable of doing that anymore. #LM

Frozen Memories

I can’t believe we’ve come this far. We got to know each other; take care each other, share our things, favourite food/drink, favourite songs/movies, our gaols, what we love, what we want…. we also went on adventures together with happiness and love like people in relationship do. But… We choose to be senior and junior. The distance between you and me it never seems to disappear, you and our memories are frozen in my heart. There are many things I don’t want to remember, always remember. If we confessed our feelings before this happened, it shouldn’t be this hard. If you just told me the things you’ve been through, we shouldn’t be strangers like we are right now. 😔 I miss you.