Who am I to you?

Been a long time since we spoke.y But one day, you texted me then you acted like you don't wanna talk to me. I just don't get it, why and what do you want? Have you ever wanted to talk to me? I trynna tell myself not to be upset but I still did. At the end of the day, you still did like you used to.

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2025-08-14

Confusion

After texting with you for so often, I realize that I have a good feeling toward you. I always get exited chatting with you, getting the butterflies in my stomach whenever you compliment me. But things go wrong when you give me an confused feelings, sometimes you make me feel like you want to chat with me and sometimes you don’t. Sometimes you make me feel like you have feeling for me too, yet you make me feel like you don’t wanna give me hope. The jokes you said, make me feel happy, hopeful and confused. Am I the one who get it wrong or you are the one who make me confused?

2025-08-14

FIRST KISS FROM MY BEST FRIEND

That is my very first kiss and that person is my best friend. I don’t know whether it is wrong or right but that kiss still stuck in my brain 🀧

2025-08-14

First and last

#firstandlastpt1 Everything start from me, it was my fault that fall in love with him. It was me who start to message him first everytime and he really friendly that make me feel he has feeling for me too. I spent 3 year to know his information and start to message him in 2019.I don't except he really talkative in message and I have good memories with each other since 2019-2020. As a girl who never had experience in love, I was so brave to proposal to him first and he reject me and said sorry. It's hurt me alot but I pretend to be okay and text him we still can be cousin like before. After that moment, I only text him whenever it's related to family issues. Someday I really miss how funny conversation I had with him even I start it first. 2021 I start to move on because I learn some advice through the book , listen to music and start to working outside cause I was a junior now. It's really work for me, I'm happy with book and my friend, we go out and had fun time and I thought I'm not into him fr. But in 2022 March, He start to message me first and I start to ignore but after 2 day ago, he talk about his family issues related to me. I decided to reply short message and he ask me to join his sister's wedding. I said yes cause we're cousin and live next to each other now. But....he make me disappointed in him again. I'll update next part πŸ”œ

2025-08-14

If such thing like fate is existed, we'll meet someday and that day will be one of the most memorable day of my life

If my mind could be read, you would be surprised how deeply my feeling is for you. Thanks for all the nice things you've done and I do appreciate your presence. Knowing you was a great coincidence and I wouldn't ask for more.

2025-08-14

dear you...

Trust me, if I could turn back time to the moment we're together, i would hold you longer, hug you tighter, kiss you more and tell you how I feel. Our moment might be short but trust me, you have a special place in my heart, always. Because everytime I look into your eyes, i could still see "us". I dont regret meeting you, i regret not be able to tell you how i feel toward you. Thank for all these moment we had. And in the end we're just stranger who know each other a little bit more than anyone else. A stranger with memories. </3

2025-08-14

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2025-08-14

The friendship I valued the most..

To the friend I used to valued... Months ago, I had a female fiend who I talked to daily, I kept listen to her rant day to day, support her during her bad time. It is not that I had feeling for her or something. I just valued our friendship. Being friend is meant to valued each other, aint it? Then one day, she told me that she got into a relationship. I congratulated her and keep texting her as we used to. Then she barely reply to my text. It is not that I got jealous or something. But the friend who you trusted, you supported most, valued the most, turned their back after got into relationship as if you meant nothing to them. Was I been used? Was I have done something wrong? Is it mean they don't want you anymore? Or is it mean you are out of their used? I don't know. After that, I decided to silently walk out of her life. Knowing that my effort has no meaning to them.(what's suck most, is she never asked or notice my absence) I still hope you have a great life, live happily. From the person who out of your used.

2025-08-14

I love you

I don't think you lied when you said " I love you " You meant it, but the love is not strong enough. Not strong enough to care about me; not strong enough to ever afraid of losing me; not strong enough to change for me; not strong enough to ask me to stay. And you let me go. I should have asked you when you said you love me. How much is the love...? 'cause now I'm suffering in the consequences of loving you too hard alone... I don't regret meeting you... But sometimes I wish I should have turned away the first time I met you... I wish I didn't choose to trust you. I wish I hadn't let myself fall for you. I wish.