feeling lately

2025-08-14

My first real love

Hey, I hope this message reach out to you in any ways. Ahh I seriously don’t know where to start. I remember the first time we met though screens. At first I thought you were just joking around. I never thought that I would fall for you that hard. It took us a week of talking stage and we started dating. To be honest, I had never felt that kind of heartwarming love from any guys I met out there. You were the first person who make me feel alive and know exactly that true love does exist. I know I’m the one to blame. I took you for granted, not knowing that you’ll soon lose interest in me. You did gave me signs. But I ignored it. You reassure me everyday that you love me, you care for me. But I didn’t believe that because I thought you still have feelings for your ex. I love it when you call me “ Babe “. I can still hear you calling me that. Day by day I tried to forget you. Besides all the good memories we had together always hit me up. I was stupid for not keeping our love last. I was stupid for not acknowledging the signs that you have given me. At the end of the day all I got was sorrow. You remember there was a song called strange by celeste? It goes like “ Isn’t strange how people can change, from strangers to friends, friends into lovers and strangers again.. “. 13-11-2021 was the day we decided to walk different path. I don’t blame you for catching feelings for her. It was my fault for making you falling for her. If I was good to you, you wouldn’t have fallen for her. I’m sorry I wasn’t at my best version back then. But no I won’t blame you. And again I had never thought that you would walk away from my life. You were the only person who make me shine bright like a star. Right now, you’re not here anymore. I miss you every second, every minute, every hour and everyday. Hoping that you’ll come back. But I know that you won’t. It has been almost 5 months now and I’m still in love with you. Although we can’t turn back time, however I wish you’ll find someone who is loving and will love you unconditionally. All the best!

I almost do-- Taylor swift

I almost contacted you again, but everytime I almost did, I remembered how we're nth to each other. Everytime I almost did, I scrolled through our chats and I saw how pathetic I was. Almost begging for your love. Everytime I almost did, I remembered how you would let me go back home alone. How you had time for everyone else but never for me. How you forgot everything you said. How you told me you would do this and that for me but you never did. Every little things you said you would do. It's the details that matters and show me how much you love me. Turned out I couldn't feel the love at all. I remembered how hopeless and broken I felt to see you never want to give me the title, to never want to commit into the relationship, to never think of us. It was the last straw that broke me. Broke us. They said loving someone too much will make them stop appreciating you, I guess that's true. I gave up my pride for you for so many times. Let's keep this last one for myself. Take care.

The Hidden Feeling

Memories seemed to be faded as the time flew without stopping a single second, out of the blue, we started to chat with each other again. it'd been many year since we last talked to each other. first of all, I just want to know if you are fine, healthy, and happy with your boyfriend even though I feel that you guys have already broken up. As before you're still the most hardworking girl ( i should say woman yet I still find you still a girl who didn't know your own limit). my feeling for you is still over here even though we have already broken up for many years, I wonder and always ask myself are you still have feelings for me as before? but my feeling told me that you had already moved on and prepared to be successes woman who didn't depend on others. Everything has changed yet my feeling still stay. I'm standing from here wishing you success on your journey and being able to find your true happiest with the right partner who stays there with you through every situation. ^_^

It is not that funny.

Recently, I have seen some posts and memes about “Ukraine” and “Thai actress“. And they are assuming that men are interested in “Ukraine” but women are more inclined toward that “Thai actress” tragedy. Basically, it’s like “men things“ and “women things”. It's always seemed strange to me that women are considered more into drama, shopping, cooking,… and men are considered more into politics, cars,… and women shares different interests from men. I, myself is just a teenager who is finishing my diploma and prepare for my college year. I finds it ridiculous and ignorant. I’m a girl and I’m either into politics, shopping, cars and cooking (sometimes). And I’m not better than whoever is more interested in celebrities news…people share different interests.

To strong

I heard people said "when u are a girl and u're strong is hard for a man to catch u up. Because when u sad or depress and in a hard situation u never need ur man to comfort u cause u can deal it on ur own. That will make up think u are strong enough to deal with ur proplem and he is too useless and starting to distance himself from u cause he think u are to high like a star for him to catch and he to weak, not a man who u deserve". I think they are right. I had been in 3relatio ahips now. The reason of my break up are I am to strong and i never show my weakness and even not talk about my things to my man, so they broke up with me. They never knew i am living a misirible life. I had all kind of pain and trying really hard each day until everything become a habbit. The pain can hurt me anymore.

Hey Mr. Panda! I feel so hard 🥺

I've told myself to move on and give up on you. I've tried my best to forget you, to ignore you and to not talking to you. 🥺🥺🥺 BUT - Can you tell me why I can't take my eyes off from you? - Why I can't let you go? - Why my heart is hurting all the time that I miss you? - Why you don't care about me even a bit? - Why why and why? All the questions keep appearing in my mind every late night that I can't sleep. I am about to feel depressed with this stupid one-side lover. I am about to lose my happy signature because of you. I sometimes ask myself that why do you become this importance to me until I almost lose myself. The answer is loving someone without reasons called as real LOVE that's why I can't find any solution to solve this matter. Anyway, now I feel so hard, I wish you can comfort me and going on with me 🥺

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