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I caught myself being loyal to a man who ain’t even my boyfriend.🙂
Prior to reading the story, I just wanna say sorry to those who related for posting this I hope you feel me Note: The characters' names ain't real I just Oppakech XD LET'S GOOO!!! love is a great thing to find out that love is not desire. If love is not desire, then what is love? Love is not attachment, it is not a pleasure, and it is not jealousy or ambition. The fulfillment of desire, which is pleasure, is not love. So, I have come to realize that love is not a desire. It is not a pleasure, it is not an attachment, and it is not jealousy or ambition. To truly understand it, one must first go beyond the superficial. Now, let me take you on a journey beyond the sun's setting. Through the light of the sky, I will create a marble golden breeze effect. As I walk away, I will allow you to focus on the blackness of your pupil, while at the same time, letting your mind wander into the distant future. As long as you look, the world will continue to unravel, and love will find a way to find a way to be kind. On an epic journey, you will meet someone special. Starting with the journey of my love story, definitely, we started as strangers by chance studying the same major in university. The day coincident brought us, we started knowing each other and started being closed. At the beginning of this complicated relationship, we didn’t really know each other even though we are studying at the same university, we then knew each other. After a few months of knowing her, I noticed her brightness and started loving her day by day. Her name is Jasmine. She is a girl in a slim fit with a height of about 162cm. Her long blonde hair is fit with her and also the smell of it which is my favorite smell ever. The most adorable thing about her is her eyes, which are light brown that I cannot stop staring at. She has a pointed nose, which makes her look gorgeous. She has a heart-shaped lip and a soft cheek, which I expect that one day I can be able to kiss “lol”. She is such a good person I have ever met, she got a beautiful heart and other good things she got is that I couldn’t describe all in a day. After we got to know each other for about 3 months, one night my heart was beating so fast that I couldn’t recognize what happened. I started to gain confidence and finally decided to let her know about my feeling tomorrow. I moved around the remaining place to try to get to know well what was wrong with my heart, and after I couldn’t sleep at night, in the morning I started to know my heart is all on her, which is I couldn’t live without her. Later on, in the morning, I went to school with a feeling of panic and also a feeling of confidence. During the class on that day, I couldn’t stop staring at her with a feeling that I wanted to propose all my feeling that I got inside to her. After the class ended, once everybody got out of the class, and now only me and her, I finally stood up, and I said to her: “I got something to tell you, Jasmine. Please don’t leave yet.” “What is it?” she asked me with a face full of confusion and curiosity. Then, I expressed my good intention, my good feeling to her. I have also proposed to her to be my princess. After she heard all the words that came from my mouth, she started to look stunned. At that moment I felt like I wanted to run away from this awkward situation that I am the one who brought us into this, and one most important word that I wanted to say in this circumstance is “I am really sorry.” I felt like I was so wrong to put her in this while she looked like she wanted to tell me: “I really appreciate how your feeling has to me, but I don’t feel the same.” Turns out it was not the same as I had expected, she didn’t tend to reject, and she kept being silent during this whole disaster. “I have to go now.” she left as soon as she said this. I was so confused by her answer, and I couldn’t even eat or sleep at all after this disaster. More than this, because I was loving her so bad at that time, I then sent a message to her and asked her to choose between friendship and a relationship. After that, she has seen my message, but she still remained silent and did not reply to my message for a week. That night, I couldn’t sleep again because I felt hurt and ashamed for thinking that she also loves me so much as well. I went to a mart at the midnight and got alcohol drinks to treat my sorrows. In the morning, I still wanted to clarify her feeling to me because I don’t want my overthinking to overwhelm the reality, so I called her to meet up at a cafeteria nearby our school. We met at the exact same location where I called her out. After I saw her face, I started to feel panic because I was afraid that she is going to reject me again. I started to talk to her first, and I couldn’t hold my feeling and started to ask the same question that I sent a message to her that night. After she heard my question, she stopped smiling at me and started to answer my question without any hesitation. The words she said were ‘I like you’ instead of ‘I love you’, which made me feel like something has stabbed my heart. After this, I still don’t wanna give up, it was not my final destination, I have been trying to relax and try not to get her to answer this again. I know what she meant to me is that I am just her best friend who treats her such many good things than other men did. Although she counted me as her best friend, I treated her like a queen, I gave her a caring, warming heart and everything I could do. After a long period of those actions, yet she still not seeing me as the good man, she deserves. Even before we did many good things together as if we were a couple. We usually went out after a tiring class to somewhere we felt comfortable, we also said what deep down our minds to each other while we were together. Moreover, every couple always sees their partners daily or weekly it depends on them, same goes for us, we did what other couples do, I think we are more than a couple and best friend. Those days were unforgettable and memorable days for us, especially me. Since I used to be a football player and joined many competitions and now, I am still taking some time playing, I need her “Jasmine” to be that one person who could go to the football court with me and watched my performance and cheered me. She is my motivation in my daily life. She used to go there with me, giving me all the encouragement I had ever got in my entire life. But now we don’t even talk to each other anymore like we used to... People’s defining moment in their life can change their whole personality and their point of view in their life. It was a day in the middle of the week, we didn’t have class at all but we were requested to prepare some materials and lessons for our practicum. Jasmine and her friends were doing those things at school, I went there quietly without telling her. Once I had arrived, I saw an unexpected moment I didn’t expect to happen. There was another boy who was also with her sitting nearby, and that boy is my friend. After arriving in the class, she pretended not to see me coming. She didn’t say anything to me until that boy was no longer there. Before, coming into the class, one of her friends stopped me in front of the door because she already knew what would happen if I saw them being closed to each other. No longer than five minutes, I got to get in. After seeing that moment, I pretended as if something happened as she pretended not to see me, but deep down this moment was hurting me so much. All I could do is watching her and that friend of mine from far away. I could see on her face that she felt pity for me, but she didn’t say anything. After that day, I felt like I am scared to lose her even more than before. I was waiting for the class to end, and I decided that I will ask her one last time about her and me. I had to clarify everything. The class finally ended, I stood up and walked to her seat. I grabbed her hand energetically when she was about to leave. “Can we be more than friends?” I asked her confidently again. This disaster is even worst than before. She looked like she was about to cry. I remember that look on her face was like someone who got humiliated in the middle of the city. One thing I forgot is that moment, everyone even the teacher was looking at us...no... more like they looked at her. The confidence in me has awakened too fast I forgot that everyone was still in the class. I then let her hand go, and she ran away from me again or we can say ran from the embarrassment... but this time is like there is no other time she would run away from me. I felt bad for Jasmine. I didn’t even get to apologize to her for my rudeness even though I already know she hates this kind of situation. I wish I had not done it. If I had been more sensible, the mistake would not have happened; but it’s no use saying that now. We, people, are not the best and perfect of out of all time. We often make mistakes intentionally and unintentionally. I am not writing this story with good intentions but I also include my mistakes and fault. We, the man, don’t disappoint ladies or break their hearts like me. A month later, the unexpected moment came, she started going out with one of my friends. After their friendship appeared, they had made a relationship without letting me notice about them. It was a moment I had never expected; It hurt me from my soul I swear to God. What if you face or you’re in this sort of moment? What are you going to do? Will you be able to face her or them? How much you can pretend like nothing happened? Do you still keep your friendship with your friend or her? Can you do the same as I did? To be honest, I swear you all can’t; you can’t even hold your tear and keep your mind calm. Oppositely, I nominated that they are by chance knowing each other which similar to me. I was pretending what was happening was just daydreaming happening in the period of time. I still keep in touch with her once she needs me, even though, she was with him... Enjoy the adventure that brings laughs through hate, and fills up a plate with tears that create. Rome through the bark-filled woods and watch the deer stand and run from your room. Venture upon the moon in the lake, while holding a candle for no given sake. Breathe the frosty morning into your souls while the fire burns bright at your little toes. Seek a quest that finds memories more expensive than gold. Do it all and do it together as love offers the fabric for a voyage to be told. #Thankforreading #Unforgettablememories
I caught myself being loyal to a man who ain’t even my boyfriend.🙂
Wanting to tell you how I feel but not knowing how to start kills me inside. Whenever I see you, I want to look at you in the eyes and do nothing else. Just want to stare at those beautiful eyes like I once did when we went out together. I want to tell you reasons why I no longer pick up your phone. Reply your message. Talk to you in person. And a lot more. I’d like to apologize for hurting you. For giving you a hard time to take a step back from me. But I couldn’t say anything because it’ll only complicate the situation and makes it even more difficult for us when we cross paths. But now that I see you laugh and have fun with others again, it’s all I want. I hope you don’t hate me for ignoring you without giving proper reasons. I don’t know how to tell you and I will never be able to tell you. Just keep one thing in mind, you will forever have a place in my heart even though we can never be together.
I used to be that type of person too tho:). I find it easy to cope stress on my own but one day you might just losen out for a really big time. So, it's better to let your friend know even if it's hard for you to open up. Just spit a bit even if it's seem nonsense to your friend. This is weird for me to share my experience with a stranger xD.
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Your good morning text, your sweet talk, your arms, your chest, your lips, your hair, your everything is my favorite. I love it when you call me babe. I love it when you call me just to rant about how your mom treats you. I love it when you tell me how your day was. I love it when you text me saying I love you. I love it when you hug me. I love it when you kiss me. I love everything that you do. I love how you switch your drinks or food with me because I didn't like what I ordered. The ice cream place we went to. The drinks we ordered. The future we talked about. The random things we sent to each other. The dark humor you used to tell me. The dad jokes you told me. The heavy metal music you listen to before you sleep. Every little thing of yours is my favorite. I miss everything about you, but you hurted me, so bad. It felt so good somehow.
why is it too hard to be myself?
Consider this a respond to #KJ0061 – as a fellow person with ADHD (side note: ADHD more common than you might think). ADHD is often not talked about here (our country) and more often than not, this neurodivergent behavior is misjudged for laziness and reckless. There are many forms of ADHD, but in my specific case, I often hyper fixate on things and lose feelings really fast. I can start a new hobby and forget about it the next day. I can place my keys somewhere and would lose it just as quickly. In class, it is very difficult to concentrate and online class isn’t making it any easier. I often find myself fall short when it comes to tasks such as organizing and planning. I would forget to bring even the simplest thing. I’m always running late for class, and falling behind on certain tasks. That doesn’t mean that I am unable to do anything just like the neurotypical (people with normal brain). It just take a lot more effort. Some of you will never understand how much effort it takes for a person with AHDH to bring everything to class, complete assignments on time and manage their time. It’s not impossible, but it takes us so much effort just to seem normal. I try my best to walk at the same pace as the neurotypical, but I’m sure many people with AHDH struggle more than me. If you’re reading this, be kind to people who you think might have ADHD. Maybe it’s not that they don’t try. Maybe it’s very, very, very hard for them to do the simplest things. Be understanding.
My bf… I need you guys advice… Everyone around me been telling me that he a walking a-red flag… what he did in the past… hurt many girl cheat on many girls… flirt with many girls… however currently, he been treating me really good.. like literally everyone in his school knew him about what he did in the past.. i’m sorry i’m so stress i’m rambling around… i need your advice