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Sometimes, happiness is only a cloak to hide one sorrow.

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"Our Beloved Summer" vs. Our Story

I never relate to anything as much as this drama. It's literally the story of us except they could meet again after 5 years while we couldn't even after more than 5 years.Ung's character is pretty much similar to yours and he reminds me so much of you. It pains me to see him suffered from the breakup and how it changed his life as I realize you had suffered this much too after I coldly left you. Watching Ung feels as if I'm watching you and it hits me hard. I wonder if you're doing better now; and whether or not you still overthink and having trouble sleeping.I wonder if you hate me as much that you could have thrown salt and sprayed water at me if we met. Even if our path will never be crossed again, I'll still be happy for your happiness. I hope you never doubt yourself again, just live well and be happy.

My favorite songs

We left your house around 5pm. The sky started to rain. It's our first time riding a motorbike in the rain together. I wore your white hoodie hugging you from behind under the heavy rain. It was one of the best feelings ever. I would get emotional while staying under the rain but staying with you made me forget all those traumas. “I love you” you said it under the rain. I love it. I wish this moment would last longer. We went on Spotify and listened to heavy metal music because it's your fav genre but I skipped rock music. It was Bad Romance by Lady Gaga. We sang along. The next song was Good 4 U by Olivia Rodrigo. These two are my favorites. Little did I know, my story became exactly like my favorite songs. You gave up on me. I don't wanna lose you, never.

វិបត្តិ

ទម្រាំមានមនុស្សម្នាក់ៗដែលចូលមកជីវិតយើង ធ្វើឲ្យយើងមានការចាប់អារម្មណ៍ម្តងម្តង មិនងាយទេ ពិសេសគឺកើតជាក្តីស្រលាញ់រឹតតែមិនមែនជារឿងងាយ ព្រោះមនុស្សធ្លាប់មានវិបត្តិស្នេហា មិនសូវហ៊ានបើកចិត្តទទួលអ្នកថ្មី ៕ សង្ឃឹមថា អ្នកបន្ទាប់ជាអ្នកចុងក្រោយទៅចុះ គ្មានពេលវេលាសម្រាប់ស្វែងយល់អ្នកថ្មីទៀតទេ #November

Wishes

The tough days I went through by myself, the darkness nights I cried without anyone knowing, the unexplainable thoughts I unable to solve, the overthinking idiot and the mentally tiring soul, I don’t freaking know how long I can deal with it anymore. I wish I could give myself the loves and comfort the way I always have for others. I wish I could put myself as my first priority AT LEAST FOR ONCE, but the freaking soft me can never do that. I wish I could speak my mind and express how I feel inside but the thought of people will leave me is frightening me. Sometimes all I need is comfort, but how can I expect people to comfort me when I can’t even do it to myself? I wish I could control the emotion I have against myself, but nahhh the stupid me don’t know how to do that. Maybe I’m the problematic one…

Finally they leave

she call me best friend but never want to see me good than her. Call me best friend but always envy me. Call me best friend but always say the words that make me think down on myself Finally I can cut her off of my life

The boy from Tinder (Part 1)

9:30pm, 11th April - The start of our Journey, it was our first date. He brought me to places I never been before, experience new things. It was like a dream if I could date him. Everything was perfect, I was happy than ever. But that happiness didn’t last forever…… To be continued.

Painful scars 12th April

I know that your life is so different now from mine. I know that you may never forget about us, but you have forgotten your feelings about me. I know that you have somebody else beside you And I know that you may be saying your i-love-yous to him in different ways. Something that is quite deeper, bolder, or even kinder. Or something that promises your stay still together. I’m just here to write this one for you as I couldn’t think of any better way to tell you how I truly feel until this day about what has happened to us. And to tell you, in case there’s a chance that you read this—that I’ve forgiven you, myself, our past; to say “thank you,” and bid you farewell for the last time. I wish there’s a better way to tell you how painful that night was for me. That night when you said your feeling fade that my mistake...i been thinking why somebody else has occupied your heart that fast while being with me for 1 year you being with me. You didn’t have any idea that while you were saying those words, my hands couldn’t stop shaking as I’ve never expected what was going to happen. I didn’t know that the few days before that night would be the last time that I’ll get to experience a pure bliss being with you. That I’ll never be able to genuinely smile again for a few years. And that I’ll crash and burn. I didn’t know that such deep pain would exist and I’ve underestimated the capacity of life to hurt me in ways that I’ve failed to imagine. I saw how a moment changes, how time is fleeting so fast right before my eyes. That one moment you were telling me that you wouldn’t hesitate to give the world or your life to me. And then another sudden moment came and you treated me like I was the most disgusting person you have ever known. They say time heals all wounds, but the wound you’ve caused me is way beyond having a bruised heart. My soul got wounded too, and it still cries sometimes for what was inflicted on me

The reason that I will never know

I once had a close friend who’s now a stranger!Well, been a long time since you left me. We used to do lots of things together, walk to school, have meals, watch movies, ….but one day you just left me, ignored me, you act like you haven't known me and I didn't why! I decided to text you,I ask you what wrong with you? Did I do sth wrong?Why did you ignore?I apologize for all my mistakes even I don’t know what did I do wrong. You said I didn't do anything wrong and there're no reason it's your decision to leave. I can't stop so I have to let you go.Since the day you've changed till now I keep asking myself what’s your reason , why did you decide to leave me!It’s weird how time changes things.I will never get angry with you .I hope you are doing well....!