The reason that I will never know

I once had a close friend who’s now a stranger!Well, been a long time since you left me. We used to do lots of things together, walk to school, have meals, watch movies, ….but one day you just left me, ignored me, you act like you haven't known me and I didn't why! I decided to text you,I ask you what wrong with you? Did I do sth wrong?Why did you ignore?I apologize for all my mistakes even I don’t know what did I do wrong. You said I didn't do anything wrong and there're no reason it's your decision to leave. I can't stop so I have to let you go.Since the day you've changed till now I keep asking myself what’s your reason , why did you decide to leave me!It’s weird how time changes things.I will never get angry with you .I hope you are doing well....!

Feeling bottled up?

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At least we look at the same moon 🌒

We used to be best buddies but look at us now, we are stranger with unforgettable memories. You are now starting a new life with new people but me, myself and I still struggling with the pain you gave:) the love you gave, the things you gave, how much i’ve suffered because of you I'll count it as memorable moments I was with you❤️ We shared things tgt. We enjoyed a day tgt but at the end it’s only stupid me who’s waiting for you to comeback even though I know you’ll never comeback, I'm still praying for you from the darkest place you couldn’t see. You were my enchanté 💟

Upset

I’m a type of person that value friendship more than relationship , I rather not date anyone just so I have more time to hang out with my close friend. We share stuff no one ever know about us , enjoy each other’s company without saying a word to each other , inside jokes , hangout non stop…But then things change , third party comes in , she is still my friend but someone else has become her closest friend. They share conversations day and night , calling non stop , playing with each other all the time . I feel like I’m left out but who am i to be jealous of that , you guys seem to be enjoying each other company so much , why would i ruin that because of my feeling , I’m just upset that I can’t provide you that feeling , but it is what it is . I don’t know if you know that I’m upset with that but since I’m not good at opening up to you anymore, I hope the best for you guys even if we become stranger one day…

I’m sorry

Hmmm That’s my last text Sorry i knew that I’ve hurt u million times Sorry we can’t be back tgt Sorry cause my guilt are too big I can’t let u forgive me easily. Sorry that I made your day become the worst after your whole tiring both physically and mentally Sorry that I turned u down again and again Sorry that I can’t hold u long enough Sorry that I disappointed u Sorry I’m too selfish that I always want to be ur friend again Sorry I’m too selfish that I don’t want to be with u but I also don’t want u to be with someone else !!!! Billion sorry that I wanted to tell u but I can’t. I still love u however I have done enough to deal with my imaginable problem and I can’t share it with u. I can’t hold u any longer. Sorry my mental issue gonna hit me up again if I stay in relationship. Sorry that I made u become a drunk, stress, toxic person for the last 3 months. I’m sorry even we back tgt we still not the same since I’ve changed. I’m not the girl that u love anymore. Still Loving u was like a dream, a dream that i would never want to wake up Anyway hope u and her get along tgt. I hope that she will give u all the love that u deserve to receive. Hope that she treat u right. Hope that she’s the one that u’ve been searching for. ❤️💛

CAGE

I always thought that the older I got, the better thing would get. I was wrong. I am a young adult who still can't make my own decisions. I feel trapped and feel like I wasted my youth away. I am young and want to have fun and experience everything I have never done before. Is it too much to ask? Parent's care is something everybody needs, but there are boundaries. Sometimes I spend my time thinking of everything I could have done but couldn't because of somebody's opinions or pity excuses. I wish for a life that I live with no regrets, where I decide on my own, and nobody can tell what I can or cannot do. Not everybody has to have the same fate.

Who we are......

The reason I write this up, I want

Tiring decision

I did the best I could but the result doesn’t satisfy me one bit. I want to give up but it means that all my effort have gone to waste, I also have no motivation to continue on. Everyone will just tell me to push through it but people have different tolerance. I don’t want to lose this but there’s also nothing ahead of me to look forward to

Because of her previous love makes her doesn't want to engage with love again.

Been loving her for years now even before she had boyfriend. (Almost half of my lifetime) I've been this far following her, waiting her to be ready to be in love again. And if she's ready to go again I hope that it will be me she chooses. She's already know I'm in love with her. I'm ready to take care of her, make her happy, comfort her whenever she's down. (She has problem with nervous breakdown) Well, I also think I've made her little happy sometimes. But she's an unexpected one, she seems happy today but then tomorrow she ignores me. It makes me feel bad 😐 ~It's kinda sad when I see people get to be in relationships with their dream person while I don't. Sometimes my instincts urge me to give up cuz the relationship between us appear that it would never happens. Thanks admins for approving.

If it’s that hard.

Why don't you just say it if you no longer want to talk. It hurts me but It’s probably easier for either of us and you have to leave me alone and waiting for your replies for hours or even days. It’s so exhausted to question my own worth. Just spill it out and let’s move on.