What's the next move?

I met a girl, let's called her M, we date for almost 2 years but we are not in a relationship. We took like 2 or 3 breaks during the time that we talk. And we decided to broke up 2 weeks before we hit 2 years, but we still talk as a friend because before that we aren't even in a committed relationship too. M has a lot of friends even a lot of people want her too because she's a good girl, she's friendly, and she's gorgeous. And I know there's no chance of getting back together because she's talking to a guy that made me completely insecure, they were very close since before we broke up. He's close to her than I am now. I want to meet her but she always denies and she always goes out with that dude and her friends ship her with him too. And now I am seeing another girl which happens to be one of her friends too but they're not that close, So now what should I do should I stay away from her friends or should I or ask her out?? What are the consequences of dating her? what could happen next? what should I do? We went to the same Uni

Feeling bottled up?

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Hey Bxtch! I kinda miss the way that we joke around, go everywhere tgt, advising each other, caring each other, worrying each other, informing each other most of the time. til the day that we kinda officially separated, i dun think that it was a great way to be like that for both us, i think we might hurt both side. yess bestie! It alr long time ago, I think i can forget u, but i dun think so. everywhere we went, it left the footprint, even i date s1 and i saw that places, it left us behind. it's such a great time that we spent tgt, i literally miss everything we've been done. And I wish to say sorry to u for not catching up with u for so long, but i dun mean so. I can't help myself for not to be inlove with u, that must be the reason. yeah! but sometimes i do stalk u, and i dun feel too, yap, actually it is. I know u r with a great person, and i hope that he takes care of u better much better than i used to. From a good fri...

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