your presence

it's so weird to no longer have someone in your life. whether it's a friend you don't talk to anymore or a partner you've broken up with, it's so weird to be left with all of this knowledge of someone else and have no use for it anymore. like the way they drink their coffee, their favorite meal when they're sad, a story they told you abt their childhood when you both saw something that reminded them of said story so now you're reminded of it too when you see that thing. and to have someone out in the world with so much intimate and casual knowledge of you and you wonder if they feel happy or sad or uncaring when they see something that reminds them of you too.

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Stuck

People said that your friends are the one who help you with emotional support, but why do I feel like I have no one yet I have a lot of them. Flashbacks keep hunting me and it turns into nightmares, which I can’t escape. I can’t find even one person to talk to. I can’t find the solutions to solve the problems, but believe me I’m trying. I felt so angry and stupid and just unmotivated. I have no energy to continue doing what I should be doing. Got any suggestions to help me, please comment down. Thanks in advance and appreciate your help!

Pain….

Hey, I don’t know whether you’ll see this but I hope you won’t. Anyway, I just found out that u muted me on social media when I did literally nothing to you. Why ? I just completely on my own space but when I found out about it, my heart just break into pieces. I don’t know who am I to you, whether I’m annoying to u or else. I’m completely not okay as you muted me and treat me this way. I cherished our friendship so much we’ve been friends for many years, we spent our wonderful teenager life together. I remember I had you, and u know u had me too. It’s just a friendship they said, but to me it’s a really pure and beautiful one I had with you but since you did this to me I might be somehow annoy u therefore, I will no longer post or share anything on social media… so if u see this it’s up to u whether u want to unfollow or block me whatever makes you happy but remember one thing, as I figured it out I can’t stop myself from crying as I don’t know that is how u treat me as friend for years, as someone who used to comfort, help, and yeah u helped me a lot too. We shared tons of memories and it left me heartbroken and speechless of how 2years of miscommunication lead us to this. You know I have trust issues when it comes to love but thanks to you now I have trust issue in friendship too. Good luck!!!

Thank you for reliving my soul #PYJ

Through a heart break of rejection and the lose of my best friendship, I felt like losing my own home. I got no one by my side, that's what a child far from home like me felt. Just then, I met you, someone I can share all my sorrow and believing. If you happen to see this, I just wanna let you know that you were my strength to confront and overcome those challenges. I'm grateful for your existing through my darkest hour, where your presence told me I have you. And you're in my memory too and I felt whatever you felt. I can't keep in touch with you for some reasons, that's why I couldn't tell you all this. And I know if I could tell you, you won't settle down. I have a different life now and I can't be a late night talk companion like I used to. I forgave you whatever you did and do forgive me too for whatever I said to you. Please think of me like a good friend you had. You gotta live your good life and one day, someone's gonna take my place from your memory to a living moment.

A stranger that I want to meet

I met this stranger at Major Cineplex Aeon 2 today (21.Nov). We were sitting next to each other while watching the Eternals (schedule 2:00pm). I really want to be friend with him but I could not gather up my courage to approach him. So I hope this post will reach him. And to you, if you see this please interact with this post. I really hope I can find you and I hope we can be friend. 💫

Even if we are not together (admin edition)

Hey there, Just wanna leave a message here. Well, it’s something that is bittersweet. You’re a beautiful flower and I love to see you grow. Azami,

What should I do next?

I’m sorry but I don’t freaking know what to do anymore. I don’t know whether he has feeling for me or he is just being nice. I don’t know whether to move on or keep holding into this one-sided love. I want to move on before I fall for him harder than this, but the love I have for that man right now is already deeper, deeper than you can ever imagine. I don’t want to be friend with someone I love, also I can’t accept the fact that one day we’ll be stranger again. A man who I’ve never expected I’d get closed to, a man who I’ve never expected that I’d fall for this hard, a man who I’m really happy to be around…

JUST TELL ME

I deserve to be treated well. Why are you treating me like this? If you don’t wanna talk to me, just tell me. You don’t have to ignore and ghosting me like this. Texting with you is just like replying not talking. Why you made me feels like I’m begging you just to talk to me. If you’re lost interest, just TELL ME. Sorry for accidentally caught feelings for you, but I can’t help it.

Lover or stranger

"We care , We call, We Meet and holding hand each other" but still not enough to clarity that I am your lover to other people and you either. Sometime more like lover Sometime more like stranger. It's so damn hurt me