Dear S_Tep

It’s already a month since we apart. May I ask have you ever regretted about your decision that you make​? I’m still think what if we still continue our status, how good or bad it is? I know our time together was short, but it is deep to me.

Feeling bottled up?

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2025-08-14

Remember to love yourself, hot mama

1. Your body is more than just what it looks like. Your body has kept you alive through a pandemic - how amazing is that? It works so hard everyday. Your body enables you to run, to do daily activities, to study and work and do the things you love. So remember to love and take care of it, and nourish your body and soul. Don’t punish it. Remember to eat, because food is fuel. There’s no bad food or good food. 2. Your clothes fit you, not “you have to fit into your clothes”. It’s okay to gain or lose weight, to go up or down clothing sizes. You probably don’t look like your high school self anymore because you’re not supposed to. Remember that some of us are growing boys and girls, and our bodies will change, and that’s totally fine ❤️ Remember to embrace it :) 3. There is no “perfect” body (long legs, flat stomach). Everyone’s body is different. You might see pictures of models online looking all slim and fit, their bellies flat. But no one looks like that *all the time* in real life. Poses, tensing, edits - you see the highlights, what they want you to see. You can unfollow accounts that make you feel bad. It’s okay to have fat, to have fat on your belly; it’s a food pouch that holds happiness!! Your perfect body is whatever you want it to be, as long as you’re happy and healthy and comfortable. You’re beautiful and anyone who tells you otherwise can shove a porcupine up their ass yeehaw. 4. You can love yourself just as you are now. You don’t have to wait until you’re prettier or thinner or more successful, more worthy to start loving yourself. You are worthy of love, right now just as you are. 5. If you don’t think you look good in pictures, maybe it’s because you have the kind of beauty that moves :) - a reddit comment I saw years ago I’ve struggled with body image issues for a few years now, and these are things I have to keep telling myself. I believe them some days less than other days, and my relationship with food and my body still isn’t the best. But that’s okay. Self-love is a journey. I hope these little reminders can help anyone out there struggling with their body too ❤️

2025-08-14

Have you met the one who is "better" that your friends always said "You deserve better" yet?

Been in many toxic relationships. Been as a please person. Been loving controller, narcissist, and who doesn't value my love for them. I'm tired but they said "Keep being nice, loyal, and faithful in relationship and soon you will find someone you deserve". So have you found her/him yet? Would you stop being faithful cause of how you been treated? Or wait until the "better" one coming?
2025-08-14

How it went

Yes! You ignore small things I raised. So whenever things went wrong, I told you so. I ask for things to be fixed. I didn’t stay quiet. I told about whatever disturbing my mind. But you seemed to be so careless. I was wondering is that how you love someone? How could you not give a damn about everything? I was devastated because of your replies: "ប៉ុណ្ណឹងសោះ" , "ចរិតខ្ញុំតែប៉ុណ្ណឹង" , "រឿងចឹងក៏គិតដែរ",etc. So instead of considering changing or solving, you just let the argument go overnight, and act like nth happened in the next morning. That's how things get worse. And the worst is when you finally admit that you can't change! That was when I finalize us cuz you didn't commit to be fixed. All you said was " That is how I am.". People changed for betterment, especially lovers make changes to adapt with one another. But I learned that trying alone is not gonna make things last. That was enough (your answer)! You don't know how to love, or maybe you love in other ways which I might not have the ability to understand your love language. All I know is if I were you, I wouldn't let my lover go through the night where everything weren't even given a reasonable explanation. You overdo of "This is how I am.". Sorry, but I lose you to find me. So do you! You lose me to mature your thoughts. "Love once again when you become a man." -anonymous

2025-08-14

Inside

There a big black hole inside of me which can't be fill. That empty part even myself can't complete it. U think having everything are happinese? No! I have and able to get what i want but if u ask am i happy yet? No i don't, Do i ask for more? Also, no i don't. I don't understand either why am i like this? I think everything seem to be enough for me but why am i feeling so empty? Why is it so dry?...... How long does this feeling going to last?.... I want to feel happinese too...
2025-08-14

A broken child.

I grew up in a very dysfunctional family. Even though it was very clear at a young age to me that mommy and daddy absolutely hated each other’s guts and only got married in the first place cause of my birth, they refused to divorce. “Staying together for the kids” is the absolute worst thing you can do to a child. Mom and dad, What did I do wrong?? my existence??? [newLine*]Personally, it effected my general self esteem and the way I formed and behaved in relationships for the rest of my life. I was diagnosed with PTSD, (yess PTSD) as growing up in a house that was literally a battlefield. I always blaming myself for being existing. I thought my family was normal. It wasn’t until i turned 15 when I had friends whom I would go visit and then I started seeing something completely different. My friends had normal parents. Before that, I thought a dysfunctional family was normal. I still suffer from anxiety to this day and self-esteem. My problems are a constant fear of getting too close to people, including friends. As I grew older I became more quiet. It’s effected my relationships and friendships to a point where I end up pushing people away. I like being alone where there’s complete silence and nothing can bother me. I think I came to this point due to growing up in my parents house and constantly hearing them scream at each other, doors slamming. My self-esteem problems are mostly from being ignored and neglected through out my early life. My parents whose were never involved with anything of my childhood despite us living in the same household. The cause of their arguments has always been about me, and still is to this day. My dad came home from work and fighting with my mom because of me, it became worse with age. I feel embarrassed or ashamed to even talk about this with my close friends. My family was of the type that everything happened behind closed doors and out in public. If I had friends come over, they became entirely different people in front of my friends. They could actually act right and tolerate each other when they had company- (why the hell can’t you be normal like that all the time?) For this reason, I never opened up and told my friends what happened in our house cause I feared they’d never believe me. It wasn’t until my early adult years, I finally opened up and started telling my friends what really going on at home but some of them told me that no matter what it is, they’re still my parents and they loves me but they don't seem to loves me nor even care about my feelings except for their own. I always want to get away from them and living my life without them. Sometimes when I opened up about it not because I want empathy nor attention but I just need someone who listen to me, listen to me without judging me. Don’t get me wrong I do appreciate my friends and understand that they’re just trying their best to comfort me.

2025-08-14

Help me!!

Long story short, I have a crush on this girl for like 3 years now until January this year I decide to step up my game and ask her out to study at a café every weekend. Things were smooth until Covid lockdown became a thing. Even though we couldn’t meet, but I still talk to her regularly, buy gifts for her every special occasions... Now that we can actually meet each other, there is another problem that I need you guys’s opinion. We’re both grade 12 and as you know we’ll have a national exam soon. The thing is should I confess to her right after the exam? How do I confess to her? It’s pretty obvious that I don’t want to break our friendship so what should I do? (I’m a nerd and this is my first time doing these things plus she’s the best thing that ever happen to me). Please let me know about your opinions in the comment section 😊
2025-08-14

Stuck

People said that your friends are the one who help you with emotional support, but why do I feel like I have no one yet I have a lot of them. Flashbacks keep hunting me and it turns into nightmares, which I can’t escape. I can’t find even one person to talk to. I can’t find the solutions to solve the problems, but believe me I’m trying. I felt so angry and stupid and just unmotivated. I have no energy to continue doing what I should be doing. Got any suggestions to help me, please comment down. Thanks in advance and appreciate your help!

2025-08-14

Hope someday we will meet again

It has been 2 years and 6 months since we broke up, but I still miss those days That, hours of chatting, Fighting over little things , Late night talks , Sharing secrets , Weird dreams , Being possessive , Attitudes , Waiting for your texts, Watching our pics and texts over and over , Smiling for no reason , Trusting you blindly , Your hugs and kisses , Your innocent wishes… And now it's just having Blank inbox , Hours of loneliness , Unshared emotions , Late night thinking, Heartbreaking secrets ,Shattered dreams, Deleted memories ,Broken trust, Devious heartaches I don’t know why I Am still waiting for you , still hope someday we will meet each other again .