How it went

Yes! You ignore small things I raised. So whenever things went wrong, I told you so. I ask for things to be fixed. I didn’t stay quiet. I told about whatever disturbing my mind. But you seemed to be so careless. I was wondering is that how you love someone? How could you not give a damn about everything? I was devastated because of your replies: "ប៉ុណ្ណឹងសោះ" , "ចរិតខ្ញុំតែប៉ុណ្ណឹង" , "រឿងចឹងក៏គិតដែរ",etc. So instead of considering changing or solving, you just let the argument go overnight, and act like nth happened in the next morning. That's how things get worse. And the worst is when you finally admit that you can't change! That was when I finalize us cuz you didn't commit to be fixed. All you said was " That is how I am.". People changed for betterment, especially lovers make changes to adapt with one another. But I learned that trying alone is not gonna make things last. That was enough (your answer)! You don't know how to love, or maybe you love in other ways which I might not have the ability to understand your love language. All I know is if I were you, I wouldn't let my lover go through the night where everything weren't even given a reasonable explanation. You overdo of "This is how I am.". Sorry, but I lose you to find me. So do you! You lose me to mature your thoughts. "Love once again when you become a man." -anonymous

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Jealous

While people jealous me with other people, but I do happy when I knew they have fun ft their people.

Missing

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Barrier

You finally open up. Just like I alway wish for! Because I don’t know where did we go wrong that you choose to push me away and end it. I alway hope that we still have hope. I hope that one day you will realize and resolve thing between us. Because I am sure I don’t deserve it, being push away like that, cut out like that and I am sure I did you nothing wrong. Even if there is, at least we should give it our best shot to make thing better or to make sure that it can’t go on. Don’t true love story at least should end like this? Now that the barrier is open, my wish is granted but my hope is dying once again. Maybe it not going to go as I expected. Maybe you just want to officially show that you have someone new standing in my place.