08/March/2022
Just found out I failed on every contest that I applied for. Kinda sad sad but not sad at all. Bye 👋
People said that your friends are the one who help you with emotional support, but why do I feel like I have no one yet I have a lot of them. Flashbacks keep hunting me and it turns into nightmares, which I can’t escape. I can’t find even one person to talk to. I can’t find the solutions to solve the problems, but believe me I’m trying. I felt so angry and stupid and just unmotivated. I have no energy to continue doing what I should be doing. Got any suggestions to help me, please comment down. Thanks in advance and appreciate your help!
Just found out I failed on every contest that I applied for. Kinda sad sad but not sad at all. Bye 👋
The person I have a crush on is also an audience of this page. I’m hoping he’ll read this. I've liked him for quite a while now. I react to his posts here and then, but we never actually talk, so I couldn’t come forward with my feelings toward him. There’s no such thing as waiting for the guy to text first, and I’m not scared to reach him, but there’s no opportunity for it at all, and I’m guessing it wasn’t meant to be, but the other me thought that how could I know if I hadn’t tried? By the way, this guy is my type, so I guess he’s worth my time siming over him. This is so frustrating and I hope no one else can relate to this because it is giving me headaches and starting to drive me crazy now.
Being in a relationships mean to understand each other’s need, love, affection and the freedom they wanted. But sometimes I wanted you to understand that I also need your love and affection back. There are days where I just felt like I’m in love alone. Everybody is busy, and I tried to understand that. And yeah, sometimes I know you’re just fake busying, I knew about it but I just stay silent so that you can have your freedom. But I don’t get why the type of freedom you’re doing is just to go around and flirt others, following new people on sns, text with them while you’re just ignoring me, who patiently waiting for your text. Should I let you go?
The heart beat i felt in my dream last night it feel so real. Like it was too good to be true. I know i ain't gonna experience it with u irl. But at least if the multiverse actually exist i know one of my alternate self is having good time with u.
Funny isn’t it ? I thought were supposed to work on our problems. and stay friends forever? people say you’re toxic and such but i still defend and stay by your side . I’ve done bad things in the past but I’ve let it go and learned my mistake and I was hoping you’d do the same. I’d never knew you’d give up on us so easily. I’ve always put friendship above relationship cuz i know i can move on from guys i dated but not the friends that i’ve shared memories with. It’s okay na, I forgave you, live well and be happy na, I’ll be supporting you and cherished the friendship we had. Stay happy and healthy, I won’t be there to see it but i hope you achieved your dream<3
Confess ot del approve sos tang pi khae 3:D
One of the hardest things that I’m doing right now is letting go of a person whom I never thought I would do. It’s the best for myself to be able to heal. I wrote my stories here probably a few times of how I love that person but in the end we’re just friends. I still have feelings for her and I don’t think I would ever lose those feelings, but the thing is I’m moving forward. I don’t stay in the same old place with the wonderful/painful memories. Honestly, she’s the first person that I’ve loved this much and I even told her that. Still, I need to accept the fact that it’s not gonna work and our connection can only be “best friend”. She told me that she met someone and she kinda loves that him too. So yeah. Sometimes you miss the memories and the times that you had spent with them but not the person themselves.
I would say that I’m a well reserved kid and always think it through before I take action. I’ve always thought that I’m strong enough to deal with all the problem. I’ve always thought that I am not jealous of anything or anyone around me. But, I realize I do care. I’m jealous that other family is having fun with their children. I’m jealous that their parents are always be there and give them the support. I’m jealous that others don’t have to deal with mental pressure. I’m jealous that things have never been well no matter how hard I try to fix. When will this end? I’m tired…..