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មកដល់ពេលនេះ វាប្រហែលជាមានរយៈពេលជិត ៧ឆ្នាំហើយដែលខ្ញុំលួចស្រលាញ់អ្នក។ តាមពិតទៅខ្ញុំក៏ធ្លាប់ព្យាយាមកាត់ចិត្តពីអ្នក ធ្លាប់ទៅកន្លែងមួយឆ្ងាយដើម្បីកុំអោយជួបអ្នក ធ្លាប់ព្យាយាមមើលអ្នកថ្មីជាច្រើនសារ ប៉ុន្តែមនុស្សដែលខ្ញុំនឹកដល់មុនគេនៅតែជាអ្នក។ រយៈពេលកន្លងមកនេះ ខ្ញុំពិតជាចង់ដឹងណាស់ថា អ្នកទុកខ្ញុំជាអ្វី?ដែលមានចិត្តចំពោះខ្ញុំទេ? ហេតុអីក៏ធ្វើល្អដាក់ខ្ញុំយ៉ាងនេះ?ហេតុអីក៏ពេលនោះអ្នកមានគេ?ហេតុអីពេលដែលមានគេ អ្នកម្ដងក៏ជាន់ឈ្លឺខ្ញុំ ម្ដងក៏លើកតម្កើងខ្ញុំ? ដែលមានអារម្មណ៍ថាខុសចំពោះខ្ញុំទេ? តែខ្ញុំពិតជាគ្មានភាពក្លាហានដើម្បីសួរអ្នកឡើយ សូម្បីតែជួបមុខអ្នកក៏ខ្ញុំមិនហ៊ានផង ខ្ញុំសង្ឃឹមថាថ្ងៃណាមួយខ្ញុំនឹងមានឱកាស យកសំបុត្រការគប់ចំកណ្ដាលមុខអ្នក ហើយក៏សួរថា មានអារម្មណ៍យ៉ាងណាដែរ អតីតមនុស្សជាទីស្រលាញ់

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Being used

Doesn't it feel so sh*tty to be used by someone we care about whether it be friends or someone you have feelings for? Like they would only think of us when they need us for some reasons. When we are out of use, they would completely ignore our existence. I felt like an idiot for assuming that the person slightly thinks about me sometimes. The truth is I only cross their mind when I can offer them some sort of benefits. Now that I recall the time they said we're close, I cringe so hard and feel so stupid.

I don't think I'm winning this life battle anymore!

Normal ppl don't know what it feels like to wake up everyday and wish I'm not alive. I hate waking up, I hate living, I hate being sad everyday. I'm tired of trying, sick of crying. I know I've been smiling, but inside I'm dying. Behind my smile is a hurting heart, behind my laugh I'm falling apart. Look closely at me and you'll see, the girl I am, it isn't me. I hate seeing everything blooming around me while I'm here still withering into nothingness, I feel like I'm already dead so what difference would it make. Sometimes I just wish I was dead, I wouldn't have to wake up everyday with regret. I wouldn't have to hate myself more than I already do. But most importantly I wouldn't have to feel pain anymore. I'm hiding what I'm feeling but I'm tired of holding this inside my head. I'm not feeling anything, I'm completely empty right now, it's making me depressed. When you're depressed you don't control your thoughts, your thoughts control you. I wish some ppl would understand this, especially my parent. Every thought is a battle, every breath is a war, and I don't think I'm winning anymore. I'm sorry for being like this. I'm sorry for being such a failure.

Fear

Nothing to share in here, just wanted to ask have you ever chatted with someone and that person suddenly show the type of disgusting, unacceptable personality… so you decided to ghosted him in a friendly way( just short and late reply to give him the hint and stop texting you) but at the same time you feel scare of him. What does it means?

Metaphysical idea of Freedom

I have been living on a fence between being normal, socially constructed, like most of everyone else, and being true to my cognitive self. To set up the premise, I am currently working as a software developer. I've been coding just so I know how to make games but that is still easier said than done. Being torn between work for my family and walking for my own can sometimes be discouraging. Is it lunacy to chase a near impossible spectrum of goals given where we are living? and leave behind our own flesh and blood even though just for a brief period of time compared to the whole life span in which we humans can live? The idea of knowing your own value is so vaguely destructive due to never being taught before how to measure that aspect of our own internal value, which spawn ignorance and esteem issues. "Pick the one you love", they said. The idealistic entity in which all of my hopes and expectations combined has nothing more but shattered due to the chaotic nature of nature itself. I fear the unknown, the dread of not knowing what to come next. The dread of nothing matters. I can only work towards it but how it ends will frighten me nonetheless.

It’s okay to get LAID

I’m a man who is 28+years old and never got laid, and one day I got a girlfriend who did it and she said that people need to have experiences and it is better and it’s just make me feel like damnnnn if I know that, I wouldn’t waste my youth like shit and play around like a player- NOTE- “I am a handsome man” #R

Just a side person like a side dish

So, get this, I totally fell for this guy. And to try and get closer to him, we became BFFs. And man, did I fall harder and harder for him. We did everything together — hit up bars, and he even taught me how to balance my meals with other stuff like changing my car oil, fixing my sink, and changing light bulbs. And I also introduced him to some sweet books, movies, and music. Then, I had to watch him go and marry the girl of his dreams. And guess what? It wasn't me.

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Just because I'm okay now doesn't mean that the feeling I lost will come back.

To the ex i love the most,seng.

I realized that i loved u too much and forgot to kove myself. And now i love myself more than before. Im trying to hard to change myself to be better so I won’t get hurt in the future like u did to me. Anyway i never hate u. Im still loving u. It’s to be honest. I can’t unlove u. And I appreciated everything that u done for me before. U as the second man after my dad to take care me everything abt food, drink, sleep and protect my everytime. Im so thankful cuz i never got a man like u before.