Crying Every night

Let me tell you about my nightmares. The most things I am Afraid of , it is I am gonna lose my man once day. It hurt so much. The man I love the most more than myself. But we still can’t be together. We are still in relationship as a girlfriend and boyfriend until nowadays. We fall in love since we are in Highschool. Day by day, when I grow up , I getting more scare . The more I grow , the more I scare . You know what ? Because I know that my parents won’t approve us. Yes. I know that is not easy to get through that situation. To make the reader more Easy to understand : ( Rich & Poor ). I know that is too hard . Really hard to fight it . To my man ❤️, he was working so hard day by day . He was thinking so much day by day . Everything he did just wants to get me and live with me . I know that he won’t give up until we still strong to fight. But time fly to fast and the hope are less . The thing has change . And I asked myself , if I didn’t agree to love him . Maybe he have more freedom than with me . If I didn’t love him , maybe he not really get too hard for me . If I reject on that day , maybe he not get too much pressure , too much stress and too much overthinking. He also know that , it too hard to get me . But he will try again and again until he give up. He still try too hard for me . I didn’t regret because I love him . But I regret that I love him and make him more difficult because of me . Everything is my false. We have been talk each about that situation. And I still can’t accept it . That why I always cry every night I went to sleep. It too hard to stay far aways from the man I love the most. Our story are too complicated and too long. But I hide that feeling for many years . I didn’t told my boyfriend about that but he knew that I am stress about that so much and overthinking . But he didn’t knew that I had cry so hard every night . I really t hope that I can stay with him❤️. I love you so much 💕. Note: It quite too long about my story . And I am sorry if my English not really good . Because I am poor with English. Thank for those who read my story. Big thank to this page that help me to talk about my story out. Even not help me 100% . But at least 50% help a lots to share my story and let them know my story . #Thankeveryone. #Thankknongjitpage

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