My Fault
-N💗 Im sorry for hurting you. It was childish of me to do that to you. I don’t expect u to forgive me. I wish I could take every ounce of pain u feel right now. I love you, always. #221020
Hey, I don’t care about the distance and sht. I can wait, I’m willing to wait, be faithful and commit to this relationship. Checking up on u everyday, support u through hard time, leave u space when u need, be the most understanding gf. I don’t even mind being a convo starter all the fcking time, fast replier even tho u left me on delivered for half a day or even ghost me out of nowhere for quite a few days, b’cuz I understand that u’re busy. I don’t even mind that u’re not interested about what’s happening at my side or how’s my day going, having u reply to my text is all I ask for. But if this keeps going for a few more months and I see no more effort from u, I might just assumed that u grew out of this relationship but is afraid to ask for a break… idk what should I feel about this relationship…
-N💗 Im sorry for hurting you. It was childish of me to do that to you. I don’t expect u to forgive me. I wish I could take every ounce of pain u feel right now. I love you, always. #221020
We broke up 10months ago. Ik we both still have feelings for each other. Idk wht I feel rn and I have no one to talk this out to. We were tgt for 600days+ I don’t wanna back to him and I wanna see him happy I don’t wanna back to him and I jealous of him. I don’t wanna back to him and I’m so confuse with this. And now he’s been chit chat with his ex crush for 1week+ alr He said he confess his feelings with her and she has feelings for him too … , he found his happiness right?? Haha Jat Tuk Tha I built him for someone else jos… ** he and his aunt used to talk shit abt me since we broke up mok **
Is it still love when you have to keep asking for time and attention and still won't get it? Is it still love when your partner forgot exactly everything he told you he would do and everything about you? From every little details to every big events. Forgot even to meet you, forgot all the things he said he will do. He said he will... So I waited and waited... Even after I brought it up he didn't care to do it... Is it still love...? I'm not sure anymore... Too many sleepless night I've spent alone to think and worry if the love has already faded for you... I felt so lonely here... Too lonely...
Maybe I don’t love them, maybe the feeling of being in relationship is just something that I want to do to fill my void. I go for one after another and it seems like the cycle repeats. They love me, I love them back, I got cheated, I tried to find another one to move on, got heart broken, and move on to another. At this point, I don’t even know if I’m searching for love or just processing the trauma.
You finally open up. Just like I alway wish for! Because I don’t know where did we go wrong that you choose to push me away and end it. I alway hope that we still have hope. I hope that one day you will realize and resolve thing between us. Because I am sure I don’t deserve it, being push away like that, cut out like that and I am sure I did you nothing wrong. Even if there is, at least we should give it our best shot to make thing better or to make sure that it can’t go on. Don’t true love story at least should end like this? Now that the barrier is open, my wish is granted but my hope is dying once again. Maybe it not going to go as I expected. Maybe you just want to officially show that you have someone new standing in my place.
I feel like everyone keep avoiding me and I have no idea why would they treat me like that. I keep wondering what did i do wrong? Is there anything i've missed out ? And I really don't know. And you know I now can feel the lyrics" I think I've seen this film before, and didn't like the ending" because yes, I used to be treat like this too and that's what scared me most. And I scared I keep seeing it and it repeat time too time, again and again.
Why am I the problem? Even if your know how they treated me? If I’m always the problems, there’s no reason to stay alive.
So we attend the school event together. And at the dinner time we all dressed with certain dress codes. She looks damn gorgeous🥺 I didn't tell her that tho, I might get caught. Then, there was a dancing session, and we got each other. I got to hold her hand and her jongkes as we danced to couple random songs. This was the best part of the event. I doubt she knows that I like her. Would you ladies like your classmates?🥺