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So how are you? Do you feel better now? Do you miss me like I miss you or do you hate me?
I feel like everyone keep avoiding me and I have no idea why would they treat me like that. I keep wondering what did i do wrong? Is there anything i've missed out ? And I really don't know. And you know I now can feel the lyrics" I think I've seen this film before, and didn't like the ending" because yes, I used to be treat like this too and that's what scared me most. And I scared I keep seeing it and it repeat time too time, again and again.
So how are you? Do you feel better now? Do you miss me like I miss you or do you hate me?
I have met someone for almost 1 year and I started to feel like he is warm when I stay with him without any love feeling. I donβt feel on him but I just wanna stay with him, talk to him, play with him as normal but more than other. I keep thinking about him everyday, checking his personal life even his ex. But the matter is that I donβt feel on him, I donβt want him, I ask myself again and again but the answer is nothing. Moreover I donβt feel excited or shock when I meet him but I want to talk or to see him. So Is it called love or normal?
I know you're rushing to get to that next phase in your life. You're sick and tired of being where you're at and feel like you should be somewhere else doing greater things. You're stressing yourself to have more. Your giving yourself anxiety tricking yourself that you're behind. Listen to me, you're exactly where you should be at. You're where you're at because there's a few more lessons you have to learn before you go into that next phase. But I'll tell you this, as long as you're moving, you're not stuck. As long as you keep working you're not stagnant. Be okay with taking steps and not running. You'll have experiences where you're running. This stage isn't that. Life is making you walk because you have a lot to learn in this moment in time and you need more time to gather all this information. Sometimes life doesn't give us what we're asking for because we're not ready to have them. We're not ready for the responsibilities. We're not ready for the stress. We're not ready or responsible enough to manage that many things. That's why life gives us a little at a time so we can learn how to mange blessings. Life is giving us time to develop before it unloads everything we deserve. It takes experience and wisdom to have a lot. Be grateful for the little you have so you'll be grateful for everything you'll be receiving in the future.
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I hope u read this kmeng komhochπ€£ this name maybe can help remind you who was called you like this. It's been 4months that we haven't talked to each other. How have you been? How is ur mental health? U might be find someone else, be with someone else or losing feeling on me I guess. Also as I knew from my friends they told me that you came back to Khmer? In this 4months I still can't move on from you, can't get you out of my mind even I tried everyday to make myself busy, tryna stopped thinking about you but can't, I really can't. Just know that I love you a lot. We don't even have a lot of memories with each other but why are you so hard for me to unlove u? My friend said "ααΌαααα ααΈααα»αααα α αΉααα·αααΆααα·ααΆαααααΆ αααα·αααΆααααα‘αΆααα αααααα»ααααααΈααα" and idiot me still here just waiting for that person. Still praying the best for him every day to get everything he worked so hard for.
Iβm the owner of #KJ0010 To my best friend who passed away way too young, I have a thing to tell you that Iβll finished my M.S next year, the dream we once had. I delicate all my achievements to you. Thank you for being in my life for the 6 years you were. Thank you for loving me unconditionally. For pushing me. It's true what they sayβ¦ the good die young. For what? Nobody will ever know the answer to that.Β Your last text were β Iβll be the the star, the ones that brighter than the restβ. That day forever changed my life. I did not know that was going to be the last time I would talk to you. I wish I could've stopped this from happening. I keep going through everything in my head trying to think of ways I could've prevented this from happening, but I know I couldn't have. I wish I had the superpower to turn back time. I may carry guilt for the reason you arenβt here. You were, and still are, so loved by many. Sethika, Even though you are not here anymore, you will always be in my heart. You were such a special person. I wish you could see all the things i saw in you. Youβll be forever young and beautiful; P.S I donβt end this story with a period, but a semicolon instead, in hopes that one day we may reunite and our adventures together can start again. In another life, I would be your sister and Iβll be the older ones;
I used to be considered as βuglyβ (got bullied for being overweight, etc. even adults used to do that to me :D ) that really destroyed my self esteem. Although, I lost weight and take care of myself and is considered as pretty now but still the permanent mental damages are there. I had developed eating disorder, social anxiety, etc. I fake being confident but the anxiety, the trembling, and panic attack always happened. And because of that anxiety that fear of being judged I think a huge misunderstanding was made. Sometimes I really wish I could just communicate better instead of always being quiet. :)