To the guy I love most, Sophea.

MY FLAWS. I thought we were supposed to talk about our problems and solve them together. You told me how you don't like me doing shitposting, being shady about you. I stopped. I didn't know it would bother you that much. All those shitposting and shady posts aren't about you, I swear. I know those are not reasons and I was right. It was my attitude. I thought you would talk it out but you didn't, you chose to leave me while I'm still in love with you. I didn't know I have such an attitude to make you lose feelings for me, if so I'm sorry. I was not pressuring you, I never ever or even think about making you love me the way I want. Maybe my actions or how I talk seem like that but I'm not that type of person. I told you I'm an attention seeker. Of course I always try to seek attention from the guy that I love, the guy that I prioritized first, the guy that I would do anything for and it's you but I know what is right and what is wrong. Who knows you got the wrong idea about me. I'm not trying to act like a victim here and I was never one. I'm just trying to tell you about what I wanted to say and how I felt.

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Words

Sometimes the one who said the words never really remembered it, but the one who listened did. That's a tragedy.

Ex's Lover

So how do you describe your current lover who still screenshot their ex's recent photos? what if the feelings are still there or was it just my stupid imagination? lmao, isn't it funny they keep on telling you they love you, but still do things like this? i mean do you really love me or just for fun or just to forget your ex who has a better body, face than me?

Karma?

តើនេះជាកម្មមែនទេ? មានអ្នកតាមស្រឡាញ់តែមិនព្រមស្នេហ៍ ខ្លួនវិញតាមគេដូចឆ្កែ តែគេទុកដូចសំរាម 🤡

If I’m honest

If I’m honest, I’d say it hurts me too. It’s like something is stuck inside my chest that I don’t even know how to get it out. It hurts even worse when I ended it and you didn’t even bother to ask for explanation as if you were waiting for me to leave all along.

Beers and cigarettes

Growing up I never want to drink and smoke. Everybody know that it’s bad for your health plus nobody likes u if they know you did it. I’m a female , friendly and well educated. Nobody suspect me for smoke because I’m well behaved but deep down I’ve been addicted to smoke and drinks for 2 year already :( it help me release stress. I remember the first time I tried to smoke after cutting myself and it help me it make me realize that instead of killing myself I should smoke. Yes it’s a bad decision but I have no choice. School and family matter I can’t stand it plus my mental health. I hope nobody judge me for smoke and drink beers when they know it. I’m afraid everyone gonna find out about it and hate me I’m scared. Sorry for my bad English

Farewell..

Hey it's been almost two months since we broke up, I still remembered you left me on 4th Sep with a short meaningless message "I want to be alone" without any explaination without a closure you just left me there in the dark wondering what did i do wrong but now that you seems happier i guess i was the problem. I wonder what went wrong i wonder if we give up too early or if i held on for too long? I never thought goodbye would be so hard. I'm writing this because i'm going to let go of us of you..life been awfully hard on me these days. My family my work nothing really works out for me i miss venting out to you about my problems yes i miss you i still do but its not that i want us back i'm glad that you are doing well on your own. it's sad because what i felt for you was really special and now i have to let go of everything as much as i hate giving up but i have to this time because i can't keep torturing myself like that, I stayed up all night crying i woke up in the morning crying i barely even touch food i didn't even go out and meet my friend all i did was getting drunk every nights so i can fall asleep,i keep doing things that i don't enjoy doing like active on the social media adding story publicly so you could see you know me better than anyone i aint the type to do that i ususally really private about my life it's getting tiring..this getting too long i'm gonna make it short..Take care T, you're a good person thanks you for the time we spent together, the calls the texts the late night conversations. i hope that you're happy with the way your life is right now i wish only the best for you ..Goodbye.