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Confess ot del approve sos tang pi khae 3:D
Memories seemed to be faded as the time flew without stopping a single second, out of the blue, we started to chat with each other again. it'd been many year since we last talked to each other. first of all, I just want to know if you are fine, healthy, and happy with your boyfriend even though I feel that you guys have already broken up. As before you're still the most hardworking girl ( i should say woman yet I still find you still a girl who didn't know your own limit). my feeling for you is still over here even though we have already broken up for many years, I wonder and always ask myself are you still have feelings for me as before? but my feeling told me that you had already moved on and prepared to be successes woman who didn't depend on others. Everything has changed yet my feeling still stay. I'm standing from here wishing you success on your journey and being able to find your true happiest with the right partner who stays there with you through every situation. ^_^
Confess ot del approve sos tang pi khae 3:D
You're not sorry for hurting someone. You're not sorry for taking advantage of someone else's feeling for you. You're not sorry for making them feel low and pathetic. You're only thinking that you feel sorry because that's the only way to reassure yourself that you weren't actually in the wrong but, in fact, that doesn't actually stop you from repeating it. There's no excuse for you. You never care but it would have at least been better if you didn't care enough to actually care to hurt someone who's currently yearning for you. It's crazy how those who hurts will only continue to hurt, the excruciating pain. When you can't overcome the trauma and agony, you were seen to be weak and that you're the only one allowing yourself to get hurt. That could be true but that doesn't always mean that they aren't trying to break free. When reality has seeped in and escaping is succeeded, "I" will understand how relieved it would be and that's what I set to believe. You are not sorry and I am not seeking for your sympathy on the torment you have caused. Regrets and joys are mixed up in a resulted development but let's all be enlighten by it. With hopes.
Your friend left me and let me live with anxiety, and you has the audacity to wishing me a miserable life? You should have know by now that your friend left me alone when I need her the most š¤£ I wish you and your friend live the best life you guys always dreamt of
Take good care of ur self, I love you in silence. #o
Do you know how I came here? Iām trying to forget you. It took me five hours to bike here, a coffee store in the middle of a mountain. I was running away from you for six months. I tried so hard to not thinking about you, avoiding your social media, ignoring your favorite meal, when it appears in front of me. Why do you not fade even a little? How could you show up here so easily? and You forgot me so easily. So~ Why canāt I... š¢ This is killing me. Answer me [Why is it so easy for you?]
I think Iāve built a very convenient Persona for myself to get by this world. Everywhere I go, Every group of people, or everyone that I met, I know what they see me but not in me, they find Iām a very polite, friendly, good manner person. I know this, because that is all my persona shows them. But their instincts would tell them to be care to approach me with their good intentions, maybe itās a friendship or love. Their instincts would tell them, Iām not just they see, there are something more beneath that. And itās right, Iām hiding myself under this forged amour because I canāt be who I actually want to be. How I was treat from a very young age had traumatized me to be myself. Iāve lived my life forged with lies that I tell myself, that now it makes me terrified to unfold the truth. Now at the end of everyday, I feel so empty, like an empty void that canāt never be filled. I named this āempty binā, because thatās just how I am, loud but empty. Iām tired of this life. Even though I know life is pain and suffering, but how I still couldnāt get used to if? And itās even more tragic if you live a life with full of self-deception. lately, all I could think of is, how to die and leave no pain to everyone around me. āHow should this empty bin should leave?ā¦ā
i really hate myself for doing things out of my own control sometimes. my red flag always chasing people away because they cannot handle it. my relationship end because of that, my few talking stages end also because of that. really hate myself for being a major problem here!
Being reject is bad feeling to accept the fact that she doesnāt even have a feeling but in this stupid mind still have a light of hope that one day if I am not giving up I would can take her heart. Have no choice š