Dear#B
Please donβt love with someone else.
Do you know how I came here? Iβm trying to forget you. It took me five hours to bike here, a coffee store in the middle of a mountain. I was running away from you for six months. I tried so hard to not thinking about you, avoiding your social media, ignoring your favorite meal, when it appears in front of me. Why do you not fade even a little? How could you show up here so easily? and You forgot me so easily. So~ Why canβt I... π’ This is killing me. Answer me [Why is it so easy for you?]
Please donβt love with someone else.
Iβm clingy, moody, insecure, have trust issues, self doubt, and lots of mental breakdown, which people categorize me as βtoxicβ. Iβm trying to change. I really do, because Iβm not feeling fine and happy with all those toxic traits too. I stay up every night questioning my own worth and existing. I donβt know why am I like this. And I thought, you would stay. I thought, you were different. I thought, you would wait for me to heal. Eventually, it was all my thought. Donβt take this wrong. Iβm not blaming you. I was just hoping you stayed. I hope it was you who would have been there for me, but you have never been there with me on my bad days, not even once. Iβm too much to be handled. I always know.[newLine*]Letβs be honest with me one last time, what is your feeling for me the last few months we talked? Did your feeling fade away? Was it not strong? From the start? Or from when I started to show you my true self? My dark side? [newLine*] I miss you, a lot. However, I know being with me is too tiring for people, I love you so much that I donβt want you to suffer with someone like me. I hope youβre with someone better, healthier, happier. Someone who loves life, someone who will match your energy, someone who is normal.
While people jealous me with other people, but I do happy when I knew they have fun ft their people.
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Women attract, they donβt chase. Why donβt men realize that a woman has many choices but she chose you so why donβt you treat her well? Why you treat her good only at the start? And then after some time she change you got all mad? Werenβt you the one who made her become like that if you treat her like how you first got her would she change?
Being insecure is not a valid reason to leave the other person. Itβs too cruel, disrespect, disregard the love and the commitment the other person has for you and only you.
Hey, I hope this message reach out to you in any ways. Ahh I seriously donβt know where to start. I remember the first time we met though screens. At first I thought you were just joking around. I never thought that I would fall for you that hard. It took us a week of talking stage and we started dating. To be honest, I had never felt that kind of heartwarming love from any guys I met out there. You were the first person who make me feel alive and know exactly that true love does exist. I know Iβm the one to blame. I took you for granted, not knowing that youβll soon lose interest in me. You did gave me signs. But I ignored it. You reassure me everyday that you love me, you care for me. But I didnβt believe that because I thought you still have feelings for your ex. I love it when you call me β Babe β. I can still hear you calling me that. Day by day I tried to forget you. Besides all the good memories we had together always hit me up. I was stupid for not keeping our love last. I was stupid for not acknowledging the signs that you have given me. At the end of the day all I got was sorrow. You remember there was a song called strange by celeste? It goes like β Isnβt strange how people can change, from strangers to friends, friends into lovers and strangers again.. β. 13-11-2021 was the day we decided to walk different path. I donβt blame you for catching feelings for her. It was my fault for making you falling for her. If I was good to you, you wouldnβt have fallen for her. Iβm sorry I wasnβt at my best version back then. But no I wonβt blame you. And again I had never thought that you would walk away from my life. You were the only person who make me shine bright like a star. Right now, youβre not here anymore. I miss you every second, every minute, every hour and everyday. Hoping that youβll come back. But I know that you wonβt. It has been almost 5 months now and Iβm still in love with you. Although we canβt turn back time, however I wish youβll find someone who is loving and will love you unconditionally. All the best!
Him: Would you still be with me if I came back to you that time? Her: Yes, I would. Him: Even after I left you several times? Her: yes, always. Him: why? Her: because I love you. Him: Now? Her: I have to love myself. Him: Maybe we would have been together if I were braver. Her: Maybe.