Stubborn
I'm mad about the waste that happens when people who love each other can't even bring themselves to talk.
I think I’ve built a very convenient Persona for myself to get by this world. Everywhere I go, Every group of people, or everyone that I met, I know what they see me but not in me, they find I’m a very polite, friendly, good manner person. I know this, because that is all my persona shows them. But their instincts would tell them to be care to approach me with their good intentions, maybe it’s a friendship or love. Their instincts would tell them, I’m not just they see, there are something more beneath that. And it’s right, I’m hiding myself under this forged amour because I can’t be who I actually want to be. How I was treat from a very young age had traumatized me to be myself. I’ve lived my life forged with lies that I tell myself, that now it makes me terrified to unfold the truth. Now at the end of everyday, I feel so empty, like an empty void that can’t never be filled. I named this “empty bin”, because that’s just how I am, loud but empty. I’m tired of this life. Even though I know life is pain and suffering, but how I still couldn’t get used to if? And it’s even more tragic if you live a life with full of self-deception. lately, all I could think of is, how to die and leave no pain to everyone around me. “How should this empty bin should leave?…”
I'm mad about the waste that happens when people who love each other can't even bring themselves to talk.
Since I broke up with my ex bf in March 2021, I never had any bf until now. Not because I didn’t fall in love with anyone else. It’s because I used to asked s1 abt feeling during I broke up. And the answer is “ death both side”xD. And yeah at the time he’s the only person that I chatted with, told him how’s my feelings, sometime cried while sending my voice to him. Then we haven’t chatted for awhile. Currently, And he just text me and get on with each again.
I know u still love him and i know u cant forget him. If u see this, i wanted to tell u that if u really him, u could make up with him i wont mad. I knew u just treat me as a replacement and i also treat u as a replacement too cuz I'm just bored. I'm really sorry for what i've done.
Maybe one day we’ll walk past each other with nothing between us. Maybe one day we’re gonna have our own families. Maybe one day i’ll look back and reminisce our memories while crying. I’m not ready to do that, I don’t think I’ll ever be
To my best ex-lover, It’s raining now. It’s a beautiful cozy evening. I suddenly want to tell you something but this is the only way I could convey this message. You may not see this, or you may not recognize me. Yet, I hope you still remember the nickname we gave each other. This is not the letter of regret. This is the letter of appreciation. I guess, it’s been 6 years already. I hope you’re doing great and living your best life. I hope you know how to love and cherish yourself, first and foremost. I hope you’ve found the path that can lead you to your dreams successfully. I hope you’re being honest and true to yourself. I hope you find the one you sincerely love and gives the same response back. Our love story might not have a happy ending, but looking back all I can see is—grateful and precious memories. You were and will always be my best partner in crime. We were too young to understand what love is, or how it works. If, only we were more mature back then, perhaps we could have embarked on a longer quest together. Yet, after all, it’s still a beautiful piece of my journey that I’ll never forget. We’ve grown now. Life moves on after all, and I hate to admit the fact that we’re just two strangers with fond memories. Still, I’m proud to say that you were my best boyfriend. I also told people how great you were as an individual and a partner. Our story didn’t end in the ugly way. At least, we knew that we were right for each other, just at the wrong time. Our short journey was a beautiful adventure. I hope you feel the same way too. Eventually, I hope you are sincerely happy right now. You surely know how I am as a person, right? So, if we see each other next time, can you at least say “hey” to me first, just like how we used to in the past? I think it will be a beautiful reunion of old friends. - kepler
Are we really can’t moving forward ? I like you at first without expected anything from you I just wanna smile at you wave at you and have a small chit chat and it’s enough for me. But the moment that I know that actually you had been talked to someone. You are in a good stage with her knowing this made me realize that are we really impossible or should I move forward and give it a little try to see is there any hope for me or should I just back off since It’s really impossible for me to be near you. She come first she talk to you first she got your heart and I just having an illusion that you might actually interest in me a little bit but I don’t think so anymore. To conclude , I will try to move forward just a little bit to see if there any hope in us is your heart really fill with her and I will back off immediately if I see there is no chance for me🙂
Can u share some opinions related to arranged marriage between third cousins? In our culture, it’s considered as okay? I think? But u know how the world has changed, so do you think it’s fine?
I’m a type of person that value friendship more than relationship , I rather not date anyone just so I have more time to hang out with my close friend. We share stuff no one ever know about us , enjoy each other’s company without saying a word to each other , inside jokes , hangout non stop…But then things change , third party comes in , she is still my friend but someone else has become her closest friend. They share conversations day and night , calling non stop , playing with each other all the time . I feel like I’m left out but who am i to be jealous of that , you guys seem to be enjoying each other company so much , why would i ruin that because of my feeling , I’m just upset that I can’t provide you that feeling , but it is what it is . I don’t know if you know that I’m upset with that but since I’m not good at opening up to you anymore, I hope the best for you guys even if we become stranger one day…