I’ve been questioning my life lately and I try freaking hard to become the best version of myself everyday. Living away from home without having my parents by my side is something I’ve never done before and I admit that my life has changed so much since the day I left home. I’m constantly teary knowing how much they worry about me. They are the ONLY reason why I keep going and still living this freaking life. If it weren’t for them, my existence wouldn’t have existed until now. I admit that I appreciate where I am now. I truly am! But at some points, I feel like the life I’m living is currently draining me day by day. I cannot see the purpose of life and it stressed me out whenever I think of the word ‘future’. It’s so dark and I cannot see anything. My anxiety keeps telling me the worst scenarios because I know that I cannot be the one everyone expects me to be. I might look normal but deep down inside I’m just a sad soul. No one knows how hard it is for me to survive each day. Having anxiety and insecurities about everything. Being a professional overthinker who worry even at a little thing and always wake up tired from a vivid dream… I don’t want to live like this but it’s not like I have a choice. The more I grow up, the more I start questioning my life and wondering why I live like this. I’m turning 19 next month and my only wish is that I can survive til I’m 20… -J
កាលពី2ឆ្នាំមុនខ្ញុំបានបែកគ្នាជាមួយសង្សារចាស់ខ្ញុំគឺដោយសារតែមូលហេតុថាចង់ឈ្នះរៀងខ្លួនម្នាក់ៗសុទ្ធតែខ្លាំងរៀងខ្លួនហើយពួកយើងបានប្រើពាក្យសំដីខ្លាំងៗដាក់គ្នាទៅវិញទៅមករហូតដល់គាត់សុំខ្ញុំបែកបន្ទាប់ពីពួកយើងបែកគ្នាតាំងពីថ្ងៃនោះរហូតមកដល់ពេលនេះខ្ញុំនៅតែស្រលាញ់គាត់ដូចថ្ងៃដែលខ្ញុំបានស្គាល់គាត់ដំបូងហើយខ្ញុំមានអារម្មណ៍ថាស្ដាយក្រោយហើយបើសិនជាខ្ញុំចិត្តត្រជាក់នៅថ្ងៃនោះខ្ញុំនឹងមិនបាត់បង់គាត់ទេ
Having feelings on my friend... this should not be happening!
It’s been 2 years since your passing, but every time i went back to our convo i can’t seem to let go. I miss you so much, i wish you were here with me.
We both are expecting from each other more than what we both can offer in the relationship. We go through a lot of tough times and I get upset from her sometimes and today she told me to find another one who’s better than her instead of talks things out !
F u for making me feel like this. I told u I’m not experienced in this kind of things but still u did that mind game, and when I start to treat u how u treat me u got all mad and offended. And it really sucks when everyone tell me I should hate u but I just can’t. F that really
I know we no longer belong to each other, but I miss you, always have missed you, and always will miss you. I don’t know why it is so easy for you to move on, to forget about us, but I don’t want to be like you. I want to keep our memories in my head as long as possible , I won’t try to forget about us, because those are the memories I adore the most. I wish you had cared a little more about my feelings, if you did, maybe we wouldn’t be strangers today. You always blamed me when we argued, calling me childish , never once reflected on your actions . Never knew how much you hurt me, or maybe you did know, you just chose to not care. Because, after all , maybe I’m not that special to you. I love you a lot , a lot that I’d take you back the second you tell me you miss me. To the person I wish loved me more , #R
Since I broke up with my ex bf in March 2021, I never had any bf until now. Not because I didn’t fall in love with anyone else. It’s because I used to asked s1 abt feeling during I broke up. And the answer is “ death both side”xD. And yeah at the time he’s the only person that I chatted with, told him how’s my feelings, sometime cried while sending my voice to him. Then we haven’t chatted for awhile. Currently, And he just text me and get on with each again.
Am I that toxic? I know we are just friends, you were just helping. I thought it was something more, I started showing you signs then you backed away. Should I keep going forward or just stop and leave everything?