Which one?
Works hard or love hard?
I'm not sure what's wrong with me at the moment. I used to expect my lover to be concerned about me, to adore me, to be childish and clingy in the same way that I am. And it didn't even happen on the day I expected it to, and my lover doesn't seem to mind what I said. Most of the time My lover alway keep me waiting , late text or call and even leave me alone for long. And am so upset with this attitude. My lover’s gone from being a don't care to wanting to spend time with me, talking with me, and appreciating me a lot now. And I'm not really that excited and happy anymore. I don't feel as if I'm excited anymore, which seems normal to me. Is this because I used to have high expectations on my lover, or because I'm gradually losing interest in my lover ?
Works hard or love hard?
Wow! Just Wow! I don't know what to say. I want to say it all here, but it's too much on me, i have no word....
I can easily forget someone who loves me but I can’t easily forget someone who doesn’t love me.
In my entire life, I’ve never experienced having a huge crush on someone but ever since I met him, I feel like his whole existence taught me the taste of first love because I’ve never been in a relationship once before ( isn’t it odd or an embarrassment, I don’t know but it’s true ) He is the man like the real man who is wholly a gentleman, kind, well-educated and respectful to everyone especially women which I fall for him even more. But the thing is I myself am not confident enough to talk to him like this is just me who is very shy and having the fear being judged from him hahaha since I’m so insecure and the thought of “everything will never work out for you” is always there in my head. And I, too, feel like he’s also feeling the same way as well ( no clue whether or not it’s real hahaha ) because I caught him glancing at me very often ( oops I forgot to mention that we’ve been studying in the same class ). Whenever I say something or respond to the class, he paid well attention to me and his eyes were soft making me feel like he wanted to hear me speaking more. He said that I’m so cute in a low tone and even wrote somewhere on a note but I heard and saw it. And when we got close at some points, he gently smiled like a gentleman he is and also laughed at my sudden jokes. He usually imitated what I did and that was so lovable of him. But does he really feel the same way that I do ? I hate myself for not being confident enough to go and talk to him like everyone does. Whatever the reason is, I’m just wishing the best for him because one day he will meet someone who is better than me and I know we two are not meant for each other. At least, we met.
I crush on someone who I met in online app. At first he add friend to me. In
I think I’ve built a very convenient Persona for myself to get by this world. Everywhere I go, Every group of people, or everyone that I met, I know what they see me but not in me, they find I’m a very polite, friendly, good manner person. I know this, because that is all my persona shows them. But their instincts would tell them to be care to approach me with their good intentions, maybe it’s a friendship or love. Their instincts would tell them, I’m not just they see, there are something more beneath that. And it’s right, I’m hiding myself under this forged amour because I can’t be who I actually want to be. How I was treat from a very young age had traumatized me to be myself. I’ve lived my life forged with lies that I tell myself, that now it makes me terrified to unfold the truth. Now at the end of everyday, I feel so empty, like an empty void that can’t never be filled. I named this “empty bin”, because that’s just how I am, loud but empty. I’m tired of this life. Even though I know life is pain and suffering, but how I still couldn’t get used to if? And it’s even more tragic if you live a life with full of self-deception. lately, all I could think of is, how to die and leave no pain to everyone around me. “How should this empty bin should leave?…”
after seeing this post, i can sense immediately it's maybe from you! it doesn't mean that, after i got gf i ignored u or take this friendship for granted! you know, you should look from different perspectives, u should communicate or ask me directly because there're thing that u don't really know. i still care about you and checking up on u, but not everyone has energy to communicate all the time. we can't be that stable everyday, too! i still valued u and the friendship but please understand my side as well! i don't even reply my gf that fast too! even my few years of friendship, i didn't text withthem that much too! im so tired with my life lately, please understand that I need time for some break as well!
I have met someone for almost 1 year and I started to feel like he is warm when I stay with him without any love feeling. I don’t feel on him but I just wanna stay with him, talk to him, play with him as normal but more than other. I keep thinking about him everyday, checking his personal life even his ex. But the matter is that I don’t feel on him, I don’t want him, I ask myself again and again but the answer is nothing. Moreover I don’t feel excited or shock when I meet him but I want to talk or to see him. So Is it called love or normal?