You
Wherever you are, you will continue to shine like gold in my memories.
I crush on someone who I met in online app. At first he add friend to me. In
Wherever you are, you will continue to shine like gold in my memories.
To my most favorite person, I don’t know where you are at right now. I promptly admit that I miss you so much especially your dry sense of humor, you being Dokey-talkative to me. Our big and small fights, LOL. I wish you were here with me. To tell me everything is fine, everything will be better. I badly need your love and comfort because I’ve been so tired of what I’ve been going through lately. I know I have no rights to tell you to stay, but seeing you disappear this time hurt me deeply. I thought I would be okay this time since we already said our goodbye and also had a proper closure even though we ended up in bad term again. In this situation, you probably hate me that much, think of me as a ‘never wrong and always right person’.it’s fine for me. I know I’m at worst. I want to do the same thing as well. Sadly, I can’t make myself hating someone who I’m so in love with. That’s not me! Despite your lies, you being closed-book to me, I’m still enchanted to meet you. I don’t feel any regret falling for you, I really mean it. You are the main character in my story. Your name has in every chapter of my book since May 2020 til now. Imma always feel appreciated and grateful because I found someone who showed me the real definition of ‘Action speaks louder than Word’. You are Jjang! You know what? I can pretend to be happy and laugh at others joke. I can go on other dates and meet new people as you wished me to, but at the end of the day, they aren’t you. We will always be unfinished business and it will always be you although I used to tell you not to cross the path again. Yet, deep inside of me keep hoping that at least we have one beautiful story which I never give up praying for. One small moment together as you knew that I expect less when it comes to you, right? ...
Sometimes it becomes pressure for me that I always need to say ''Yes'' to everything that my friends ask for. It's doesn't mean that I don't want to help them or whatever, but I feel really bad about it. They keep wanting me do whatever they want, I mean if they want that I HAVE TO do that for them, they always want me to do like that all the time, even I say ''I can't''. On the other hand, I still cannot say ''NO'' to them as well, whenever I say ''NO'' to them I always feel wrong but at the same time I feel pressure as well. I feel like sometimes they don't respect my decision. I swear I want to be a selfish person sometimes, I don't want to be a tool for anyone that can be using all the time like that, but I don't know HOW TO SAY NO. Tell me if i'm wrong.
he left at a time where i was still deeply in love with him. he silently left me without a word. he left without explaining. all my texts were unanswered and all my calls were never picked up. gosh, it hurts to be ignored. its been 3 long months and i’m still attached to him. no words could describe the damaged my heart felt. i felt betrayed i would’ve never treated him like that. i couldn’t wrap my head around why he left me the way he did. some nights, i would cry because i missed him so much. i can still see his smile , still hear his voice, still feel his warmth and still remember his words… i’m gonna wait and pray that maybe one day he’ll return back to me. i still have hope because i still love him.
How to choose BTW the one who take care on you and they will come when we need the warm vs the one who advise us e.time but they didn't know how we need people to warm up us.
អ្នកសប្បាយចិត្តណាស់ អ្នកបង្ហាញថាមានភាពកក់ក្តៅ ពេញចិត្តគេណាស់ បង្ហាញថាគេស្រឡាញ់និងទទួលយកអ្នកជាអ្នក។ តែអ្នកភ្លេចគិតហេីយថាគេស្គាល់ គេទទួលយកអ្នកនៅពេលដែលអ្នកល្អប្រសេីរហេីយ អ្នកមានសម្ភារះនិយម មានផ្ទះថ្មី មានម៉ូតូឡាន មានបទពិសោធន៏ពីមនុស្សម្នាក់ដែលអ្នកបោះបង់ចោល។ អ្នកកែប្រែដេីម្បីគេ វាល្អហេីយព្រោះមកពីស្រឡាញ់ទេីបកែប្រែដេីម្បីបន្ត។ តែអ្នកក៍គួរតែចាំដែរថា អ្នកណាដែលទទួលយកអ្នកពេលមិនទាន់មានអ្វីទាំងអស់។ អ្នកណាស៊ូទ្រាំជាមួយអ្នកទោះមានឧបសគ្គរារាំង តាមពង្រាត់។ មានរឿងលំបាក អន់ចិត្ត ក៍មិនចោលអ្នក មិនមែនធ្វេីដោយបង្ខំចិត្ត ធ្វេីដេីម្បីចងចិត្ត រឺ ចេះតែទ្រាំៗព្រោះស្រឡាញ់មកយូរ តែធ្វេីហេីយនិងទ្រាំចេញពីចិត្ត ព្រោះមានគោលដៅ មានសន្យា មានពាក្យសម្តីថានឹងស្រឡាញ់គ្នាសាងអនាគតជាមួយគ្នា។ អ្នកគិតថាបាក់ទឹកចិត្តជាមួយខ្លួនឯងបោះបង់គេចោល ជូនពរគេអោយជួបមនុស្សល្អជាងអ្នករួចហេីយចប់? ពេលល្អប្រសេីរ ទៅស្គាល់មនុស្សថ្មី ស្រឡាញ់មនុស្សថ្មី មេីលថែគេ បង្ហាញក្តីស្រឡាញ់អោយគេ មានច្រេីនទៀត ធ្វេីល្អដាក់អ្នកថ្មីបែបនេះហេីយចប់? រួចខ្លួន? ប្រេីទ្រឹស្តី life need to move on? មានដែលគិតពីអារម្មណ៍មនុស្សម្ខាងទៀតអត់? អ្នកធ្វេីបាបចិត្តមនុស្សដែលកំពុងហេីយតែងតែស្រឡាញ់អ្នកខ្លាំង អ្នកបោះបង់គេចោលកណ្តាលទី។ អ្នកអេីយទោះមិនមែនជាអ្នកមានគុណរបស់អ្នក តែការអោយតម្លៃ ទឹកចិត្តស្រឡាញ់ មិនចាញ់លោកអ្នកមានគុណទាំង2 របស់អ្នកទេ។ អ្នកអេីយគួរដឹងហេីយចាំថាអ្នកហែលឆ្លង ទឹកចិត្តដែលស្រឡាញ់ ទឹកភ្នែកដែលអ្នកធ្វេីអោយហូរនេះមិនផុតទណា។ មិនមែនចេះតែបន្លាច ចេះតែថាទេ ខ្ញុំនៅតែស្រឡាញ់ បន់អោយអ្នកជួបតែរឿងល្អ តែកម្មពារមានពិតណាអ្នក វាសងភ្លាមៗនៅជាតិនេះឯង។
I'm mad about the waste that happens when people who love each other can't even bring themselves to talk.
On the bed, there were my friend, my ex boss and I. They were kinda drunk and I’m kinda tipsy. We sleep on one bed. He went to the toilet then I kinda wake up as I’m the light sleeper but I can’t wake up cuz the of many shots tequila. He came back to the bed hugging me and laying his hands on my body. Then he started to move his hand and slowly touch me (my hands and my shoulder only). His whole left arm was my boobs while holding my hands so I hold his arm and and place his hand on boobs (he got big hands and I’m fucking weak for that). Not long after that, we got into cuddling position. He put his chin on my shoulder and softly touch my other shoulder then move to my collar bone then my neck. I was uncomfortable as my friend is on right side and he’s on left side and I can’t move but I decided to move and turn my back to him but I still hold his hand and stick to my boobs (I swear I don’t love him, I just like it when something is on my boobs when I sleep). He moved his arm slowly while laying it on me (we still in the cuddling position but this time is spooning). His face behind my back, he keeps moving his face that has newly grow mustache on my flesh. It felt good, really. Then suddenly he let go of me and went back to normal sleeping position (I was like oh shit, why but I think nvm I’ll go back to sleep). A few minutes later he came back, his leg on my body, his arm on my boobs and went back to cuddling position again. He hugged me from behind, his face next to me. (There’s more but I can’t finish it cuz I’m sleepy asf now)