Karma

I was loved and treated right by my ex. It was my first relationship so I never realize how precious it was until I lost it. I wasn’t matured enough to accept the fact that long lasting relationship includes arguments, those boring days where we also get tired of one another, forgiving and stepping backwards. I left him because I was looking for my “ideal relationship” and ofc I found it. But I’m paying the price, the price is being a chaser and still got neglected. Now I truely understand how my ex felt and how tired he was from all the efforts that he made. Though I never admit this outside but I always think about it everyday. The reason that I won’t admit is not because of the ego, but because I have to hide my vulnerability so that everyone think that I finally found my perfect man and hoping that will help my ex to move on, because before we broke up, we made a promise to look out for one another and he told me that he won’t move on unless I’m happy with my relationship. But don’t get me wrong, I am happy in my relationship but it’s like a roller coaster, some days I’m on cloud 9, some days I feel all gloomy. If you’re happen to read this, I just want to apologize for mistreating you and thank you for all the love, efforts and valuable lessons you gave me. Though we don’t talk anymore, hope we’re still cool.

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To the person I loved the most.

Hi! Yeah it's weird when I have to express this feeling, but it's kinda worse if I don't speak it out and keep it in my head a little longer. I know it's only 3 or 4 months that we've known each other, and it even started from a complete stranger who have connection only on social media. However, the feeling I had for you were real. I really wish that it could work out for us, or maybe we could do better than this, or at least we have a better ending. I regret for the action I did without the consideration of your feeling, I really do. Until these day I still feel sorry for doing those dumb things. I chatted to you because I miss you, I care for you, I don't want bad stuff to happen to the person I care so much about; but it broke me to pieces when you told me that you're dating someone now. I'm happy to see you smile, really. I'm happy for you that you're with a better person who will provide what you want and what you need. But at the same time, I was sitting in the corner of room thinking about you all day. I couldn't focus on my working and studying. Everything were bad for me, it left the scar on my heart. Yet, I still have the urge to look at our old conversation. Just to find out and tell myself that I have lost the person I love the most to a stupid mistake, and there's no way I can reverse or go back in time to erase what I had done but to accept the truth that you're gone. One last thing, it's close to your birthday and I still have the gift that I bought for you months ago. I hope I can give it to you, but I don't wanna make you feel uncomfortable seeing me. On top of that, I don't wanna be a conflict between you and your partner. Goodluck with your new journey, and yeah last long.

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Karma?

តើនេះជាកម្មមែនទេ? មានអ្នកតាមស្រឡាញ់តែមិនព្រមស្នេហ៍ ខ្លួនវិញតាមគេដូចឆ្កែ តែគេទុកដូចសំរាម 🤡

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អារម្មណ៍ពេលនេះ

It's hard to get through the night without thinking about you. It would've been easier to just go back to where we left and let the alcohol speak for myself again. I really wanna talk to you again, so much but I know if i texted you you might not gonna reply, guess you hate me so much now. It hurts me so much imagine u hate me u forgot about me and how you can easily moved on but I’ll just have to accept the fact. We didnt end well but im glad im glad that you gave a chance between us and made up with all these wonderful joyful memories. Thank you for the efforts you put into this relationship and I wish you all the best. ❤️

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