Unexpected change

...when it comes to a long distance relationship, communication is the key, they said. as students, we both have a lot of works need to be completed, but at the first few months it kinda work well, we both put efforts, make time for each other, and share almost everything. Times passed, people changed, they start to take things private, talk less or not even talk to each other for weeks,sometimes :), hmmm from every late night call to a good night message, no time for the one that is waiting for their messages and their presence, the one who wants to know whether it was their good or bad day, the one who wish to listen to everything and cheer them up with the sense of humorous>.<. The feeling of one-sided love comes, yet one still trying their best to keep the relationship even they've been through many sleepless nights. People changed with time, but the way you have changed is really far far away from my expectations. Goodnightmymoon❤️

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Empty Bin

I think I’ve built a very convenient Persona for myself to get by this world. Everywhere I go, Every group of people, or everyone that I met, I know what they see me but not in me, they find I’m a very polite, friendly, good manner person. I know this, because that is all my persona shows them. But their instincts would tell them to be care to approach me with their good intentions, maybe it’s a friendship or love. Their instincts would tell them, I’m not just they see, there are something more beneath that. And it’s right, I’m hiding myself under this forged amour because I can’t be who I actually want to be. How I was treat from a very young age had traumatized me to be myself. I’ve lived my life forged with lies that I tell myself, that now it makes me terrified to unfold the truth. Now at the end of everyday, I feel so empty, like an empty void that can’t never be filled. I named this “empty bin”, because that’s just how I am, loud but empty. I’m tired of this life. Even though I know life is pain and suffering, but how I still couldn’t get used to if? And it’s even more tragic if you live a life with full of self-deception. lately, all I could think of is, how to die and leave no pain to everyone around me. “How should this empty bin should leave?…”