If you promise to stay , I stay
That was a lie .....
Dating suppose to be people being in love with each other but for me it’s different, i’ve been in multiple relationships and its always just them giving and showing me love and affection while i’ve never actually fallen in love with them. Doesn’t mean that i don’t love them, i do but i don’t feel the spark or the exciting feeling when i’m with them. And i never get jealous maybe it’s because i’m not in love with them that’s why i never feel jealous over anything.
That was a lie .....
Wanting to tell you how I feel but not knowing how to start kills me inside. Whenever I see you, I want to look at you in the eyes and do nothing else. Just want to stare at those beautiful eyes like I once did when we went out together. I want to tell you reasons why I no longer pick up your phone. Reply your message. Talk to you in person. And a lot more. I’d like to apologize for hurting you. For giving you a hard time to take a step back from me. But I couldn’t say anything because it’ll only complicate the situation and makes it even more difficult for us when we cross paths. But now that I see you laugh and have fun with others again, it’s all I want. I hope you don’t hate me for ignoring you without giving proper reasons. I don’t know how to tell you and I will never be able to tell you. Just keep one thing in mind, you will forever have a place in my heart even though we can never be together.
I’ve missed you a lot. We were young back then. Soon after breaking up with you, I realize your appearance was so special in my life. I couldn’t let you know that I’ve missed you a lot, and I couldn’t admitted any mistake that I was wrong for whatever reason it was. I regret that I avoided and didn’t listen to one last conversation with you. Since then, I get to be aware of what I should have done better and what I shouldn’t do, so I’ve been careful with my approach, and for numerous people I’ve met,I still cannot forget the moment with you. I didn’t realize it soon enough. I thought as time passes I will move on. But, it has been 2 years now, and I often wish you were there every night. We were young back then. I was impatient. Stubborn. Ego. Incommunicable. I regret it, and even so, this would not be able to make up for my faults. I hope you are happy, achieve your wishes, and meet someone who deserve you. Someone who deserve your beautiful smile, and soft sweet voice. I hope to see you again and glad on how you achieve your dream.
I’m the owner of #KJ0010 To my best friend who passed away way too young, I have a thing to tell you that I’ll finished my M.S next year, the dream we once had. I delicate all my achievements to you. Thank you for being in my life for the 6 years you were. Thank you for loving me unconditionally. For pushing me. It's true what they say… the good die young. For what? Nobody will ever know the answer to that. Your last text were “ I’ll be the the star, the ones that brighter than the rest”. That day forever changed my life. I did not know that was going to be the last time I would talk to you. I wish I could've stopped this from happening. I keep going through everything in my head trying to think of ways I could've prevented this from happening, but I know I couldn't have. I wish I had the superpower to turn back time. I may carry guilt for the reason you aren’t here. You were, and still are, so loved by many. Sethika, Even though you are not here anymore, you will always be in my heart. You were such a special person. I wish you could see all the things i saw in you. You’ll be forever young and beautiful; P.S I don’t end this story with a period, but a semicolon instead, in hopes that one day we may reunite and our adventures together can start again. In another life, I would be your sister and I’ll be the older ones;
So we attend the school event together. And at the dinner time we all dressed with certain dress codes. She looks damn gorgeous🥺 I didn't tell her that tho, I might get caught. Then, there was a dancing session, and we got each other. I got to hold her hand and her jongkes as we danced to couple random songs. This was the best part of the event. I doubt she knows that I like her. Would you ladies like your classmates?🥺
we're not officially in a relationship yet but it feels like a break up? we haven't met each other outside yet, but why i feel so attached? i try to draw us the line, and tell myself that we're hopeless and better off being friend; we won't work out but why i still pray that we could start over, and fix what we lacked of? i know you lost interested in me but you're the one who make me believed at first that you're the right one. you said you're not like them yet you still did. prolly, it's my fault that fall so hard, and expect so much. i try to ignore you, I stopped reply to your message not because I hate you or want to cut you off, but it's because you don't really care. you show no interest in talking with me at all. when it come to you, i'm still being squishy asf. and yes! the more i talk to you, the more i feel hurt. you seem fine because you feel nothing at all. it's hard right now, but if one day i will get over it just as you said. let's be friends again when that time come. from #K to #J
We dated twice but were never in a relationship, yet the feelings that we shared, the sparks that I felt, it was like no other. You were good but I have to move on because I know having you will never bring me peace of mind. And I never wanted that.
"I friend-zoned him." Yes, I admit I did but hear me out first. I fell for that one guy like a year ago but I was always in control of my feelings so it doesn't get over me. Though we know each other for a long time, we weren't close at all, last year we grow closer day by day until now. One day I was too carefree,I got caught and I didn't know what to say so I said "I only think of you as a close friend." After that day, we still being close but in the name of a friend. I wonder if I still have a chance. He will be shocked if I confessed, what should I do?