I’ve missed you a lot. We were young back then. Soon after breaking up with you, I realize your appearance was so special in my life. I couldn’t let you know that I’ve missed you a lot, and I couldn’t admitted any mistake that I was wrong for whatever reason it was. I regret that I avoided and didn’t listen to one last conversation with you. Since then, I get to be aware of what I should have done better and what I shouldn’t do, so I’ve been careful with my approach, and for numerous people I’ve met,I still cannot forget the moment with you. I didn’t realize it soon enough. I thought as time passes I will move on. But, it has been 2 years now, and I often wish you were there every night. We were young back then. I was impatient. Stubborn. Ego. Incommunicable. I regret it, and even so, this would not be able to make up for my faults. I hope you are happy, achieve your wishes, and meet someone who deserve you. Someone who deserve your beautiful smile, and soft sweet voice. I hope to see you again and glad on how you achieve your dream.
Why did you leave me like that? How could you start over with her? Do you ever feel de ja vu? Do you feel the guilt? Why did you treat me this way? It wasn’t in our promise. What we had plan why did you do it with someone else? Why do you have to ruin me this way? Idk anything. Idk why you did this to me. But one thing I am sure of is my love for you have never been less than hers.
Is spending time with me exhausting? What? You said it's because you tired from work, that's why you act like this? I mean you know, I'm super busy at work and I'm really burnt out too. But still, I carved out time to spend it with you, and I want our time together to be special, you know! and I bring you here because I wanted us to reconnect, and... do you seriously think I came here to just shop? I want us talking and walking together... but you always want to go eat~ is it because you're hungry or are you just trying to kill time? You don't want to do anything with me anymore, do you? 😞 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g6qdzjTSgH0
I always thought that the older I got, the better thing would get. I was wrong. I am a young adult who still can't make my own decisions. I feel trapped and feel like I wasted my youth away. I am young and want to have fun and experience everything I have never done before. Is it too much to ask? Parent's care is something everybody needs, but there are boundaries. Sometimes I spend my time thinking of everything I could have done but couldn't because of somebody's opinions or pity excuses. I wish for a life that I live with no regrets, where I decide on my own, and nobody can tell what I can or cannot do. Not everybody has to have the same fate.
I fell in love with him three years ago and until now. I secretly admire him from afar, i love him since he had no girlfriend until he had a girlfriend and broke up again. I ignored so many people for him but look at me, i’m single:) i really wanna confess my feelings but what if he rejects me? Cus i swear i always put my pride first, plus i’m so picky and i’ve always rejected people who have a crush on me, Call me stupid but I reject 5 guy becus of him, yet he knows nth. I just found out recently that he has a girlfriend for almost a month, but that’s ok. i’m willing to wait again, i won’t mess with their relationship.. i’ll love him in silence. Whatever, seeing him everyday at school is enough, even if we don’t talk with each other, sharing a small daily life with him is my greatest joy. My question is, should i confess to him at the end of the year? Cus, this is our last year as a high school student, it wouldn’t hurt if he rejected me cus we probably never met again. *i’m crying
៥ឆ្នាំដែលស្គាល់អូន ៥ឆ្នាំដេលបងឈឺចាប់ 5ឆ្នាំដែលបងហត់នឿយ ៥ឆ្នាំដេលបងលះបង់ 5ឆ្នាំដេលបងពិបាក ៥ឆ្នាំដេលបងបានបាត់បងអ្វីៗគ្រប់យ៉ាង ៥ឆ្នាំនៃសុបិន្តអាក្រក់ តែ5ឆ្នាំនេះ បងនៅតែស្រលាញ់អូន
We've been broke up for 2 years but idk why i always miss you even though i was with someboday Else. I was hugging and kissing her but all my mind was thinking about you and I still imagined it's was u. I know u still have a feeling for me but i really can't move on from what u did to me. I choose to ignore u for ur good and it's really hurt that i'm ignoring a girl that i love the most. I just want to tell u that you're the girl i love the most. I want congrat u for ur dream become true even without me. I always love you ❤️
កាលពីឆ្នាំ 2019 ខ្ញុំបានសុបិនឃើញមនុស្សម្នាក់ដែលខ្ញុំមិនធ្លាប់ស្គាល់សោះ ជួបគេនៅកន្លែងដែលមិនស្គាល់ដូចគ្នា!ក្នុងសុបិន្តនោះ គេមិនបង្ហាញមុខឲ្យខ្ញុំឃើញទេ គ្រាន់តែបែខ្នង... it's really strange, because I never dreamed anyone who I never know. ពេលនោះក៏មិនចាប់អារម្មណ៍ គ្រាន់តែគិតថា ប្រហែលអារម្មណ៍មកពីណាមិនដឹងដែលឲ្យសុបិនបែបនេះ។ ខ្ញុំក៏បំភ្លេចវាទៅ... តែថ្មីៗនេះ ចុងឆ្នាំ2021 ខ្ញុំបែរជាសុបិនម្ដងទៀត វាចម្លែកដូចគ្នា ឃើញមនុស្សម្នាក់ដែលមិនធ្លាប់ស្គាល់ តែលើកនេះឃើញគេពីចំហៀងវិញ...ពេលភ្ញាក់មក មិនចាប់អារម្មណ៍ខ្លាំងទេ! បន្ទាប់មកចាប់ផ្តើមគិត Why this dream really strange? Have I seen this person before?? ចម្លើយគឺជា ម្នាក់ដែលខ្ញុំសុបិនកាលពី ២ ឆ្នាំមុន! ( ខ្ញុំមិនច្បាស់ទេថាគេបាននិយាយអីឬអត់ តែកាយវិការដែលគេបង្ហាយ ខ្ញុំអាចដឹងបានថាគេកំពុងចាំ ហើយឲ្យខ្ញុំចាំដូចគ្នា!) ខ្ញុំមិនដឹងថាវាពិតឬអត់ ហើយអ្នកទាំងអស់គ្នាជឿឬអត់ទេ តែខ្ញុំគ្រាន់តែគិតថាខ្ញុំនឹងជួបគេថ្ងៃណាមួយ! To that person : " Waiting " is the word that reminded me every day. No matter what, no matter where and who u are, if both dreams are real, I wish to see u. However, when that time comes u have someone or don't I'm still waiting. Just want to see u is enough!! Remember me! I'm still waiting u...!
This is a story of mine. A story that I don’t tell anyone and never plan to but it’s been making me feel so heavy so, I decide to confess it here. I’m a mentally ill person, since i was a kid (it’s a long long story). I didn’t get enough love and affection as i was a kid so since I became a teenager, i attach to people who give me affection easily. Long ago, i knew a man on internet. We started texting with each other until we fell in love. He was a really good guy. He loved me, always cared about me, checked up on me, helped me with everything, he was literally perfect plus he’s a good looking person, he was a man in every women’s dream. He didn’t know about my mental state until we dated and it turned out he was also mentally ill, but my condition is worse than him. But things went so smooth, our relationship was super healthy and we were so deeply in love. After we’ve been together for 1 year, thing started to happen, he started asking me to show him my body. I refused but he’d said I didn’t trust him or anything. So i showed him with the condition that there won’t be a second time and he agreed. A few days later he asked me again, he convinced me and if I refused, he’d get upset after that. Thing went repeatedly. He asked me again and again and there’s no the end of it. I loved him too much but doing something like that really made me feel so wrong and disgusted myself. I didn’t want our relationship to fall apart so i did as he told me to (i was stupid). Little did he know, i cried every time after showing him my body. A few months later, i felt like I couldn’t keep it going and going repeatedly like that anymore and i felt so wrong especially i felt like i’m a bad daughter and how’d my mom feel if she know that her daughter do something like that in such a young age. That night, he requested me again but then I refused and i told him i’m not gonna do it anymore, i’ve done enough and I felt so wrong about it. But then he started forcing me. I started to cry but he didn’t change his mind and he promised it will be the last time. I was dumb enough to believe that so i showed him again while i was crying and mad at him. After he felt satisfied, he started to cry, he felt sorry for me and he said I couldn’t control his mind and it was so hard for him. After a month, i guess, he started to request me again and when i refused he always get upset and acted cold to me. I loved him so so much, i was afraid that our relationship was gonna fall apart so i do as he said but that time, he convinced me to masturbate myself. I did everything that he told me to. After one year and half of our relationship, the distance was started to grow between as. I was not a good girlfriend to him, being with a mentally ill person like me is so draining and he also had so much things to deal with, he was also suffering and he still tried to help me and comfort me. I fell into a deep depression that I started to think about committing suicide again. But then, we broke up for some complicate reasons that I can’t even understand. I was so attached to him, i did everything just for him to come back, I begged him and I couldn’t eat or do anything, i just cried and kept calling him over and over even he didn’t pick up. But at night, he picked up but we didn’t talk much since i only called him so i can ask him to be back. Until one night, he said he was still in love with me but i need to be strong, when I become strong, he will comeback, I believed him. We called for a few minutes for a few nights but during our call he always asked me to show him my body and masturbate myself. I thought doing it would make him stay and love me, i was so dumb that I sacrificed and gave him everything just to make him stay. A few days later, I felt like he doesn’t love me anymore because he was so fine, he didn’t care whether i’m okay or not, if i eat, if i cry, he didn’t care about me, he was just living his life normally. He ignored my texted and didn’t pick up my call the whole day until night time, he picked up and asked me to do thing as I mentioned above. One night, i asked him if he was still in love with me because his action showed that he was already fell out of love. “I don’t have any feelings for you since the day we broke up, i was just feel pity for you and afraid you were gonna do something harmful to yourself”, he responded. It really hurt my feelings, it was like someone stabbed me in the chest, I started to cry so hard and all he could say was sorry. I was literally so so depressed, i still texted him and called him after he said that to me (i was so thaok) but he didn’t respond or pick up. After a few weeks I started activating my social media account and acted like I got over it (I didn’t get any better actually). He texted me, i was less sad and asked him to fix thing but he refused again. Things kept happening until a month or 2 months (I forgot) I decided to stop asking to come back since he got a new gf already but i was still in love with him and think about him 24/7. And now, i still can’t get over him and i can’t bring myself to hate him either because he was so good to me even though he did hurt my feelings but he treated me like i was something special and a really important person to him. The only person i hate right now is myself. I hate myself so much, i’m so disgusting and i think I deserved everything that happened to me. Everything that happened in the past is haunting me, the more i get reminded of it, the more i hate myself. Even though i tried to get over it, to forget it, to start working on myself, to heal myself but none of it work. They say time will heal but actually, it doesn’t. I act like i moved on and happy because I don’t want my family and friends to worry about me. They’ve been helping me a lot and i really appreciate it but it couldn’t help me somehow. It’s all my faults, I know people will hate me if they know about this but what can i do to be forgiven. But how can i be forgiven by people when i can’t even forgive myself…