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called mom and told her I‘ve been struggling with my mental health And she called me weak
I’m a type of person that value friendship more than relationship , I rather not date anyone just so I have more time to hang out with my close friend. We share stuff no one ever know about us , enjoy each other’s company without saying a word to each other , inside jokes , hangout non stop…But then things change , third party comes in , she is still my friend but someone else has become her closest friend. They share conversations day and night , calling non stop , playing with each other all the time . I feel like I’m left out but who am i to be jealous of that , you guys seem to be enjoying each other company so much , why would i ruin that because of my feeling , I’m just upset that I can’t provide you that feeling , but it is what it is . I don’t know if you know that I’m upset with that but since I’m not good at opening up to you anymore, I hope the best for you guys even if we become stranger one day…
called mom and told her I‘ve been struggling with my mental health And she called me weak
Do you know how I came here? I’m trying to forget you. It took me five hours to bike here, a coffee store in the middle of a mountain. I was running away from you for six months. I tried so hard to not thinking about you, avoiding your social media, ignoring your favorite meal, when it appears in front of me. Why do you not fade even a little? How could you show up here so easily? and You forgot me so easily. So~ Why can’t I... 😢 This is killing me. Answer me [Why is it so easy for you?]
I feel like everyone keep avoiding me and I have no idea why would they treat me like that. I keep wondering what did i do wrong? Is there anything i've missed out ? And I really don't know. And you know I now can feel the lyrics" I think I've seen this film before, and didn't like the ending" because yes, I used to be treat like this too and that's what scared me most. And I scared I keep seeing it and it repeat time too time, again and again.
I spend most of my morning thinking about you. My thoughts take me back to the moments when we first met. I remembered how those smiles of yours have captured my heart. I still recall the conversations we had, the laughs we shared, and every other thing that included you in there. Sometimes, I would daydream about you, and I get butterflies. I spend most of my evening wondering if we get to talk. I always wanted to talk to you but was too afraid to approach you. And whenever you texted me, my day just got better. I hope that our paths will cross one day because I want to see you again.
i bet there are lots of guys out there having this kind of attitude. I met a person who always click react to other girls’ most of her posts and shares whereby he never react on his girlfriend’s post or whatever. The thing is you never realized that this action disappointed me yet u feel like why can’t u react to those girls. Plus, you just say something without having intention of doing it such as, tell me who is she, who is the girl I react on, I will block her. So what? Saying out loud without action action or stop doing it means what to you? i don’t know whether u have or don’t have intention toward her but what i’m sure is if you don’t care then u won’t do any reaction to her. If you think having girlfriend and flirting around with some other girls is fun, then u don’t deserve to be a MAN. Manner Maketh Man
Now, I understand what is mean BFF. Since from 2019-2021, I had 2 friends ( Girls ) as my BFF . I love them as the persons that I can share every story with them and trust them that they not gonna tell to other peoples. Back to 2019-2021 , we are really close to each other. We went out to eat something, we call on phone tigger , talk about our problem , listen to each other . It seem like we are really Love each other. You know I put two of them as my beloved one . I always think them first . I want to make their birthday special. And I thought, they will love me as I love them. Because my action never change for someone that I love and call them BFF . BUT since 2022 , both of them are far away from me . We are not close friends as before . I don’t know why , why they do that action to me back . I really sad , mad , cry and hurt because of their action. I really unexpected 🙂. + For Person A : From 2019-2021, all the time I chatted to her, she always replayed me on time or late just around 1h -2h -3h or more than 4-5h . But since from 2022 when I chatted to her , she replied me in 1-2 days . Sometimes in 20h . Sometimes in 10h . She so changed. All the time I asked her to go out with me eat something. She always busy. First I thought that , maybe right now she are more busy with her study in university. But her action keep doing again and hsuan until today . I thought that she is my BFF . But right no . Because she never asked or chatted to me go to eat out . But she can go with other friends. Yessss , she have new friends. So their New fri is important than me so far . I chatted to her ask her to go out 20 times . She never chatted to me and me to go out even 1 times . I am the one who chat to her , because I want to keep in touch and our relationship friend forever. But her action it seem like she so cool that everyone like her , be good with her and always get good luck and gift from other people . And right now when end conversations or though that chat is not important. They just read my notifications messenger and not seen my chat till I chatted to them again . Your action so Perfect my friend. + For Person B : she also the same as person A . Since 2022 , she never read all my chat and seen my chat . But she can post story and share news or status on FB . But she couldn’t reply my chat or seen my chat since our conversation is not really end . I don’t that she totally forgot or she totally busy so much . But at least you have a Icon on app that show you which your chat you haven’t seen . I don’t know what she think who am I . Her action so me that I am not important friend anymore, because she have many friends that care and stay with her all the times . I am her BFF nearly 7-8 year but she never post a story with me or tag me . Sometimes she never mention from me when I tags her . But she can post story with her new fri in university. She can mention her friend when they tag her . But she never did that with me . So This is how we call BFF ? . Dear to my both Friends. That for teach me how to understand words BFF and thank for let me show how good and bad you are with me . You didn’t respect with and see how I love both of you . I hope you enjoy with your new friends and have a good relationship till last . #thanktotheownerofpageknongjitforleTmesharemystoryThathurtmesomuchfrommyBFF😃. #thankbeforehandadmidforpostthis.
We dated twice but were never in a relationship, yet the feelings that we shared, the sparks that I felt, it was like no other. You were good but I have to move on because I know having you will never bring me peace of mind. And I never wanted that.
There is a guy who is crushing me. We met each other years ago and we never talk and get closed but I know he crushes on me by his actions to me virtually. Actually, I am very anti-social and quiet and it gets very weird and intimidating if I get into relationship with someone. I have been thinking about that guy frequently, and I want to stop thinking about him and I want him to stop crushing on me lol. I don't think I deserve someone though, maybe I don't really like myself. I have never been in relationship before and I want to be forever alone and single in this life. So if that guy confess to me directly one day, should I immediately reject him? I want to friend zone him at first and then keep him as as an older brother. I don't want to hurt him by rejecting him, but it is better to be honest with yourself first. He really deserves someone better than me. Hope that he forgets me completely as time passes.