May this be the end - I can't do this anymore !

Too tired to keep pushing every girl i met away, just because i still hope we can re-write our own ending. I guess i kept my promised, unless she find a guy i would be allow to open up to a new beginning. finally the curse is over. (in the mean time- Go and watch " I Don't Love you By Gray" ) #🔥🐼 | (adios)

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2025-08-14

Never Be Fooled By A Smile

I lost my friend several months ago. she was someone I talked to every day and even asked for advice. and we met when we’re studying in Australia. It still feels unreal every time I see her photos with a smiley face, I still have difficulty believing she’d do it. how can a girl who is always smiling dealing with mental illness and nobody knows about it. There were no warning signs. she is a person I wished I could be more like (not jealousy, I’m just admire her). Happy, creative, smart, perfect family status, beautiful smiles. Always upbeat and looking out for others. She texted me a day earlier before it happened. I should’ve talked to her that day a little more…why didn’t I. The way it happened was shocking. I still wonder if I could have helped her that day. It's almost like it never happened because it just doesn't seem real, it was so unexpected. As I'm typing this its just actually hitting me again that she is really gone. but looking back, yeah, there were some signs because I accidentally saw her searching about medicine but she said it was just research projects. the guilt in my guts is overwhelming. I also noticed that she was extremely exhausted and kinda isolated herself from anyone earlier that month but I was pretty naive on top of that. It really bothers me now, because she was obviously giving some signs but I was too stupid to realize what was going on. I LOVE YOU, S P.S If someone is popping up in your mind while reading this please don’t ignore them and checking on them every chance you get as the last chance you will ever have may have been yesterday. Be there when you can. Even if its just checking up on someone. If you care about someone, let them know. If someone reaches out to you, even a little... be there for them. You never know when they are in their final moment of desperation. Not everyone will have the same signs. Some won’t have any at all. If you suspect something at all... just let them know you care and that if they ever need to talk, that you are there for them. That they are never a burden, not to you. Even if they never open up to you, just hearing that can make a world of difference. And if you are struggling yourself, please open up to someone. Anyone. Even if its someone you don't know that well. There is nothing wrong if you’re going to met therapist.
2025-08-14

A secret untold

My mom married this guy since I was like 8. We've been living together like a family but I'm not close to my mom neither do her husband. I don't call that guy dad either. They had two kids together, my younger siblings and I have a family bond, we're close to each other. But started when I'm grown up, this guy somehow touched me jokingly. Sometimes this guy would laugh and touch my toes, hands, and there's one time he pointed my boob. That makes me very uncomfortable and I couldn't point him out since he acted like it was unintentional. One time he showed me my picture (I stand and bend my back, it was a picture took from a trip) and said laughing, look at your picture it looks like... He didn't finish his sentence but you should know very well what he means. Normal people wouldn't look at one's picture and think about that unless they have lewd thought with them. I think he secretly watched me showering at night too by some hole on the bathroom's wall (they intended to make another bathroom but til now they didn't do it yet) I was too slow to notice. Every time I'm in the shower he would disappear too, and every time he heard me entering the bathroom he would go outside the house even if it's 12am and cameback right in time when I'm done. About my mom, I think she suspects this too. But instead of holding her husband accountable. She confronted me instead, I was so upset. Imagine your own mother is jealous of you and her husband and she's too scared to lose that guy and started confronting you. She really makes me lose faith in mother-daughter's bond. I know we're not close but this is too much. She questioned me everytime like I was a prisoner but never says a word to her husband. I'm starting to hate her now. Fuck. I hate this so much. I've never said a word about this to anyone because I think I can hold in. But it started getting heavy now.

2025-08-14

Realization

It's been a while since our last conversation, at first I've gone through many hardships and confusion, wondering what was the real reason. After some time have passed I've come to the realization stage where I realized many things. I realized what is the thing that makes you upset, the words I could say, and the actions that I could do to make things better. I understand why you always want me to change. I'm so happy to see that you're doing well with your life journey right now. I wish that one day you can open up for me once again and I'll make sure that you meet a better version of me. I don't want you to build me for another person.
2025-08-14

Steps To The Future

I know you're rushing to get to that next phase in your life. You're sick and tired of being where you're at and feel like you should be somewhere else doing greater things. You're stressing yourself to have more. Your giving yourself anxiety tricking yourself that you're behind. Listen to me, you're exactly where you should be at. You're where you're at because there's a few more lessons you have to learn before you go into that next phase. But I'll tell you this, as long as you're moving, you're not stuck. As long as you keep working you're not stagnant. Be okay with taking steps and not running. You'll have experiences where you're running. This stage isn't that. Life is making you walk because you have a lot to learn in this moment in time and you need more time to gather all this information. Sometimes life doesn't give us what we're asking for because we're not ready to have them. We're not ready for the responsibilities. We're not ready for the stress. We're not ready or responsible enough to manage that many things. That's why life gives us a little at a time so we can learn how to mange blessings. Life is giving us time to develop before it unloads everything we deserve. It takes experience and wisdom to have a lot. Be grateful for the little you have so you'll be grateful for everything you'll be receiving in the future.
2025-08-14

If you promise to stay , I stay

That was a lie .....

2025-08-14

My​ One​ side​ love

Hello,​ let​ call​ me​ Jasmine​ (ម្លិះ)​. In​ the​ relationship,​ I've​ been​ through​ alot,​ now​ I'm​ becoming too​ straight​ to​ my​ crush.​ Now,​ I​'ve​ done​ new​ thing​ which​ I​ have​n'​t​ experience​d​ before.​ As​ a​ woman,​ I​ 've​ confess​ed​ to​ the​ person​ that​ I​ love.​ He​ hasn't​ rejected​ me,​ but​ his​ action​ did.​ After​ confession,​ I​ don't​ feel​ anything​ awkward because​ I'​ve​ already​ known​ the​ answer.​ I​ always​ ask​ myself​ that,​ why​ I​ always​ beg​ for​ his​ answer,​ even​ his​ action​ did.​ After​ that,​ I​ started​ to​ feel​ dissapointed just​ because​ I​ can't​ afford​ his​ love.​ Then,​ I​ found​ he​ was​ in​ the​ darknets,​ he​ still​ feel​s​ in​ love​ too​ much​ with​ his​ memories.​ Then,​ I​ thought,​ if​ I​ have​ true​ love​ to​ him,​ I​ should​ release him.​ Because​ I​ love​ him,​ I​ can't​ force him,​ I​ can't​ see​ even​ he​ was​ in​ the​ pressure.​ Love​ doesn't​ mean​ to​ possess​ them.​ I​ chose​ to​ be​ good​ friend​ instead​ just​ to​ see​ him​ inspire​ all​ days​ long,​ because​ I​ know​ he​ is​ an​ over​thinking​ man.​ Man,​ you​ are​ the​ first​ person​ who​ improve​ me​ more​ to​ confess,​ to​ face​ all​ thing​s​ which​ I​ want​ed​ to​ escape.​ Now​ I​ did​ it,​ at​ least​ I've​ confess​ed​ my​ love​ to​ you.​ I​ don't​ really​ care,​ what​ ever​ would​ us​ be,​ I​ still​ loving​ you,​ let​ be​ us​ before.​ I'm​ still​ inspire​ you​ from​ here. #Jasminenotjasmineម្លិះ🤍
2025-08-14

My Fault

-N💗 Im sorry for hurting you. It was childish of me to do that to you. I don’t expect u to forgive me. I wish I could take every ounce of pain u feel right now. I love you, always. #221020
2025-08-14

From a precious memory to an awful memory

Hello guys so I've been hiding all the pain by myself for so long so today I just wanted to share it with u guys.so here's the story ... We both used to be best friends but then one day when my life was so fking down ( we both girls) and there she's coming into my dark place and cheer me up with her kind words. Yeah I appreciated those words a lot and it helped me a lot but u know it's true that the one makes u feel better will break u worse. I don't think it's true and never think my always fav human being could be this cruel to me. Since i've fallen in love with her.i cried almost every single day because she hurts me everytime we talked but I still come back to her because I love her so much to the point I can give my life to her. Everytime she hurts me I always disappear and come back act as nothing happened ( the feeling that u loved S1 like this coz u will always forgive that person until u reached ur limitations). This last time I've disappeared maybe around 1 months ( the longest and last time too) and then I'm back but don't be confused I never wanted to force her to love me or something just wanted us to be like before like the way she used to act very kind to me ( she's also my favourite friend even before she become my crush) but u know she never do that again. ( អាចថាយើងស្រលាញ់គេពេកហើយឲ្យគេដឹងចិត្ត ចឹងហើយគេនិយាយអីធ្វើអីមិនដែលគិតចិត្តយើងទេ) and my text just be like" u look so okay without me but I'm not" but lol she looks so mad and sent me the texts that I have never received the rest of my life. And those text just cut off all my feelings from her. Guess what's it? Lol she said that I'm not her type because her type is beautiful, perfect sth like that which makes me doubt myself am I that bad in her eyes? Huh and she even said that even she makes the choice among all the person she won't choose me. Lol that's funny. Hold on girl! If those words received by those who have anxiety, depression or didn't love themselves enough. They're probably killed themselves already 😃 but that's not me because I love myself enough and I know I'm pretty enough in my own way for myself and I'm more than enough and also a lot of things she didn't know about me. So here's just few more things I wanted to tell u guys. 1. If u wanted to reject someone just find a good way to do that. Put yourself in someone's shoes. ( Be a good memory to people.dont be a toxic or an awful memory to them because what u said might be haunted them for the rest of their lives) 2. Dear all my beloved people out there please don't doubt your own worthy just because someone treated you like shit. They don't deserve your and please love yourself more. You don't need to prove that you're enough but keep improving yourself just for yourself. 3. I don't know if this reach to u or not but I just wanna tell u now you're just nothing to be and a toxic person that I used to know so if we happened to meet each other or something please គេចពីខ្ញុំទៅព្រោះសូម្បីស្រមោលអ្នកឯងខ្ញុំមិនចង់ឃើញផង។ no hate but I wish u would disappear from my life.🤭 One more thing u the only person among all my ex and crushes that I regret to love .( ស្តាយទឹកចិត្តមើលមនុស្សខុស។ កុំភ្លេចដំបូងខ្ញុំចូលចិត្តអ្នកព្រោះអ្នកមានទឹកចិត្តល្អ មិនមែនពិសពុលដូចពេលនេះទេ)