Trying to find u in another human form

once a lover, now a stranger

i will always remember the day we started talking. i would never forget the man whom i used to cherish, and treasure. it's been 2 years already since we were officially broken apart, but still, i couldn't get over you. after all this time, i still think about you, and want you back. however, it seems like you are better off without me. i know you haven't found someone new yet, so has me. day by day, i keep waiting for you, hoping someday you're gonna come back and love me again eventhough i know it's impossible. i know i was the one who asked for the breakup because i was so stupid and immature, and reckless. we had been together for so long and i didn't trust you. i was too afraid that you would leave me someday, so i left you first. we're strangers now. i deserve it. p.s my heart will only be for you #chh

2025-08-14

Crying Every night

Let me tell you about my nightmares. The most things I am Afraid of , it is I am gonna lose my man once day. It hurt so much. The man I love the most more than myself. But we still can’t be together. We are still in relationship as a girlfriend and boyfriend until nowadays. We fall in love since we are in Highschool. Day by day, when I grow up , I getting more scare . The more I grow , the more I scare . You know what ? Because I know that my parents won’t approve us. Yes. I know that is not easy to get through that situation. To make the reader more Easy to understand : ( Rich & Poor ). I know that is too hard . Really hard to fight it . To my man ❤️, he was working so hard day by day . He was thinking so much day by day . Everything he did just wants to get me and live with me . I know that he won’t give up until we still strong to fight. But time fly to fast and the hope are less . The thing has change . And I asked myself , if I didn’t agree to love him . Maybe he have more freedom than with me . If I didn’t love him , maybe he not really get too hard for me . If I reject on that day , maybe he not get too much pressure , too much stress and too much overthinking. He also know that , it too hard to get me . But he will try again and again until he give up. He still try too hard for me . I didn’t regret because I love him . But I regret that I love him and make him more difficult because of me . Everything is my false. We have been talk each about that situation. And I still can’t accept it . That why I always cry every night I went to sleep. It too hard to stay far aways from the man I love the most. Our story are too complicated and too long. But I hide that feeling for many years . I didn’t told my boyfriend about that but he knew that I am stress about that so much and overthinking . But he didn’t knew that I had cry so hard every night . I really t hope that I can stay with him❤️. I love you so much 💕. Note: It quite too long about my story . And I am sorry if my English not really good . Because I am poor with English. Thank for those who read my story. Big thank to this page that help me to talk about my story out. Even not help me 100% . But at least 50% help a lots to share my story and let them know my story . #Thankeveryone. #Thankknongjitpage

What's wrong with me?

I don't really know what happens. I just feel sorry for everyone and sorry for myself. Every day seems heavy. feel like crying and tiring without doing anything. Feeling lost, no goal. I remember my friends told me to create one if you don't have any dreams. But how if I don't even know what do I love? I'm such an idiot. There's a lot of things running inside my head and I just want anybody to listen without judging me but everyone looks so busy. I'm just a troublemaker. Still, what's happened? what do I actually feel? I hate being like this. I'm lost.

Two people from two different worlds

You are so awesome. Everyone knows and loves you. I stood there looking at you; looking at how far we were from each other. I was just an outsider to your world. But when you reached me first, everything changed. You let me in, even just for a short moment. I finally could see and hear you clearly then. I wish time were frozen. I wanted to keep you longer but I didn’t know how to do that. You showed me the parts of you that I had never seen before. I wonder if you did that to everyone. Yet, it didn’t matter because that’s all I could ask for. Now that our worlds go back to normal, I wonder how you feel about back then. Perhaps it’s normal for you, but sitting there alone together just listening to you talking about your favorite things…my heart is still fluttering now. I wish I were brave enough to tell you about my feeling. Right now, I don’t think I have anymore chances. Eventually, we are just two people walking on two different paths. Yet, the memory you gave me, will always be my favorite fantasy. —tired owl.

I found a better me

It’s have been 9 months since we broke up. Yes, I can see you’re there with your new boyfriend and count by day day I thought you would have 4-5 new boys at the same time and this is really mean to you and that is really made you happier and relax than we were together. Im here without no one and yes i moved on since I put myself not into the dark , I grew myself a lot, I found a better me than the last 9 months. Im here to impress my feeling here again not because I miss you, btw I want to tell you that don’t try to stalk my profile or another connection to me which means you want to know where i am, who is with me , how far I walked without you… and yes something like that! Don’t worry, I still a dumb gay in your eye yes, honestly I never n ever stalk your timeline that just want to see what’s your relationship status or anything else about you. I just want you to know, I appreciated it and thanks for leaving me here , I’ll never remember you again for sure and don’t be regret of what you’ve done , it’s not a drama story and you’re not only one person that I can’t live without. If you’re reading this, you’ll know who i am. So my last one word to you , please stay healthy and don’t cheat with your new bf the same way you did to me! You should marry with a rich guy and make yourself worth than now!

I'm disappointed in you.

Sh*** I secretly have crushed on you. But you seem too rushed for the guys who just wasted your time. I tried to give sight to wait for me, how many times have you been ghosted and fooled by those guys you easily fall in love with, I don't like to see the women I like being played by those assholes. The reason I want you to wait is right now I have no time for you, I just wanna solve every problem before I get you because I don't want you to get involved, I don't want to get stressed with me. I hope you understand when you saw this.

Emotionally neglected kid.

My parents’ marriage was a train wreck. They were unsuited to one another, married for the wrong reasons, and stayed married for the wrong reasons. It did us kids a world of damage from which we will never completely recover. It also taught us some important lessons, largely about what NOT to do! I loose my belief in relationships. They taught me everything about what a marriage shouldn't be like. my parents fight all the time, and they never hide from me. As long as I can remember, they fight about everything, when one of them know he/her is wrong but didn’t care to admit it and the only best thing they have as a couple is that neither of them never cheat on each other or even alcoholic. When I need to take major life decisions, it always gets confusing because of how both of them have different views of things. And they don't communicate so I find myself stuck. As a mother, my mother is a good one. And my dad is a good dad too. But together they are far from the ideal couple. Have you ever heard of “គូកម្ម” ?