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Where have been to for so long??? I am not okay here. I feel like I am all alone. Hug me tight please.
I really miss you and It doesn’t matter how long I have to wait for you 3 months,5 months 1 year, 3 years it doesn’t matter. I want the dream that both of us dreamt of come true. I know everything seems cloudy for the both of us… But remember everything is going to be fine…. Until we meet again…
Where have been to for so long??? I am not okay here. I feel like I am all alone. Hug me tight please.
The reason I write this up, I want
I can’t do it anymore. I have to admit it. I can never get her out of my heart. I’ve tried and tried and the harder I try to, the bigger hold I discover in my heart. She has a hold on my heart that I could not break if I wanted to and there has been countless of times that I wanted to. It has been overwhelming, drowning, suffocating and even deadly painful at times but I could not stop loving her anymore than I could stop breathing. I am hopelessly, irretrievably, subconsciously in love with her. More than she and I would know. I start losing her subtly, but the pain I feel is enormous. I can’t lose her. I really can’t.
Since I broke up with my ex bf in March 2021, I never had any bf until now. Not because I didn’t fall in love with anyone else. It’s because I used to asked s1 abt feeling during I broke up. And the answer is “ death both side”xD. And yeah at the time he’s the only person that I chatted with, told him how’s my feelings, sometime cried while sending my voice to him. Then we haven’t chatted for awhile. Currently, And he just text me and get on with each again.
Sometimes I questioned your mind. You’re in one healthy relationship, yet you can’t be loyal. How’s it that you can do this so easily? How would you expect me to react to your text with others, you replied their story with such enthusiasm, asking how they’re doing, what they’re doing? You kept on telling me how you don’t mess around with other. So what is this? Work related again? Or were you being friendly although you said you’re friends? I thought I was special. I’m so disappointed in you . #S
So we attend the school event together. And at the dinner time we all dressed with certain dress codes. She looks damn gorgeous🥺 I didn't tell her that tho, I might get caught. Then, there was a dancing session, and we got each other. I got to hold her hand and her jongkes as we danced to couple random songs. This was the best part of the event. I doubt she knows that I like her. Would you ladies like your classmates?🥺
I know it's been a while since we have broken up but every night I still thought of you and how you have treated me....I don't really know the real reason behind the breakup but I really want you to know that I always have your picture in my wallet as a lucky charm and also I miss you so much. if there's a right time in this life I hope we can meet again
hey there, life has been so much going on right now. The life itself is going downhill to the hell or maybe I misinterpret that. I have been feeling lonely and unimportant after some hardships, breakup, lots of work, study and many more when they all come to my face at the same time. Probably I am stressed out or burnout that makes me feel like that way. Nevertheless, I feel like I am such a useless person, where everyone starts to blame me for everything even the little mistakes I made. I feel so little and just wanna go away from it. Saying those words make me such a self pity person. As day by day, i feel myself just like a smaller and smaller person and feel like s**t somehow. People say you gotta love yourself and have fun all by yourself, but when it comes to everything not going well as expected and everyone starts blaming me for little things, I just…. any advices?