Beside you
Brings back the day that he asked me for an artistβs recommendation and i told him about keshi. He says that he also listens to keshi and his fav track is besides you. I secretly felt happy because it was my favorite song.
After I got disappointed for many times until I decided to give up without any caring about him. He suddenly came to me and said "He has the same feel as me". It was a great moment for me after failing the confessions for many times. Start from that day, I can considered it as our first step being in relationships so in any special occasions like Valentine or Birthday or something, he is always in my first checklist. Normally, I am not kinda sweet girlfriend as the other girls but for sure all the things that I prepare for him, it comes from all of my efforts and from the bottom of my heart. From month to month, I feel like I am the only one who try to put effort in our relationship while he has no any action. And I start asking myself "Does he really love me? Does he really consider me as his girlfriend? If so, why don't he keep texting me? Does he want me to text him first as I used to be? Do I have to do this forever?" All the questions keep appearing in my brain. I am so tired with this relationship recently. I don't change my mind on him, I just can't put more effort to push myself to make this relationship go smoothly while I feel I am the only one who try my best to make this happen. π₯Ίπ₯Ίπ₯Ί I can't find any solution instead of getting upset and thinking a lot at night alone. Miracle, please help turning him into another person of my dream π₯Ίπ₯Ίπ₯Ί I really want our relationship to work well.
Brings back the day that he asked me for an artistβs recommendation and i told him about keshi. He says that he also listens to keshi and his fav track is besides you. I secretly felt happy because it was my favorite song.
I canβt do anything right. He always pops in my mind and I canβt stop thinking about him.
I donβt like you I just donβt want you to be in relationship.
Kal ke trov knea ving ? #thy #leak
i love you but the fear of not being good enough is keeping me from staying by your side. i wish i didnβt have the insecurities that i do, i wish i felt more confident, i wish i didnβt have to be afraid everyday about being less than perfect, i wish i wasnβt out of your league.
How are you doing ? I hope you are doing fine, but I know for sure youβre not. Stop texting you doesnβt mean I stop Loving you. Itβs just because I still care for you. I still cant get used to living without you since youβve left. However, I am dying inside to see you are suffering from your own thoughts and my annoying texts asking for you to be back. I dont want to see you in pain. You are too valuable to me. I Love you and I still do. I will always be the one who is rooting for your well-being and success. I MISS YOU EVERYDAY and will always be here waiting for you, my dearest PetPet. Iβm still waiting for the miracle to happen. PLEASE TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF ........
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Dope I am a kind of person that would build the walls instead of the bridge because I used to experience some trauma events in the past. [newLine*] [newLine*] They used to call me β sensitive, dramatic, self victimized, stupid, etc.β And here I am, being a cold hearted person ever in my life. I donβt like the version of todayβs me yet, I am still glad that it kinda makes me stronger and be more careful around my surroundings. Running away from my own feelings is one of my coping mechanisms since it is the best way to do so when it comes to expressing emotions. I wanted to open up and have the healthiest relationship with others but the dark inner part of me is still keep telling me that they will judge me in every possible way that they could also the people that I expect then to be will be leave me eventually anyway so instead of being my real self, I just show them what they wanted to see from me.[newLine*] [newLine*] Losing the ones that I love is also a tragic cause for my mental health too. My mom passed away since I was 6 years old and I hadnβt had the mother-daughter moments yet and it really broke my heart βtil nowadays. So instead of crying, I usually hide my true emotions and keep moving forward when I was still not healed from what broke me in the past. I used to held grudges, always get jealous when they got what I wanted, they have the best relationship with their families, they have a strong self confidence and many more. Very toxic person I could possibly find. [newLine*] [newLine*] But here I am, after all what I have been through both mentally and physically. A cold hearted b*tch also I am still keep finding out who I really am and what is my purpose of life. I still feel guilty when I hurt the ones that love me so, but nothing is permanent anyway so Iβll live the best of my life instead of pleasing other people. [newLine*] [newLine*]From, thyka. β‘οΈ