How are you doing ? I hope you are doing fine, but I know for sure you’re not. Stop texting you doesn’t mean I stop Loving you. It’s just because I still care for you. I still cant get used to living without you since you’ve left. However, I am dying inside to see you are suffering from your own thoughts and my annoying texts asking for you to be back. I dont want to see you in pain. You are too valuable to me. I Love you and I still do. I will always be the one who is rooting for your well-being and success. I MISS YOU EVERYDAY and will always be here waiting for you, my dearest PetPet. I’m still waiting for the miracle to happen. PLEASE TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF ........
''I got my hopes up.'' He whispered. ''About what?'' She asked. ''About you actually loving me back." ''I tried to show you I loved you and you wouldn’t let me which is fine.'' ''But you know the worst feeling is when you find out you didn't mean as much to someone as you thought you did and you look so stupid for caring too much." "I'm sorry.'' She said.
I am the owner of #KJ0002. Time sure flies, we no longer text even though he knew I always wait for his texts and notifications. Even after he unblock me, he is not following back my ig and is no longer a friend in FB as well. But whenever I miss him and I post a story, he was always my first viewer to view it. Not until he decided to post another video @ his TikTok which is a very scary place that everything started between us. My tears just fall like an idiot with the little hope "Do I ever cross your mind when you see that video of yours"? It just hits me so hard because every movement everything that happens is still fresh in my mind, his voice still echoing in my ears, his smell still sticking to my nose, his kiss still warming my lips, our adultery stuff which I gave him out of my pure love for him still crawling back to my brain and it's torturing my every breathes. He is living his best life right now, while I am suffering from tears every single second because of him. Fools will eventually die from its stupidity? He once promised me to not let my tears drop because of him, one of my best friends also reminded me about the red flags since day 1 but I refuse to do so and mess with him. Up until this moment, the very first time that he's not viewing my story yet asking him whether Do I cross his mind or not at least once when he posts that place which has taken a huge place in my heart. I even get more clowning myself by commenting on that TikTok's video of him "what a nice view" and he just replied immediately, I think I knew now maybe my ig dm with him finally went rock bottom since he's stick to his phone 24/7. I am now waiting for him on my birthday which we suppose to meet again but somehow I made him mad at me and I don't know what is going to happen on my birthday, whether he shows up or not? I am still waiting, Little does he know my tears are now competing to drop without any hesitation. I am dying from time to time, I am living to his "air promises" I look back at our chat in the good old days that he told me to stick to 3 meals a day, stay hydrated, stay positive, and stay calm. I really want to turn back time to that night the 2nd sleepover with him. I left many unspoken words that I want to say in front of him. Seems like now I have no longer chance to meet him now. I can say now I have officially become a slave of him for him. I no longer can control my emotion as well as my body which I gave him all without anything left. He feels like home to me, now that he is gone? What can I do? I can only pray to god, trying my best to wait for him which is impossible but it is out of my control that's the only thing I could do to calm my mind. What should I do right now? The more I try to erase every moment I have with him, the more it is haunting me. How many tears must I shed, how many times must I cry? How many tears must I use for him to take pity on me? I am fighting my worst battle with myself right now. I told myself to be happy because my birthday is coming up in just a week. I have never broken someone's heart since I was born, why now am getting this treatment from someone I loved wholeheartedly? I felt bad for 3 people that I kept repeating find good points in him and kept on venting to them about the same cycle. Thanks to them that at least they listen to my whole story which I still can't forgive myself for the mess I created. I hope I can smile for my birthday this year, I am getting old but seems like I'm still childish when it's come to him. I am still hoping he remembers that this birthday boy is in a week, even it is not impossible but I am still waiting for the impossible to happen. Sorry for my broken English.
Things have been tough recently, or all these times if I had to say. About 6 six years ago, I'd never imagined us all to be able to share so plenty of memories like we did several years back, and even after everything that has happened, I'd never take them back. It was a pleasure and honor to be able to live within memories we created. Things were great, we were such a family and I knew back then that there was nothing that was gonna break us all. We did almost everything that all young dumb kids did ... my best memories are always the one we did in the class, during our trips to wherever we've been, the party we held as broke teenagers .... we drank till some of us passed out with the feeling of youngsters like us got to taste the alcohol. I can remember the jungle juice we together made. It might sound strange for some other particular groups that we usually bash and tease each other almost everytime we can and it was so fun and unforgettable. That's how our friendship and bond grew tighter. As days went by, after we parted ways due to graduation, many of us separated and distanced. I still missed them a lot back then and I still do now even though they don't I guess. I never knew things were growing in bad sense during our time and I really don't. I don't act innocent now that I might have hurt you with our teasing games. Only years after that I realized how dreadful I am for you all and that you never spoke a word with me, you rather gather a group of you(s) to talk about how you all hated me now and then. We all played that way, you teased me and I teased you, everybody teased everybody. I thought that way was the thing for our group, but I thought alone. Many of you come together to resent me and disown me like a street dog. However, I just want to tell you all that you are all still my friends and I never regretted building this friendship from the ground for all these years even though we are no longer are friends, no longer talk. I just hope you have a good life and good people around you, especially away from people like me that you resent so much. I've always thought I was a pretty good friend and the one who cherished everything in friendship, and sorry that my actions offended you in any way. I apologise, sincerely. Most of all, I just want to say thank you for all those memories that always remind me of my great highschool time and will always live in my memory and heart. I miss you all. P.S Sorry and thank you!
Incapable to keep you by my side but just to let you know that my heart was once yours . - To Sok Heang
Brings back the day that he asked me for an artist’s recommendation and i told him about keshi. He says that he also listens to keshi and his fav track is besides you. I secretly felt happy because it was my favorite song.
I know we both are girls but I don’t know why I fall in love with you and always fell harder every time I see your smile your laugh . Thinking about it’s again I know it’s only me the one who fell and even harder.
Why can’t I hate the one who hurt and broke my heart into pieces? I can’t even erase your name from my head. I am fu*king hurt when I hear your name. Stupid me hoping to start over again with you.
I met a girl, let's called her M, we date for almost 2 years but we are not in a relationship. We took like 2 or 3 breaks during the time that we talk. And we decided to broke up 2 weeks before we hit 2 years, but we still talk as a friend because before that we aren't even in a committed relationship too. M has a lot of friends even a lot of people want her too because she's a good girl, she's friendly, and she's gorgeous. And I know there's no chance of getting back together because she's talking to a guy that made me completely insecure, they were very close since before we broke up. He's close to her than I am now. I want to meet her but she always denies and she always goes out with that dude and her friends ship her with him too. And now I am seeing another girl which happens to be one of her friends too but they're not that close, So now what should I do should I stay away from her friends or should I or ask her out?? What are the consequences of dating her? what could happen next? what should I do? We went to the same Uni