Always

we ended just like that. you know, when i look back on the memories we have, both the good and bad, i just realized it was the most vibrant and most alive i’ve ever felt. You said i’m a mature girl. You’d believe that i would feel nothing right now, that I’d be moving on with life. And I too, think that i would be fine for now. Maybe i’d cry later, for days on end. I know that i’ll break down every night, reliving you in my head. I would try so hard not cry when I see you. Then when i look back at this later, I’d break down all over again. I love you a lot, always will. I guess this is it. Our story ends here. I’ll wish you the happiest in life, always. L

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Situationship

I know we probably won’t talk anymore but I want you to know that I’ve a lots of things to tell you but I always left it unsaid because every times I wanted to tell you, you would act like i annoyed you. Every times we talks , there’s always been things left unsaid; day by day,I realized that we’ve lost interest in each other and the things I’ve left unsaid doesn’t matters much. I know I probably don’t cross your mind anymore but I hope someday, you see something that reminds you of me and our memories that we’ve shared. I can’t bear the feelings that you gets irritated with me and I don’t even know what did I do wrong. Lastly, no matter how things between us ends, thanks for being there once.🫂

IT'S A MATCH!

IT'S A MATCH! Things escalated and we were now getting to know each other on our personal socials. I am a person who wasn't really looking forward to other people's messages before. With her, things were different.. She would often send me posts related to cute things that couple do. It was so cute, I swear. I was really looking forward to our first date together. At other times, she would send me posts about insecurity, loneliness.. etc She mentioned she was insecure and have a fear of her loved ones leaving her. It makes me want to care for her, shelter her.. It felt like I began to really fall for her, as I was really excited whenever we talk or text. A few weeks has passed since our first encounter, her replies started to take a longer time than usual. I was curious as she said she is done with Tinder in one of our calls before. So I went back on the app with an anonymous profile this time.. and to my surprise, I managed to match with her again. There she is, with her cute，flirty replies.. I felt a little jealous.. It felt like we had chemistry, but you started to drift slowly apart from me. Things were really going south for us. I questioned your late responses and you replied with having no time for a relationship. I guess, that's a fair answer. All the best from me, kon kmeng. #K

Rejection 101

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ហេតុអ្វី?

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Empty Bin

I think I’ve built a very convenient Persona for myself to get by this world. Everywhere I go, Every group of people, or everyone that I met, I know what they see me but not in me, they find I’m a very polite, friendly, good manner person. I know this, because that is all my persona shows them. But their instincts would tell them to be care to approach me with their good intentions, maybe it’s a friendship or love. Their instincts would tell them, I’m not just they see, there are something more beneath that. And it’s right, I’m hiding myself under this forged amour because I can’t be who I actually want to be. How I was treat from a very young age had traumatized me to be myself. I’ve lived my life forged with lies that I tell myself, that now it makes me terrified to unfold the truth. Now at the end of everyday, I feel so empty, like an empty void that can’t never be filled. I named this “empty bin”, because that’s just how I am, loud but empty. I’m tired of this life. Even though I know life is pain and suffering, but how I still couldn’t get used to if? And it’s even more tragic if you live a life with full of self-deception. lately, all I could think of is, how to die and leave no pain to everyone around me. “How should this empty bin should leave?…”

Attracted to Introvert is a karma

Fall in love with introverts is hard. Even you may know where they study or work, you probably can’t see them often. Even you may know their real name, they probably use fake name on social media. You can try stalking their friends or family members’ accounts but it doesn’t guarantee a success. They may not even have social media at all, or probably use a fake ones that not even their circle can know. They basically live in a cave and are probably carving art on the wall right now. Therefore, if you find any attractive introverts outside, don’t wait to get home and search for them on the internet. You may not see them touching grass for another months. So you should take a risk, approach them and don’t let the chance slips away (like me). If you’re lucky, they may let you hear their voices or more…adopt them. So, be brave guys, be brave but don’t be pushy (‘cause I’ve been there and it didn’t work). 🥴🥴🥴

Im still in love with her

since we broke up, i have always missed her no matter whose im with. i used to be so happy that we broke up but i guess not anymore when i see her with someone new, we have been broken up for more than 2 years but i still can't forget her. Can somebody tell me what's wrong with me ?

We're just friends...So why lie?

I know you read my messages from your notification. I know that when you claim you were busy, you were actually on your phone scrolling and chatting with your friends in a cafe. When you said you were busy, I know you were playing games or watching a movie. You messaging me is a choice and I messaging you is a duty. You take me for a granted...a friend whom you could rely on in terms of school work. I am that friend whom you could use whenever you feel like you need a female company. I am the friend who is there for you to practice your flirting skills. I am the friend who, after you finish scrolling up and down your newsfeed 5 times, will open the message and decide whether or not u should message back. I am the friend who recieves the message "huh” after 10 hours of trying to ask for help saying "im in pain, there is no one here.” So do not text me five days later that you forgot to check your phone even though I saw you share memes 3 days ago. Do not text an apology and ask about how i felt because i went through hell and you choose to ignore it. Do not look at me with those eyes as if I am the only girl in the world and that no one else matters because clearly I can be on my deathbed right now and you will still decide to check up on me "tomorrow”. Do not share posts about how heartbroken you are when you see me flirt with someone who actually cares about me and do not update me on your activities like we are something when we arent. We're just friends so stop acting like we're lovers and you're the boyfriend giving excuses for ignoring his girlfriend. We're just friends and you are already breaking me apart, taking me for granted, and forcing me up a rollercoaster ride of confusion and pain....imagine how it will be if you are more than a friend.