We're just friends...So why lie?

I know you read my messages from your notification. I know that when you claim you were busy, you were actually on your phone scrolling and chatting with your friends in a cafe. When you said you were busy, I know you were playing games or watching a movie. You messaging me is a choice and I messaging you is a duty. You take me for a granted...a friend whom you could rely on in terms of school work. I am that friend whom you could use whenever you feel like you need a female company. I am the friend who is there for you to practice your flirting skills. I am the friend who, after you finish scrolling up and down your newsfeed 5 times, will open the message and decide whether or not u should message back. I am the friend who recieves the message "huh” after 10 hours of trying to ask for help saying "im in pain, there is no one here.” So do not text me five days later that you forgot to check your phone even though I saw you share memes 3 days ago. Do not text an apology and ask about how i felt because i went through hell and you choose to ignore it. Do not look at me with those eyes as if I am the only girl in the world and that no one else matters because clearly I can be on my deathbed right now and you will still decide to check up on me "tomorrow”. Do not share posts about how heartbroken you are when you see me flirt with someone who actually cares about me and do not update me on your activities like we are something when we arent. We're just friends so stop acting like we're lovers and you're the boyfriend giving excuses for ignoring his girlfriend. We're just friends and you are already breaking me apart, taking me for granted, and forcing me up a rollercoaster ride of confusion and pain....imagine how it will be if you are more than a friend.

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A bad friend

This is not a story but it is a apology letter to my friend. I am sorry for being a bad friend. I am sorry that for these past days, I’ve been ignoring you. It is not your fault but it is mine. The reason is because I am mad of myself. I am mad because I am such a horrible friend for getting jealous of you. I envy everything about you; however, this envy turns into jealousy. Your studies are going very great, you got a real job and you manage to make lots of friend. While me on the other hand, my studies is going down, I don’t even have a real job and I barely make any friends. You are such a great friend to me. I am very happy seeing you on your way to your success, but I couldn’t help to compare your success with my failure. I sincerely apologize to you my friend. It was wrong of me to get jealous. I won’t ask you for your forgiveness. Please continue on your great journey to success my dear friend.

Ignore green flag but get lost with red flag

I hate myself that I still see red flag whom I put everything into it but it doesn’t seem any development. But I do ignore green flag whom always ask me about my 3 meals per days, the first one that come to his mind after he woke up and sent me good morning every morning and good night text before he go to sleep, to ask how my day was, how tiring am I after work, did I get home safe, can he have this or this, replies to my every freaking stories…..etc. But I actually ignored him just for the red flag whom I only get his texts when he’s drunk or h-rny because we both do! Also I’m always waiting his text, his replies, and sometime I heard the things that I shouldn’t have to hear it. But I do. Is there anyone who relate to this? And did u overcome it? If yes, how? And if not, hope we’d overcome it sooner.

365 days of your absence.

I’m the owner of #KJ0010 To my best friend who passed away way too young, I have a thing to tell you that I’ll finished my M.S next year, the dream we once had. I delicate all my achievements to you. Thank you for being in my life for the 6 years you were. Thank you for loving me unconditionally. For pushing me. It's true what they say… the good die young. For what? Nobody will ever know the answer to that. Your last text were “ I’ll be the the star, the ones that brighter than the rest”. That day forever changed my life. I did not know that was going to be the last time I would talk to you. I wish I could've stopped this from happening. I keep going through everything in my head trying to think of ways I could've prevented this from happening, but I know I couldn't have. I wish I had the superpower to turn back time. I may carry guilt for the reason you aren’t here. You were, and still are, so loved by many. Sethika, Even though you are not here anymore, you will always be in my heart. You were such a special person. I wish you could see all the things i saw in you. You’ll be forever young and beautiful; P.S I don’t end this story with a period, but a semicolon instead, in hopes that one day we may reunite and our adventures together can start again. In another life, I would be your sister and I’ll be the older ones;

Skinny Bullet.

It's hard to find someone with the same energy, And When I did I cant have it. I know I Aint best or maybe not the one u looking for but my love be real AF and I be trying.

Until then

Hey. How have you been? I hope you are doing well. Ever since the day you returned my book and we stopped talking, on some days when I’m alone by myself, I could feel a sense of emptiness within my soul because I lost a great friend. An amazing life partner. Someone who genuinely tried to be there for me. Someone who tried to get to know me, understand me, and never judged. Someone who used to make silly jokes and laughed hysterically with me. Now whenever I go, I keep looking for you. Whenever I see the car you drive, it reminds me of you. Whenever I drive past the places we used to go, it gives me a hint of warmth and bittersweet memories. Right now I’m sitting at one of our favorite places by myself, reminiscing about us back in the days. I don’t know why I’m doing this. I guess it’s because I can only miss you from afar. Maybe its because both of us deserve closure before everything ended, but we never got one. Maybe it’s because I regret making hasty decisions of cutting you off and ignoring your existence. As much as I want to send you a text, I could never get myself to do it. I guess it’s too late and I shouldn’t ruin your efforts of moving on from me. Nevertheless, I wish you all the best in life and I hope you accomplish everything you want to do. Maybe one day, we’ll get to meet again and talk it out. Until then, I will still long for your presence. Until then, please continue to be a beautiful soul that you’ve always been.

"Our Beloved Summer" vs. Our Story

I never relate to anything as much as this drama. It's literally the story of us except they could meet again after 5 years while we couldn't even after more than 5 years.Ung's character is pretty much similar to yours and he reminds me so much of you. It pains me to see him suffered from the breakup and how it changed his life as I realize you had suffered this much too after I coldly left you. Watching Ung feels as if I'm watching you and it hits me hard. I wonder if you're doing better now; and whether or not you still overthink and having trouble sleeping.I wonder if you hate me as much that you could have thrown salt and sprayed water at me if we met. Even if our path will never be crossed again, I'll still be happy for your happiness. I hope you never doubt yourself again, just live well and be happy.

Lack of love....

Where should i start with? From which part should i start telling? Hi! I am a 19 years old girl who still get beating by a dad if i ever stand up for myself, asking for my right. I am an 19 years old girl who still to all the scolding, mocking, cursing even tho i earn my own money for 3ys already. I never feel the love that a parents should be giving to their child. They only end up make me feel insecure about myself, losing confident from time to time and end up locking myself for 1 years 6months in the house. Each time i got hit by my dad my mom stood aside watching and sometime she act like nothing happen. She never teach me to fight back she only told me to keep shut and let my dad hit me and same go to my brother when he get hit by my dad. Dad often told me he love me that why he yelling and do violence on me. He never compete his role as he dad. He never even know what i am doing each day never even appreciate my success nor being happy with my highest score, rate in any competition and class..... What can i say? Ik i'm strong and smart. But i am a girl who lack of love. Tbh i sometime feeling to proud of myself bc looking to everything i did. There never a help from my parents.

Wish I could uncrush u

Dear crush, ik ure in love with somebody who ain’t me, yet I hope u’ll never be lonely like u always told me n realize this world as a beautiful place. I hope she’ll take good care of u n I wish u live in this love life ever after. My happiness is seeing u happy. Love u my dearest crush:) #m