The confession
I will wait for you until you’re finally ready for a relationship again, but don’t make me wait for too long.
Let's me explain it into an easy example: How heavy a glass of water? 12oz? 15oz? 300g? The absolute weigh of the glass doesn't matter... it depend on how long you hold on to it. If you hold for a minute, nothing happens. If you hold for an hour, your arm will begin to ache. If you hold it ALL DAY LONG, your arm will feel NUMB and PARALYZED. Well, the weigh of the glass hasn't changed, but the longer you hold on to it, the HEAVIER it becomes. The STRESSES and the WORRIES of my life are like this glass of water... First, I thinking about them for a little while there's no problem. If I keep think about it for a little bit longer... it BEGINS to hurt! Then I think about them ALL DAY LONG and I've feel PARALYZED incapable of doing anything! It's because I believed in it, that why I came this far. I'm trying, I'm trying, until I have tried~ SO, I decided to PUT THE GLASS DOWN. \U0001F951
I will wait for you until you’re finally ready for a relationship again, but don’t make me wait for too long.
Warmest congratulations on your graduation and best wishes for your next life chapter. I've thought of things I could do for your day, but then I realized it will only cause you more trouble. I don't want to bother you again. It's just sad that I wont be there with you on any days anymore. Take good care of yourself, eat your meals, and stop drinking too much coffee and alcohol. Stop doubting yourself over things, you should know how much I'm proud of you. I know you will be doing great without me, you always do, and I'm happy for you, I mean it.
My life has been the whole mess until I met you. I’m so happy that I’m having you to stop me from giving up on my life. I was happy to continue my goal and pursue my higher degree. Then you suddenly left me hanging there while you already knew you’re the only person I go to whenever I have problems. You start talking to someone else while I can’t move on from you. I start to be unproductive at work. I lost my motivation to study. I no longer have any appetite. I mess up my sleeping schedule again. I start taking more and more medicine. I can’t do anything right. I can’t get my mind right on the track. I can no longer focus while riding or driving. I’m completely losing myself cuz I’ve been giving all myself to you and my feeling is depending on you. My life become miserable again. Whenever everyone ask what happened, I can’t answer, I can’t tell them what happened to me. Just mentioning I’m stressing out abt my work, while in fact I still want you back even though I know you don’t want to and already having someone new.
We knew each other since 2017. We both living in separate way but we know each other well. But in 2021 we talk a lot more than unusual. We about about our day our person we like then until we both feeling something to each other. I don’t think I should confess her.
Let me tell you a story of how a rejection has given a really great plan for business. On Oct 31st, I confessed to my Leo crush using a tik tok video which somehow made him guilty of trying to come up with a rejection. Actually no I didn’t try to confess. I was just guilt tripping him cuz cmon I’ve been saying I liked him for several times. Later that night, we called and talked about it. I told him that I actually lost feelings long ago and what I did was just guilt tripping you for rejecting me duhh. Later later that night, a brilliant plan came to mind since you know I will be doing my business plan for final and stuff. Guess what came to my mind!!!!! A Dating App 😭😭 Not your typical dating app like Tinder. Trust me it’s good 🥳😉 Lady and Gentlemen, let me introduce you to Syncnetic. A dating app that allows you to find your compatible partner through your personality trait and your zodiac sign. Beside these, you get to rent-a-partner 🌚 I found rent-a-partner really trendy in China and Japan. So why not Cambodia Lahhhhhh 😂😂 Go Get Syncnetic now!!!! Syncnetic. “Together like magnet” 😉 And that is how rejection helps me come up with stupid sh*t 🌚🌚🌚🌚
I have been living on a fence between being normal, socially constructed, like most of everyone else, and being true to my cognitive self. To set up the premise, I am currently working as a software developer. I've been coding just so I know how to make games but that is still easier said than done. Being torn between work for my family and walking for my own can sometimes be discouraging. Is it lunacy to chase a near impossible spectrum of goals given where we are living? and leave behind our own flesh and blood even though just for a brief period of time compared to the whole life span in which we humans can live? The idea of knowing your own value is so vaguely destructive due to never being taught before how to measure that aspect of our own internal value, which spawn ignorance and esteem issues. "Pick the one you love", they said. The idealistic entity in which all of my hopes and expectations combined has nothing more but shattered due to the chaotic nature of nature itself. I fear the unknown, the dread of not knowing what to come next. The dread of nothing matters. I can only work towards it but how it ends will frighten me nonetheless.
First of all I’d like to say that it’s been long time that we don’t talk to each other but I still can’t get you out of my mind . I met a lot of people but nobody feels like you . I want to move on and forget you but it doesn’t work . I knew we just friends but I feel so safe when I’m with you . I crush on him almost 3years but never confess. He always treats me like he have feeling for me . since I knew that I like him more than friend Im just trying to distance myself because I know I can’t lose you .Sadly I’ve made all the wrong decision. From now on I still wanna be with you but I know it won’t work . So, I want you to be happy that’s it .
“The World IS Just Awesome” sentence on his t shirt