It is really hard to let go of you oun. I know that you are facing a mental problems and yeah we broke up months ago due to my ex breaking both of us up...I just want you to know that I won't be giving up on you and hoping one day you shall return to me. Please don't believe nor falling for those horrible things she said. Remembering those hard time we've been together....It really hits me most of the time because of all those struggling time I've been facing there will always be you whom is consulting me and even calm me down. I Hope You Are Coming Back Soon. I promised you that one day we will be holding each other hands in front of our parents. Moonlight ;))
This isn't really a confession about anything, but more like an announcement. I don't know if I will be able to continue this thing we called living any longer. I guess it like I'm running away but I don't think I can keep doing this so when I hit my 20th birthday, I think I'm going to kill myself. I think it gonna be the right thing to do because I'm pretty worthless and my life meant nothing so yea. Cheer to the next 2 months of my life.
So we both end up about 4years ago because you said you didn’t love me but I still remember how we talk to each other play game together share my story to you every day. And I never see you for long time ago and today we met again we talk again and I kinda feel like I still like you but not like how I used to love you more than myself before.
Now, I understand what is mean BFF. Since from 2019-2021, I had 2 friends ( Girls ) as my BFF . I love them as the persons that I can share every story with them and trust them that they not gonna tell to other peoples. Back to 2019-2021 , we are really close to each other. We went out to eat something, we call on phone tigger , talk about our problem , listen to each other . It seem like we are really Love each other. You know I put two of them as my beloved one . I always think them first . I want to make their birthday special. And I thought, they will love me as I love them. Because my action never change for someone that I love and call them BFF . BUT since 2022 , both of them are far away from me . We are not close friends as before . I don’t know why , why they do that action to me back . I really sad , mad , cry and hurt because of their action. I really unexpected 🙂. + For Person A : From 2019-2021, all the time I chatted to her, she always replayed me on time or late just around 1h -2h -3h or more than 4-5h . But since from 2022 when I chatted to her , she replied me in 1-2 days . Sometimes in 20h . Sometimes in 10h . She so changed. All the time I asked her to go out with me eat something. She always busy. First I thought that , maybe right now she are more busy with her study in university. But her action keep doing again and hsuan until today . I thought that she is my BFF . But right no . Because she never asked or chatted to me go to eat out . But she can go with other friends. Yessss , she have new friends. So their New fri is important than me so far . I chatted to her ask her to go out 20 times . She never chatted to me and me to go out even 1 times . I am the one who chat to her , because I want to keep in touch and our relationship friend forever. But her action it seem like she so cool that everyone like her , be good with her and always get good luck and gift from other people . And right now when end conversations or though that chat is not important. They just read my notifications messenger and not seen my chat till I chatted to them again . Your action so Perfect my friend. + For Person B : she also the same as person A . Since 2022 , she never read all my chat and seen my chat . But she can post story and share news or status on FB . But she couldn’t reply my chat or seen my chat since our conversation is not really end . I don’t that she totally forgot or she totally busy so much . But at least you have a Icon on app that show you which your chat you haven’t seen . I don’t know what she think who am I . Her action so me that I am not important friend anymore, because she have many friends that care and stay with her all the times . I am her BFF nearly 7-8 year but she never post a story with me or tag me . Sometimes she never mention from me when I tags her . But she can post story with her new fri in university. She can mention her friend when they tag her . But she never did that with me . So This is how we call BFF ? . Dear to my both Friends. That for teach me how to understand words BFF and thank for let me show how good and bad you are with me . You didn’t respect with and see how I love both of you . I hope you enjoy with your new friends and have a good relationship till last . #thanktotheownerofpageknongjitforleTmesharemystoryThathurtmesomuchfrommyBFF😃. #thankbeforehandadmidforpostthis.
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Your story #KJ0010 changed my mind towards the term “ depressed ”. I felt like the you’re grieving and may even blame yourself for what happened. But I want you to know that it’s not your fault. You’re only human. You loved her the best way you knew how. You’re part of the legacy her left behind. The pain that you’re experiencing in her absence speaks volumes of how deeply you cherished her (and still do). And every moment you choose to live fully and love deeply, you bring a beautiful part of her back to life. Good luck on your path❤️ It's strange though, when I used to think of a "depressed" individual I stereotyped everyone into one mass of sad but i changed my mind after I knew the term “smiling depression” in other words is “high-functioning depression”. What I leaned from it is that the one who is always outgoing, most bubbly, smiling face, telling jokes and happy is the one who most likely to struggling with it. Outwardly, they do not seem to have a reason to be sad, they greet people with a smile, and may even be capable of carrying out pleasant conversations. However, on the inside, they feel down and hopeless, internally struggle day to day and sometimes, may even contemplate suic!d€. I highly recommend you listen to this podcast. https://youtu.be/N3-L7G5mImQ
It’s have been 9 months since we broke up. Yes, I can see you’re there with your new boyfriend and count by day day I thought you would have 4-5 new boys at the same time and this is really mean to you and that is really made you happier and relax than we were together. Im here without no one and yes i moved on since I put myself not into the dark , I grew myself a lot, I found a better me than the last 9 months. Im here to impress my feeling here again not because I miss you, btw I want to tell you that don’t try to stalk my profile or another connection to me which means you want to know where i am, who is with me , how far I walked without you… and yes something like that! Don’t worry, I still a dumb gay in your eye yes, honestly I never n ever stalk your timeline that just want to see what’s your relationship status or anything else about you. I just want you to know, I appreciated it and thanks for leaving me here , I’ll never remember you again for sure and don’t be regret of what you’ve done , it’s not a drama story and you’re not only one person that I can’t live without. If you’re reading this, you’ll know who i am. So my last one word to you , please stay healthy and don’t cheat with your new bf the same way you did to me! You should marry with a rich guy and make yourself worth than now!
Hey So….., how are u doing? I still miss you, miss how we talk, how you sing to me at night, how you asked me about everything. I just want to hit you up again. Shall you give me a chance? I know this message seem so toxic but I really miss you…
I'm not sure what will you and others valued on this name "important sister". Sometimes, I feel abit down but whatever happens, this name won't change. I'm still keep you as my important one, no one understand it but I'm really hope you can feel me trust my speech. I used to hope that one day we separate then we go our own path, but your voice always feel heard by my soul. Whatever happens, we changed but I won't forget what you advised me. Distancing doesn't mean the soul break. Love you, all the best to my important sisters ❤