I don't like my boyfriend.

Thanks for letting me getting this out as this is something I can't normally share with my friends. I have been together with my boyfriend for almost 3 years. He's someone I can share everything with and someone I'm comfortable to be with. We are on the same page in term of life goals and other stuff. I have no eyes for anyone else or think about having choices because my life already suffered me enough and I love him. I long for someone who share the same passion and energy as I do and someone I can RELY on. My boyfriend is great but there are certain times that I feel like if something were to happen in the future, I'll be the one who has to take control. Those certain times and little things make me doubt if I can stay with him because I don't want to be unsatisfied after I'm married, right? I don't want to leave him but personality traits aren't something I can change. It's started to build up inside me and it affects my action towards him too. I feel like shit. ដូចគ្រប់គ្នាតែងនិយាយថា​ការហើយអត់សប្បាយចិត្តព្រោះប្តីឬប្រពន្ធពឹងពាក់មិនបាន. I don't want that. At first, you love each other unconditionally and as times goes by, you realize that there many things to look for. Love doesn't solve the problem.

Feeling bottled up?

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