Why?

Befor we us are best friends, but everything has changed. When I rejected your love.I want everything as before, why not? Why run away from me? Why not talk to me.Why pretend not to know me? Why change school? Why? Why can not we be as good friends as before? 4 years of friendship is not less, why did you choose this way? I want to say thanks very much for everything,I hope you know. I’m Sorry Boy👦

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2025-08-14

Caption this..

Have you ever felt a wind of change? Have you ever noticed that one moment when you are all-in to do something for that someone? Have you ever thought of the one that changed you? I have been asking myself the same questions overtime. I always asked myself why; why did I have to change my own characteristics just to get along with someone else? And the only answer I could think of is “she is the one”. She is the one who taught me patience, the one whom I pledge my loyalty to, and the one whom I care for the most. I recalled that moment when one of my closest circle ask me: “… do you have someone in your eyes?”, and I responded “Oh yes! Her… the one from several years ago.” That response sent shockwave to the rest of my circle. They immediately questioned me of the progress I made. My answer disappointed them a lot. “It is a long story,” I said. Why haven’t I move on? The only reason I haven’t move on is that I could not find someone else who possess those traits of hers. It is true that I am a flirtatious young adult who fond of girls, especially those in my age or older, but when it comes to the real one — the first lady — I would stick to that girl. Stupid, right? I realise and admit that I usually fell in love at first sight. A lightning storm that usually ended up in a mess. And it has been years now, and we never talked, we never engaged in a long conversation, although time gave us many good opportunities to start things up. At some point, I even think that she hates me… like… she hates me so much that when we see each others, our eyes avoid one another, trying to avoid any contact. Things went back to the ICE AGE, when coldness and ego took over our respective selves. Even our zodiac signs are completely opposite from each other. Maybe I was right to avoid her? Or maybe it was just a new beginning? Or maybe it was a hint to something mysterious? Who knows! So what did she do? She dragged me out of my old self, my arrogant self. I left my assertive way of life, the aggressive behaviour behind, and embraced change. By looking back at my own past, I saw my old self fallen in an endless pit of darkness. Thanks to her presence, I walked on this path. Oh… and she was also the one who indirectly encouraged everyone else to discover beyond the boundary. But that does not mean every one of my activity is done on her behalf. It is a big NO. I could say that she is a guardian angel, who is loved by many of her inner circle, respected by many others, and adored by someone like me. My message would be: Let’s find a good time to talk this out. We have lots of things to catch up to. Shan’t we? And even though, we grow apart our inner little children call out for one another. You are not alone.

2025-08-14

How to decide?

I told you to wait for me, it only 10 months and I will come back. But thing doesn't turn out as I planned and Im stuck with my life decision right now. So our relationship started when I moved to a country for my Master Degree. She is my junior in my faculty and we been dated for 1 year and half. She was the best thing that ever happened to me, she was everything I ever imagine in a girl. My friends told me that my life is like a k-drama series because I was never been that happy before. After almost a year of dating our relationship getting hard, you accused me as a cheater while I just did exactly what u asked me to do. You was telling me you want to get married and live a normal life like other girls and told me to start looking for someone else. My heart broke into pieces everytime I heard those words from you, I couldn't endure the pain somehow. So I was started talking to someone else while feeling really guilty to you. You caught me texting with someone else, guess what now u feel what I feel now? You asked for a break up but does not we already broke up? After a series of drama we made up ,thanks to Covid-19 for made up stuck in a house together. But the problem now I almost finished my study and I need to get back to my country. I told you I will continue my study, just wait for 10 months I will get back after I get a scholarship. I didn't understand my self y I have to grind so hard for a relationship that already broken. Even I know at the end you will not choose me, even I know u still keep texting other person. I still remember ur sobbing face when u send me off at airport, our last hug, our last meal at airport. Now 6 months had passed, I has moved to my country and it was very hard in the first few months when I was the only person who wanna keep this relationship. Even I used to get " I miss you" text from u a few times and It made me very happy but deep down I knew things changed and we ended. You told me to move on and be happy since you alr start dating someone. I don't know how to feel happy hearing this. After a severe heartache, I tell my self I wont go back to that place again and I wont let anyone hurt me again. Now I moved on, happy with my life, I able to imagine my life without u in it until I got an email telling me that I was offered a scholarship. It is a great news yes it a scholarship I prayed for before , it was a dream come true and it is a ticket for me to find you. But my head mess up, I can't decide should I accept or reject? Should I leave things I have built here and go back to suffer again? PhD is sound fancy but it also a very lonely journey and suffocation. Plus I want to build my life without u involve in it, I don't want to feel those pain again. But this time I will made a decision for me, a life decision without u involve in it... PS: We both are girls.

2025-08-14

Friendship

Hi, actually I don’t know where to start it such a long story and complex mind to describe it out. I confess here today just want to seek for the answer : “ AM I ACTUALLY A FAKE FRIEND HERE “ I’m a girl who has a circle of friends, but only 2 I count as the dearest to me since I can trust them. But there’s also another one friend who I luv as well it just that we had so many things that’s not compatible with each other and I don’t share her my secret. Let’s called her Angel. Even though I never tell her my secret but I swear I never want to hurt or dislike her in anyway. But the thing is that she counts me as her closest friend, she told me. But I don’t quite understand her and I feel bad for that as well. Why I don’t trust her?! Actually we know each other 14yrs already. She’s that type of person who talked about how she feel mad and upset about a person and within a minute she see them she smile and wave Hi as nothing happened. And yes, as the listener I feel guilt. And that’s one of the things I’m scare to trust her. Btw Angel is also such a sweet person tho, she always made gift to our classmates. But the things is she’s an over thinker and always upset. She upset because I hang out with one of my friends without her. But actually she always hang out with her friends as well and I never say anything. She’s also that type of person who would say “ I’m not a talker, I’m a thinker” but every time she always share about sad stuff and friends things with such a caption that made me think she talked about me or other friends by writing the caption with “ They this They that” ( I don’t just pick the shoes and wear it as Cinderella here don’t get me wrong she just throw it towards me) I myself never like to put myself in such a complicating situation. But she just share another post with the caption as if she always happy for me and I never happy for her. As if I’m a fake friend here. And I cmt on her post like the response is just as “ I know u talked abt me “ and u guess what after the beef at the cmt she text me and ask me to hang out with her like nothing happened. That’s all, actually I feel like I’m also in the wrong here myself. It would be such a pleasure if u guy can give me some advice

2025-08-14

Unforgettable

Well, we started off at a good term but i’ll just say we’re not mature enough to make this last longer. For all these months, i was genuinely happy as you can see I appreciated every moment with u because all the time we spent tgt I was happy. Remember one rainy night, that was our first time riding motorcycle under the rain i hugged you tight from behind “ it was one of the best feelin ever. I wish i can have this moment with you once last time but i guess my wish will never come true. Anyway thank you for the hoodie you gave with your scent on it promise i’ll keep it here forever ( it was my first time wore boyfriend hoodie as well ) I wish I could just learn how to unloved and deleted u out of my head the simplest manner. U’re my favorite person, but maybe favorite don't really mean to be last forever? I wish I could talk to you again the same way we did before, because I freakin damn miss you. Every single thing about you right now already causing me pain that I keep seeing you in my dreams, ur words, ur face and i still can feel ur touches. How could I move on? I wish I was once crossed ur mind and you miss me just as much as i did too. Im sorry it was my mistake and i just wanna let you know that Im happy that at least we made it here. Thank you for all the wonderful memories lover❤️ I love you so much.

2025-08-14

What if

What if you later realize that your boyfriend is not your type after dating for a while?

2025-08-14

Will we be something?

I have a crush on my senior, idk when was it that I start have that feeling. I like him a lot but I always hide my emotions sooo well, uhhmm I’m not quite sure tho abt this😂. I think we start to get pretty close lately that he share about his plan with me without telling anyone else and of course I’m always the supporter, he even help me with my health issue he tryna find the solution for me and he even helping me out a lot, like guiding me to his uni since I want to study there too. He encouraged me with so many things. But I’m still not sure if we both have a mutual feeling… I never expected much since he always a kind person he might have done the same things to everyone.

2025-08-14

Can you back?

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2025-08-14

A guy who always likes other girls’ posts

i bet there are lots of guys out there having this kind of attitude. I met a person who always click react to other girls’ most of her posts and shares whereby he never react on his girlfriend’s post or whatever. The thing is you never realized that this action disappointed me yet u feel like why can’t u react to those girls. Plus, you just say something without having intention of doing it such as, tell me who is she, who is the girl I react on, I will block her. So what? Saying out loud without action action or stop doing it means what to you? i don’t know whether u have or don’t have intention toward her but what i’m sure is if you don’t care then u won’t do any reaction to her. If you think having girlfriend and flirting around with some other girls is fun, then u don’t deserve to be a MAN. Manner Maketh Man