suicide is a solution?

i feel so desperate. everything around me makes me felt unloving and insecure. im begging for love rn. my family isn’t all sunshine and rainbows it’s feel like im living in hell. everyone around me shame me accused me for what i haven’t done. my dad said that he would just kill me then walk into jail cuz he’s disappointed for having a child like me. once my mother said just go die she’ll just be sad for a couple of weeks then she’ll be fine. its hard to take in and ik ppl may have gone through the same but its really hurtful. i also thought maybe i just live for one person and thats my gf but everyday i felt like i was begging her to love me i try try so much. i loved one person enough for them not to love me back. i failed as a son, as a boyfriend, as a person in overall. when will they realize or will they ever see my worth? should i commit suicide? help me im so trapped there’s more im just giving a glimpse of my suffering:>

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