What is this feeling

Can anyone tell me what is this feeling It been a long time since they broke the bond. We try to understand them and wish them all the best. However, seeing them with someone new, doing all the things that we should do together some how hurt. It like trauma, it hit right there in the heart, it got you tremble, feeling lost, all the hope we try to hold on are gone, almost down on the knee. I swear there is no hatred, there is no evil though to break them apart. It just feel like can’t stand seeing it, can’t accept it, bare to see it but Why it is someone else in that place? How could? Did we really do sth wrong? Were we never good enough for them? How could they just switch to do all the things with someone else while our heart still beat for them? Why do they treat us this way while our intention is only love and to be with them?

Feeling bottled up?

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Love and Trauma

"Why did we break up?" It has been exactly 49 days since the day you told me that you feel off and you cannot continue this. I've been questioning myself and there were a lot of question marks in my head. Back then to day one, you told me I was your everything and your life would be hell without me. I told you that my previous relationship gave me a lot of traumas and I was scared to start a new relationship because once I love you, I commit and put 100% feeling and effort into it. You promise and you were being vulnerable to me. I decided to trust you and love you wholeheartedly. Our relationship was so pure, lovely, cute, happy until the very last day. The day that another part of me collapse. The day that every promise is broken. The day that you gave up on me. How could we suddenly break up? You gave me the love that make me feel everything then suddenly it dropped to 0. It is sting no matter how much many times I am trying to apply the medicine. It's difficult to picture it without that person because we were having a dream together and I already pictured you everywhere with me. I can't help but think about you in the middle of the night. I can't help but fantasize about a time when everything was fine. Again, I am living in a trauma that haunt me every single day. A trauma that told me that I would never be enough for someone even I keep hearing you deserve better but deep inside me told me that "IF I AM ENOUGH, HE WOULD NOT GIVE UP ON ME." Thank you for giving me love that I always want to feel but never want to leave. It gave me pain, trauma, and fear but I am glad that we come across each other in this lifetime. We broke up but "Once upon the time, my heart was yours." I love you, a_y

New peace, new problem

At times, people mention how time heals, and I used to wonder how easily they could say that without understanding what I was going through. My problems felt small in the grand scheme of the universe, yet they were enormous in my miniature world. Despite this, I pressed on, with an inner longing to experience the beauty and terror of life. It's remarkable how unpredictable our futures can be. The me from last year would never have imagined the life I am having today. I've found peace within myself and with those around me, but as things improve, new problems arise to occupy my thoughts. I remind myself not to let these concerns disrupt my newfound peace, knowing that when I look back on my current self a year from now, these little details will likely be forgotten. So, yes, time does indeed have a healing effect even if it doesn’t look like it would help.

The mix signals

Hi! So we been talking for kind of long too, i guess. We click so well and the energy matches. I guess there are similarities between us, especially in term of our personalities that's why we get along so well. But i just don't know should i continue this catching feeling thing or just move on with life. One day, they would make me feel like they like me, they have feeling for me and the other days, they make it feel like I annoyed them.

Talking Stage

we're not officially in a relationship yet but it feels like a break up? we haven't met each other outside yet, but why i feel so attached? i try to draw us the line, and tell myself that we're hopeless and better off being friend; we won't work out but why i still pray that we could start over, and fix what we lacked of? i know you lost interested in me but you're the one who make me believed at first that you're the right one. you said you're not like them yet you still did. prolly, it's my fault that fall so hard, and expect so much. i try to ignore you, I stopped reply to your message not because I hate you or want to cut you off, but it's because you don't really care. you show no interest in talking with me at all. when it come to you, i'm still being squishy asf. and yes! the more i talk to you, the more i feel hurt. you seem fine because you feel nothing at all. it's hard right now, but if one day i will get over it just as you said. let's be friends again when that time come. from #K to #J

Doubtful

I am wondering why I am still single since everyone admires me that I am kind, sense of humor, and clever lol (promoting myself). girls I don't want sisters lol please consider me as a man +.= hi admin! if no one takes me, could you be my girlfriend? lol

My Beloved Stranger

Destiny has allowed me to meet a person who has taken a special place in my heart and has affected my life in some profound way. Being an introvert, it's so unusual of me to chat with other people. But for this person, I've tried. We chat for a month and I must admit, his company is way better than my solitude it doesn't exhaust me. Tgt, we share stories and updates about each other until late nights. There was no dull moment with him as he was so jolly and funny to talk with. He brings out the best of me as he make me smile and make me happy effortlessly. I must admit, he's the epitome of the man I've been praying for. But sadly, we separated ways and we decided to be stranger again. Everything that's good about us has just eventually ended. He has never shoot me a message anymore, and as to his reason, I still have no apparent clue. My life since then became pure dull and mundane. But up until this moment, two months has gone by, a part of me still longs for him;ther's a void in me that only he can fill: my heart still hopes that someday, he'd message me again. The memories that we had still made me smile even the littlest of things. And I'd love to have that kind of feeling once again; the excitement, the throbbing of my heart when receiving messages from him before. "IMY" if only you know, sadly I couldn't tell you this. letting you know that I've fallen once is enough. I'm just right here, waiting, and will always be. If you don't know how to come back, just send me a song. In God's perfect time, Hope we will meet again and start over again. #From P to P

Well?

B*tch, bye. But thanks for everything and the memories tgt but I hope I never see you again.

To the friend that I’ve lost #L

Funny isn’t it ? I thought were supposed to work on our problems. and stay friends forever? people say you’re toxic and such but i still defend and stay by your side . I’ve done bad things in the past but I’ve let it go and learned my mistake and I was hoping you’d do the same. I’d never knew you’d give up on us so easily. I’ve always put friendship above relationship cuz i know i can move on from guys i dated but not the friends that i’ve shared memories with. It’s okay na, I forgave you, live well and be happy na, I’ll be supporting you and cherished the friendship we had. Stay happy and healthy, I won’t be there to see it but i hope you achieved your dream<3