Long long time, I have been waiting you until now. We gonna meet soon.
U know what? I've just cried silently without a specific reason, sounds redicilous, right? Yeah! But it's too painful. I dunno why I usually cry like that, wanna sit alone in a dark place, can't control own self. I feel I'm so useless, I feel empty, feel so complicated!!! What do I want? who am I? Why am I here?
As an insecure gf and having trust issues, I have an undercover ig acc to stalk his ex. Just recently, she posted about her new bf in her story. Later that day, my bf posted some sad songs about ex and some sad memes, his chat becomes dry for quite a few days and he told me he wasn’t feeling good lately and need some times for himself. He ghosted me for a day now, I know he might be sad about other things or might going through a hard time, so I’ll just leave him some space. But as an overthinker, I feel like he hasn’t moved on from his ex and he’s probably processing his feeling from her being in a new relationship, but I don’t want to make a wrong assumption especially at the time like this. I’ll just pretend I don’t know anything… deep down it’s hurting me…
Just as close as a family she said... So us having something secretive behind the group is considered a betrayal. Him being uncomfortable talking about it and is still unsure about me, her pushing me to tell everyone as soon as possible, so we can discuss about it with the group because what me and him are doing is considered to be more than sinful. Following her, will lose me him. Following him, will lose me her. Leave it as it is and we will all lose each other. And me being in the middle of it, makes it easier for me to blame it all on myself when I can't even fully understand what it's turning into. I love them so much, I love everyone so much. But can I just have a bit more time, "Her"? And can you give us a chance to try it in a different way , "him"? I know I'm so "immature" to you guys but trust me a little, will you? Because I'm so close to end me for the sake of everyone.
Sometimes I questioned your mind. You’re in one healthy relationship, yet you can’t be loyal. How’s it that you can do this so easily? How would you expect me to react to your text with others, you replied their story with such enthusiasm, asking how they’re doing, what they’re doing? You kept on telling me how you don’t mess around with other. So what is this? Work related again? Or were you being friendly although you said you’re friends? I thought I was special. I’m so disappointed in you . #S
Am I being third wheel again? I ask myself. I still can’t move on and you’ve been in a healthy relationship. Why did you ask me to be your best friend after all these times? Why did I even agree with this? You said you love me and I’m the best person, ur soulmate but why did you break up with me and ask me to be your best friend instead? I know it’s been along time and why did you text and call me when you feel so down ( u told me because I am the only person who u feel comfort to)?? While you were in a relationship with someone else? I won’t deny it, I always love you and I feel so wrong. All my friends said how stupid I am and one day I will meet someone else who will hold my hand till the end of my life , I try to move on and believe that. I wish you could feel open with ur current gf tell her everything you’ve been through I’m sure she would understand you way better then me. To myself also I wish I can leave you behind and I don’t think we can be friends because I still have some feelings for you, trust me I will try my best for letting you go. Wish you the best ✨ To : mysoulmatewhoicanbewith
When the relationship was new and your partner alr said “if yerng ot trov knea kit Mex” instead of mean rerng ey should communicate and solve the problems. Saw many red flags since the start but I just went with the flow now it’s really hurtful. Shouldn’t have played with fire :)
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There have been countless times where I've made you feel all of those disgusting feelings knowing full well how much you loved me knowing how much I hated these but I couldn't bring myself to change so suddenly. So i gave up our connection even though I still loved you dearly. Maybe that's why it pained me to see you being all hurtful and anxious because of my thoughtless actions, the thought that only me matters in our relationship. I've pictured us in a family of many pets, pictured you being the best dad and the best husband a man could ever be. That at some point i was unable to picture my life without you. But gradually, I've realized my behaviors started to hurt you, my actions began to make you doubt my love for you, we kept misinterpreting and misunderstanding each other. I tried my best to be optimistic about the situation despite being the over emotional and dramatic person i am. I have thought that with love, we could overcome everything but i was naive. I forgot that love is just the topping to the already flourishing relationship. We couldn't take each other's words to heart, you have a complete different opinion and view and so do I. So how can we expect each of us to understand each other? I've resisted the urge to approach you multiple times already since we broke up, I've cried thinking about you, i just wanted to scream loudly so the whole world know i miss you. I've missed you but I'd rather pick your happiness over this. I'll still hold the belief that you'll find someone who can shoulder all the burdens you're carrying, always be the ear to listen to your thoughts, always have the heart to open to your everything. I'll pray for you. I didn't want to make this long, but it's already long. So I wanna close this with .... I love you. Sorry that your last person couldn't be me. I will forever cherish the memories we had. Please stay safe and healthy. From that girl who let you go away.