Ex-Lover 2018

It’s been so long. I don’t think you might see this, but at least I should say what I have kept in my mind so long here. Well, there’s sometimes when I looked back to the past and I saw us. I started to wonder what went wrong. Then I realized thing that we both were so young for thing that called “ Love “. I was loving you too much, but it was never enough just because I loved you. I just loved you without trying to understand you for once. I was craving for too much attention, I was over thinking everything without knowing what you’ve been thru. Everything was just too much for us. I was so young for this rls. We can called it “ toxic rls “ too. We tried to fix it and it never worked out. At least we tried, right. I guess we’re not meant to be. We hurted each other without knowing, because we were busy blaming one another. I resent myself for blaming you after breakup when it’s also my fault. We were so immature not knowing how to communicate clearly. At least you were a person I once loved, I only pray all the best for you. We are moving on with our life now, I just wanna tell you that thank you for all the good times and I learned from our relationship alot. I’m sorry that I was never good enough. I don’t regret loving you even abit. if we cross path again, I would love to see us become the best version of ourself. I’m happy to see you’re doing okay. To you : #S

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