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វាប្រហែលជាស្រមោលមួយដែលខ្ញុំពិបាកនឹងយកឈ្នះបំផុត។ ខ្ញុំធ្លាប់មានស្នេហាមួយដែលអ្នករាល់គ្នាមើលមកហាក់ដូចល្អឥតខ្ចោះ ប្រហែលគ្មានថ្ងៃបែកគ្នានោះឡើយ។ ពេលវេលា ៦ឆ្នាំហាក់កន្លងផុតទៅយ៉ាងលឿន សៀវភៅមួយនោះត្រូវបានបាត់ខ្លឹមសារត្រឹមវណ្ណ:គ្រួសារ។ ខ្ញុំជាកូនអ្នកមធ្យមដែលមិនដែលខ្វះព្រឹកល្ងាច ហើយក៏មិនដែលត្រូវខ្វាយខ្វល់ពីបញ្ហាហិរញ្ញវត្ថុ តែត្រូវបានគាត់ប្រាប់ថាគ្រួសារគាត់មិនពេញចិត្តខ្ញុំព្រោះខ្ញុំគ្មានផ្ទះ គ្មានលុយ គ្មានឡាន គ្មានមុខរបរ។ ខ្ញុំទទួលស្គាល់ថាការមិនពេញចិត្តនេះគឺត្រូវព្រោះអ្វីដែលខ្ញុំមានពេលនោះជារបស់គ្រួសារទាំងអស់ ខ្ញុំទើបតែចាប់ផ្តើមរៀនឆ្នាំទី២ប៉ុណ្ណោះ។ ខ្ញុំបានប្រែក្លាយជាមនុស្សម្នាក់ដែលងប់ងល់នឹងការរកស៊ីបំផុតដើម្បីអោយខ្លួនសមនឹងគេ។ តែខ្ញុំហាក់ដូចជាកាន់តែអស់សង្បឹមនឹងបន្តទៅទៀត ព្រោះអ្នកមានដែលគេរកសុទ្ធតែជាកូនអ្នកលក់ឡានធំៗនៅក្នុងស្រុក។ ក្រោយខ្ញុំមានអ្វីគ្រប់យ៉ាងទាំងមុខរបរនិងហិរញ្ញវត្ថុ ក៏សម្រេចមានទំនាក់ទំនងជាមួយនារីម្នាក់សាមញ្ញនិងល្អខ្លាំងសម្រាប់ខ្ញុំ ប៉ុន្តែសៀវភៅមួយនេះត្រូវបានបញ្ចប់ត្រឹមគ្រួសារម្តងទៀតព្រោះខ្ញុំអាយុប្អូនគាត់។ ក្រោយមកខ្ញុំបានជួបនារីម្នាក់ទៀតដែលល្អនិងសាកសមនឹងខ្ញុំ។ គាត់ជាមនុស្សម្នាក់ដែលធ្វើអោយខ្ញុំមានអារម្មណ៌ស្ងប់និងសុវត្ថិភាពពេលមានវត្តមានគាត់នៅជិត។ គាត់ជាបុគ្គលម្នាក់ដែលខ្ញុំចង់មើលថែនិងផ្តល់ភាពកក់ក្តៅដែលគាត់ត្រូវការ។ ខ្ញុំនឹងគាត់តបសារគ្នារាល់ថ្ងៃក្នុងនាមជាមិត្ត ខ្ញុំគិតថានាងបានដឹងពីចិត្តរបស់ខ្ញុំចំពោះនាង ប៉ុន្តែខ្ញុំនៅតែមិនអាចស្មានយល់ពីនាងបាន។ ត្រឹមខ្លាចមិនហ៊ានបោះជំហានទៅមុខព្រោះតែខ្លាចការបដិសេធម្តងទៀត ខ្ញុំបានព្យាយាមម្តងហើយម្តងទៀតប៉ុន្តែនៅតែមិនអាចដើរចេញពីភាពភ័យខ្លាចនៃស្រមោលខ្មៅ។ តើខ្ញុំគួរធ្វើបែបណាដើម្បីជំនះភាពភ័យខ្លាចមួយនេះ?

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Number 11 becomes my fav cos it’s the time I keep checking if you’re still awake like I am, if you are thinking of me like I am; it shows that I still care for you even before or after that 11 number, or maybe it’s just an excuse that I make to lie to myself that only when the short and long hand of the clock point to 11 is the time I think about you, when actually I’m thinking about you every hour which I can barely say the word hour cos every second seems so long let alone an hour, when actually I’m waiting for the time to arrive at 11 again so that I can lie to myself again that I only think of you at this 11:11. #lovefailed

Hi Mishi :3

I love you XD

Advices to all heartbroken people

One important thing to remember when experiencing heartbreak is that it is okay to feel sad and to grieve the loss of the relationship. It is important to take the time to process what has happened and to allow yourself to feel the emotions that come with it. It can also be helpful to talk to friends or family members who are supportive and who can offer a listening ear. While heartbreak can be a difficult experience, it can also be an opportunity for growth and self-reflection. It is a chance to learn from past mistakes and to figure out what you want and need in a future relationship. It is important to take care of yourself during this time, to focus on your own needs, and to remember that healing takes time. Heartbreak is a sad reality of relationships, but it is something that many people experience at some point in their lives. It is important to remember that it is okay to feel sad and to take the time to heal. With time, self-reflection, and self-care, it is possible to move forward and to find happiness again.

Online Friend♥

Dear Mr A♥ At the first time you chat with me so smoothly and I feel like you're my best internet friend. I thought that we'll know each other forever as ur promise. But now you change a lot maybe you meet new friends or new person that can replace me. Someday I thought that we'll meet one day even if it can't happen.Because we live on different continents.🌏 Anyway, you're my first internet friend that I know even 3 months. And we always admire each other, support and said that "We don't leave each other" but it's just a promise 😢 Thanks for being my internet friend♥ From Ur internet friend #Miss_U♥

Curiosity

Can u share some opinions related to arranged marriage between third cousins? In our culture, it’s considered as okay? I think? But u know how the world has changed, so do you think it’s fine?

Should I leave?

I read #KJ0470, and I kinda feel related. Yes, from the first time I know her and her past, I always want to treat her better. I want to make her feel luck in her life. I want to make her feel loved, because she deserves all the love. But lately, I feel bad about myself. I made mistake, I made her cry and disappointed. I feel like I can't be the one for her, I'm not good enough to take care of her. At least once a day, I think about breaking up so she can find someone better. But If I leave her while she's still in love with me, I will be the one who hurt her, just again like all her exes. I don't want to be the one who hurt her, but I also don't want to stuck her door, because deep inside I know I'm so incapable, too bad to deserve her love. I do need your advice.

Imagine how things between us would be if I met you first

Lately, I realize that we all have done ignoring the “bad stuff” in the person who shattered our hearts in pieces again and again because we loved them and at the same time, we all are ignoring the sweetest people in our life to keep that person. To that sweetest person, you know what I’m regretting doing? I regret that I ignored you. Yet deep inside, I wish that I met you first. Imagine how good it would be? I sound selfish, I know but it could have been You and I. Not everyone will have a happy ending, sometimes it ended just like those Hong Kong movies. WE ALL DIED IN THE END.

The never coming date we planned

Remember when we used to say we will meet? Remember when you said you were so eager to meet me? Remember how we were happily discussed about this so call date and plan it all out perfectly? Remember how you and I both had our hands on our first date gift for each other? I still had those photos of our gifts which we had sent to one another. But now, where was it? Where had it gone to? Where are you? Just how cruel are you leaving me all alone in this world before we could ever meet. Just…why? Why did you have to leave so soon? It’s been 1 year and a half since you’re gone from this world. May your beautiful soul be at ease. You are the most beautiful human I ever meet.