Imagine how things between us would be if I met you first

Lately, I realize that we all have done ignoring the “bad stuff” in the person who shattered our hearts in pieces again and again because we loved them and at the same time, we all are ignoring the sweetest people in our life to keep that person. To that sweetest person, you know what I’m regretting doing? I regret that I ignored you. Yet deep inside, I wish that I met you first. Imagine how good it would be? I sound selfish, I know but it could have been You and I. Not everyone will have a happy ending, sometimes it ended just like those Hong Kong movies. WE ALL DIED IN THE END.

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2025-08-14

Slowly, you started pushing me away.

You know what happens to the person who you are pushing away? They’re starting to question themselves, their worth and feels so insignificant and powerless. I, myself questioned myself “ am I not good enough “. You know how much it hurts when I tried my best to stood by you while you’re pushing me away? Is it fun to doing so? I wanted to feel needed again. I wanted you to want me like you had before. I wanted you to lean on me, but that was the impossible task for you. Despite feeling so distant from you, I was there every time you needed to talk. We went from telling each other anything and everything to complete strangers. I feel like I don’t even know you anymore. I'd been pushed so deeply that there was no coming back. We went from the funny, the goofy texts to nothing at all. I’ll never stop caring. But if you decide to push me away, I’ll stay away. You pushed me too far, too fast and I couldn’t keep chasing after you.

2025-08-14

Important sister

I'm not sure what will you and others valued on this name "important sister". Sometimes, I feel abit down but whatever happens, this name won't change. I'm still keep you as my important one, no one understand it but I'm really hope you can feel me trust my speech. I used to hope that one day we separate then we go our own path, but your voice always feel heard by my soul. Whatever happens, we changed but I won't forget what you advised me. Distancing doesn't mean the soul break. Love you, all the best to my important sisters ❤

2025-08-14

notice me senpai

The person I have a crush on is also an audience of this page. I’m hoping he’ll read this. I've liked him for quite a while now. I react to his posts here and then, but we never actually talk, so I couldn’t come forward with my feelings toward him. There’s no such thing as waiting for the guy to text first, and I’m not scared to reach him, but there’s no opportunity for it at all, and I’m guessing it wasn’t meant to be, but the other me thought that how could I know if I hadn’t tried? By the way, this guy is my type, so I guess he’s worth my time siming over him. This is so frustrating and I hope no one else can relate to this because it is giving me headaches and starting to drive me crazy now.

2025-08-14

My message for you before 2021 ends

To a person whom I met online, Since I wasn’t brave enough to send you this paragraph directly, so lemme just leave it here even though I have no idea whether you’ll see this or not. You’re someone whom I didn’t expect I’d meet, then fall for you this hard. There’re a lot of kind people in this cruel world and in my world you’re the kindest one. I may be a person who rarely say NO when people ask for help, but still I never offer anyone the help first if they don’t ask except for my family and my small circle of friends. But you, yes you! We weren’t really close but every time I was struggling, you were the one who helped me even though sometimes I didn’t dare to ask for it. Tbh, I’m the type of person who easily get tired of texting and sometimes it takes me days to respond or not to respond at all, but you’re the exception. For the nine months that we’ve talked, I’ve never once gotten tired of having conversation with you even though sometimes I don’t really know what to talk about. I have no idea when I first started to have feelings for you nor the reason for it, bcuz there is no such reason for liking someone. You’re in every song I listen to and there are always the fake scenarios of us being together that I always make when I’m about to sleep. I didn’t have any courage to directly tell you that I like you, but I think my hints have been telling you enough that I really do. I really hate myself for being the only one who lowkey got my hopes up then ended up disappointed again and again. I want to ask you what you think of me so that it’ll be easier for me to move on, but I’m really afraid of rejection since I already know what the answer will be. Since these days you’re really busy with school work, I know that you’re exhausted and stressed, and sorry for not being of any help but to remind you to not forget to rest. I might not know how to comfort nor cheer you up but I’m always rooting for you and will always be here by your side if you don’t mind. I can listen to your unexplainable feelings any time. Last but not least, I’m so thankful for everything you’ve done and I truly appreciate your presence in my life. You’re the main character in my 2021. I was so enchanted to meet you.

2025-08-14

Beers and cigarettes

Growing up I never want to drink and smoke. Everybody know that it’s bad for your health plus nobody likes u if they know you did it. I’m a female , friendly and well educated. Nobody suspect me for smoke because I’m well behaved but deep down I’ve been addicted to smoke and drinks for 2 year already :( it help me release stress. I remember the first time I tried to smoke after cutting myself and it help me it make me realize that instead of killing myself I should smoke. Yes it’s a bad decision but I have no choice. School and family matter I can’t stand it plus my mental health. I hope nobody judge me for smoke and drink beers when they know it. I’m afraid everyone gonna find out about it and hate me I’m scared. Sorry for my bad English

2025-08-14

The peace I hadn’t found

ហេតុអីប៉ានិងម៉ាក់គិតថារឿងរបស់ពួកគាត់នឹងមិនប៉ះពាល់ដល់កូនៗ នៅពេលកូនត្រូវគេងយំដោយសាររឿងរ៉ាវទាំងអស់នោះ ដោយរាល់ជម្លោះសម្លាប់ទឹកចិត្តរបស់កូនដែលចង់រស់នៅស្ងាត់ស្ងៀម ទោះគ្មានក្តីសុខពិតប្រាកដក៏មិនចាំបាច់ឮការស្រែកទៅវិញទៅមក…កូននៅកណ្តាលពិបាកសម្រេចចិត្តណាស់ កូនពិតជាអត់ដឹងគ្រប់ជ្រុងនៃរឿងនីមួយៗទេ…កូននៅខាងណា សូមកុំបន្ទោសកូន.. កូនមានអារម្មណ៍ថាហត់ណាស់ រងសម្ពាធណាស់ ចង់នៅស្ងប់ស្ងៀម។ ប៉ាម៉ាក់ និងគ្រប់គ្នាប្រាប់កូនកុំអោយគិត តែនៅជាមួយគ្នាក្រោមដំបូលផ្ទះតែមួយ ជួបប្រទះឮផ្ទាល់ខ្លាំងៗ អោយកូនធ្វើមិនឃើញ មិនឮយ៉ាងដូចម្តេច…But I’m always grateful and thankful for everything. Tried to not think about it for days, weeks and years. Yet I’ve come to stressed myself to the point I lose interest in things I find interesting and enthusiastic for years. The longing for peace, and happiness continues but diminishes in chances too.

2025-08-14

Dear #C

We've been broke up for 2 years but idk why i always miss you even though i was with someboday Else. I was hugging and kissing her but all my mind was thinking about you and I still imagined it's was u. I know u still have a feeling for me but i really can't move on from what u did to me. I choose to ignore u for ur good and it's really hurt that i'm ignoring a girl that i love the most. I just want to tell u that you're the girl i love the most. I want congrat u for ur dream become true even without me. I always love you ❤️
2025-08-14

Waiting…

We broke up and you found someone new. It was a dark time for the two of us. I got my problem and you got yours. Yes, we start spending less time together because life keep throwing us lemon and make everything sour between us. Deep down in my heart, I still love you, I still miss everyplaces we went together, drink, eat … The parking spot that i park my car and we shared about problems… I missed all of that. Now that you left, I try to avoid all the places that we been to together… every time i when there, in my head, I saw shadows of your and flashbacks of you every details your orders, your favorite drinks… it hurt me.