To the one I can’t have

Hey, it’s been many years since I’m trying to move on. I know my feeling isn’t mutual and that’s fine. But there’s always moment when I always picture us in my head. Loving you is a guilty feeling and yet I still want you to be mine. It’s hurt when I know you love someone else. It’s hurt when I’m trying to move on while at the same time I want to experience us together however I can’t have you because you are someone I would feel guilt to have….. but I love you , love you till the point where I don’t want anyone else but you , till the point where seeing you happy also make me happy. I love you na , and I don’t know when I could move one but I’m pretty much sure that it would take years but it’s okay loving you is beautiful even though it hurts me.

Feeling bottled up?

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I’m sorry

Hmmm That’s my last text Sorry i knew that I’ve hurt u million times Sorry we can’t be back tgt Sorry cause my guilt are too big I can’t let u forgive me easily. Sorry that I made your day become the worst after your whole tiring both physically and mentally Sorry that I turned u down again and again Sorry that I can’t hold u long enough Sorry that I disappointed u Sorry I’m too selfish that I always want to be ur friend again Sorry I’m too selfish that I don’t want to be with u but I also don’t want u to be with someone else !!!! Billion sorry that I wanted to tell u but I can’t. I still love u however I have done enough to deal with my imaginable problem and I can’t share it with u. I can’t hold u any longer. Sorry my mental issue gonna hit me up again if I stay in relationship. Sorry that I made u become a drunk, stress, toxic person for the last 3 months. I’m sorry even we back tgt we still not the same since I’ve changed. I’m not the girl that u love anymore. Still Loving u was like a dream, a dream that i would never want to wake up Anyway hope u and her get along tgt. I hope that she will give u all the love that u deserve to receive. Hope that she treat u right. Hope that she’s the one that u’ve been searching for. ❤️💛

Relying to #KJ0586

I am the girl name Samphors and I feel like I still owe someone an explanation even though there were many late night talks and paragraphs explaining exactly how I felt about the relationship. I’ve seen this confession months ago and I am hesitant to make an assumption that it’s about me, but he knew I read every confession from this page. We lost contact for months, it’s never been easy for me and I believe u might experience it worse, which I don’t know cuz u never show. For me certain places, songs and lyrics remind me of u, the “Midnight rain” lyrics was one of the reason why I decided to write this reply. “I broke his heart 'cause he was nice He was sunshine, I was midnight rain He wanted it comfortable, I wanted that pain He wanted a bride, I was making my own name Chasing that fame, he stayed the same All of me change like midnight” There’s nth wrong with us, we’re just two different ppl from two different world that couldn’t collide. I can’t describe how much I wanted us to work out and I believe u thought the same way, too (at least from what I see). Accepting that was the end of us was hard pill to swallow, u were my first and I wish u would be my last, not to become a lesson for me to learn. You’re a nice soul and I appreciate everything u did for me. May all the good thing u did for me and others return back to u and so long👋… I hope

I slept with my ex boss

On the bed, there were my friend, my ex boss and I. They were kinda drunk and I’m kinda tipsy. We sleep on one bed. He went to the toilet then I kinda wake up as I’m the light sleeper but I can’t wake up cuz the of many shots tequila. He came back to the bed hugging me and laying his hands on my body. Then he started to move his hand and slowly touch me (my hands and my shoulder only). His whole left arm was my boobs while holding my hands so I hold his arm and and place his hand on boobs (he got big hands and I’m fucking weak for that). Not long after that, we got into cuddling position. He put his chin on my shoulder and softly touch my other shoulder then move to my collar bone then my neck. I was uncomfortable as my friend is on right side and he’s on left side and I can’t move but I decided to move and turn my back to him but I still hold his hand and stick to my boobs (I swear I don’t love him, I just like it when something is on my boobs when I sleep). He moved his arm slowly while laying it on me (we still in the cuddling position but this time is spooning). His face behind my back, he keeps moving his face that has newly grow mustache on my flesh. It felt good, really. Then suddenly he let go of me and went back to normal sleeping position (I was like oh shit, why but I think nvm I’ll go back to sleep). A few minutes later he came back, his leg on my body, his arm on my boobs and went back to cuddling position again. He hugged me from behind, his face next to me. (There’s more but I can’t finish it cuz I’m sleepy asf now)

Painful scars 12th April

I know that your life is so different now from mine. I know that you may never forget about us, but you have forgotten your feelings about me. I know that you have somebody else beside you And I know that you may be saying your i-love-yous to him in different ways. Something that is quite deeper, bolder, or even kinder. Or something that promises your stay still together. I’m just here to write this one for you as I couldn’t think of any better way to tell you how I truly feel until this day about what has happened to us. And to tell you, in case there’s a chance that you read this—that I’ve forgiven you, myself, our past; to say “thank you,” and bid you farewell for the last time. I wish there’s a better way to tell you how painful that night was for me. That night when you said your feeling fade that my mistake...i been thinking why somebody else has occupied your heart that fast while being with me for 1 year you being with me. You didn’t have any idea that while you were saying those words, my hands couldn’t stop shaking as I’ve never expected what was going to happen. I didn’t know that the few days before that night would be the last time that I’ll get to experience a pure bliss being with you. That I’ll never be able to genuinely smile again for a few years. And that I’ll crash and burn. I didn’t know that such deep pain would exist and I’ve underestimated the capacity of life to hurt me in ways that I’ve failed to imagine. I saw how a moment changes, how time is fleeting so fast right before my eyes. That one moment you were telling me that you wouldn’t hesitate to give the world or your life to me. And then another sudden moment came and you treated me like I was the most disgusting person you have ever known. They say time heals all wounds, but the wound you’ve caused me is way beyond having a bruised heart. My soul got wounded too, and it still cries sometimes for what was inflicted on me

#Sam_ort?

I caught myself being loyal to a man who ain’t even my boyfriend.🙂

I can't carry yours, I've got my own

តើខ្ញុំត្រូវធ្វើអោយអ្នកសប្បាយចិត្តមែនទេ ទាំងដែលវាមិនមែនជាកាតព្វកិច្ចរបស់ខ្ញុំ ?ហេតុអីខ្ញុំត្រូវជួយរំលែកទុក្ខអ្នកទាំងដែលខ្ញុំក៏មានទុក្ខដែរ? អ្នកបែរជាខឹងនៅពេលដែលខ្ញុំបដិសេធ ដោយលើកហេតុផលថាជាមិត្តនឹងគ្នា ហេតុអីមិនជួយរំលែកទុក្ខគ្នា? វាជាជម្រើសរបស់ខ្ញុំ ខ្ញុំជ្រើសរើសយកការបដិសេធ ព្រោះខ្ញុំក៏ចង់ការពារសុខភាពផ្លូវចិត្តខ្ញុំដែរ ខ្ញុំមិនចង់ដឹងរឿងអ្នកដទៃ ខ្ញុំគ្រាន់តែមិនចង់ដឹង ខ្ញុំហត់ ខ្ញុំធុញ ខ្ញុំក៏មានបញ្ហាខ្ញុំដែលត្រូវដោះស្រាយដែរ។ ស្តាប់ទៅដូចជាអាត្មានិយមពេក តែខ្ញុំចិត្តល្អច្រើនពេកហើយ ច្រើនរហូតដល់គេមិនចេះក្រែងចិត្ត ដល់ពេលខ្ញុំបដិសេធ ខ្ញុំក៏ក្លាយជាមនុស្សអាត្មានិយមភ្លាម។

My experience being បោកby ប្រុស

My ex is feeling proud thinking he បោកmeបាន but don’t worry baby ពេលបងលួចលាក់មានគេ អូនក៏ដូចគ្នាដែរ 🥰

Main Character

To my most favorite person, I don’t know where you are at right now. I promptly admit that I miss you so much especially your dry sense of humor, you being Dokey-talkative to me. Our big and small fights, LOL. I wish you were here with me. To tell me everything is fine, everything will be better. I badly need your love and comfort because I’ve been so tired of what I’ve been going through lately. I know I have no rights to tell you to stay, but seeing you disappear this time hurt me deeply. I thought I would be okay this time since we already said our goodbye and also had a proper closure even though we ended up in bad term again. In this situation, you probably hate me that much, think of me as a ‘never wrong and always right person’.it’s fine for me. I know I’m at worst. I want to do the same thing as well. Sadly, I can’t make myself hating someone who I’m so in love with. That’s not me! Despite your lies, you being closed-book to me, I’m still enchanted to meet you. I don’t feel any regret falling for you, I really mean it. You are the main character in my story. Your name has in every chapter of my book since May 2020 til now. Imma always feel appreciated and grateful because I found someone who showed me the real definition of ‘Action speaks louder than Word’. You are Jjang! You know what? I can pretend to be happy and laugh at others joke. I can go on other dates and meet new people as you wished me to, but at the end of the day, they aren’t you. We will always be unfinished business and it will always be you although I used to tell you not to cross the path again. Yet, deep inside of me keep hoping that at least we have one beautiful story which I never give up praying for. One small moment together as you knew that I expect less when it comes to you, right? ...