Until then

Hey. How have you been? I hope you are doing well. Ever since the day you returned my book and we stopped talking, on some days when I’m alone by myself, I could feel a sense of emptiness within my soul because I lost a great friend. An amazing life partner. Someone who genuinely tried to be there for me. Someone who tried to get to know me, understand me, and never judged. Someone who used to make silly jokes and laughed hysterically with me. Now whenever I go, I keep looking for you. Whenever I see the car you drive, it reminds me of you. Whenever I drive past the places we used to go, it gives me a hint of warmth and bittersweet memories. Right now I’m sitting at one of our favorite places by myself, reminiscing about us back in the days. I don’t know why I’m doing this. I guess it’s because I can only miss you from afar. Maybe its because both of us deserve closure before everything ended, but we never got one. Maybe it’s because I regret making hasty decisions of cutting you off and ignoring your existence. As much as I want to send you a text, I could never get myself to do it. I guess it’s too late and I shouldn’t ruin your efforts of moving on from me. Nevertheless, I wish you all the best in life and I hope you accomplish everything you want to do. Maybe one day, we’ll get to meet again and talk it out. Until then, I will still long for your presence. Until then, please continue to be a beautiful soul that you’ve always been.

Feeling bottled up?

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Move on or waiting?

I hope u read this kmeng komhoch🤣 this name maybe can help remind you who was called you like this. It's been 4months that we haven't talked to each other. How have you been? How is ur mental health? U might be find someone else, be with someone else or losing feeling on me I guess. Also as I knew from my friends they told me that you came back to Khmer? In this 4months I still can't move on from you, can't get you out of my mind even I tried everyday to make myself busy, tryna stopped thinking about you but can't, I really can't. Just know that I love you a lot. We don't even have a lot of memories with each other but why are you so hard for me to unlove u? My friend said "យូរខែហេីយសុខៗទៅចឹងមិនបាននិយាយគ្នា គេមិនបានស្រឡាញ់ហែងទេកុំភ្លេីពេក" and idiot me still here just waiting for that person. Still praying the best for him every day to get everything he worked so hard for.

If I told you my feelings, would you feel the same?

My story is similar to your chapter 20. I have a friend and we both are girls. We kinda keep our lives low-key so no one really knows what’s going on in our lives (personal problems and stuff) except that we told each other our stories. It all began when my life had fallen in the darkness where I pushed everyone away and I didn’t even talk to anyone but not until she was there for me. She gave me the kind of feelings that I’d never had before. Not once in my life had felt like that with anyone although I have many friends. She told me that she would look at her phone for 24hours just to waiting for me to reply her texts. But then things started to falling apart. We would just stop talking for no reason. Instead of talking to each other, we just assumed if the other one was okay or not. It’s really toxic I know even we tried to talk about it, it was still getting worse. I kept wondering “is she okay?” “what if she tries to do something bad?”. I would stalk all her social media accounts and then I noticed her bio. So if we wanted to say something during the time that we ignored each other, we would change our bio. After months and months, I realised that I actually got attached to her. I needed her validation. Unlike anyone else, she made me feel so special. But the thing is I don’t understand this feeling. I wasn’t sure if she would feel the same way. I thought it’s just impossible cause we’re best friends and I didn’t wanna ruin this great friendship that I have ever had in my entire life. The connection was just different from others. The connection wouldn’t last so long. I still feel the same but I don’t know about hers. We’re like strangers with many unforgettable memories now. However, thanks to her for being a huge part of my life. Thank you.

Still hoping it’s us at the end

Alright so……where should I even start? It’s just that the memories and all the moments we had are too much to be organized and spoken by words. U’ve gone, i should’ve step forward too, but I couldn’t because I keep looking back at all the sweet talks we had, the love we spread, the scent of yours, especially the face I once fell for. Like, How could I walk myself forward imagining not being able to have u by my side like I used to? I wouldn’t wanna be cringe and creating poetry about our stories iswtg, But ever since u’ve left, I look for u in everyone, I look for u at everywhere and that shyt sucks, cuz I should know u wouldn’t think of me that way like i do. There’s none a day I didn’t think about u. There’s none a second I didn’t miss u. We might not make it works out this time, nevertheless let’s meet again next year, next 5 years or maybe next 10 years. I would love to start things again with u and try to make it all works out like I used to dream of the two of us. I’m wondering Where did we went wrong? ✌🏻This one is for u guys who are reading this, I wantin to share abit of what i regret and I hope u guys won’t do it like I did. The reason we ended up is not for the reasons of cheating, 3rd person, or things. Looking back at it, I was also part of the problem because I realize that “a love works out when both of us love each other the same way” while b4 I was the type of “a love only work out when the guy gives love more” that was completely wrong. U girls and guys should stop if u have it that way. U love em? Show em ur all. U care for em? Just go ahead n ask em how their day went.U want em?Fight for it. I’m pretty sure a word of yours will surely brighten their days up.This is how rlts works, if u are selfish or still expectin to gain more than u give, then don’t ask for love. Last words for him: Till this day, I still miss and miss you. What if in the next few years and I still can’t get over you? I don’t want to forget you n I hope u won’t forget me too.

Love at first sight

អ្នកផឹកឡើងក្អូត អោយគេជូនទៅផ្ទះ? ចេញមុខមកភ្លាម I went to have a drink with group of guys (workmates), so did he, with his buddies too. Our table was around few steps each… His small eyes with thick glasses with his សំពោង hair really catches my eyes. I can help to join his table and asked his name yet I didn’t have confidence to share my social contact. After few bottoms up, I came back to my table. He keep raised his glass and cheer with me from other side. Finally my table was over, my workmates left the shop-I wasn’t ready to say goodbye then I joined his table. He kept asking me លើកដាច់ រួចគាត់ក៏ក្អួត ហើយយើងគិតលុយ។ ខ្ញុំផ្ញើរម៉ូតូទុកនៅហាង រួចជិះម៉ូតូជូនគាត់ទៅផ្ទះ។ តាមផ្លូវ គាត់ប្រាប់ខ្ញុំថា គាត់មានសង្សារហើយ។ សូមអរគុណ សូមជម្រាបលា។

I see forever in your eyes, I feel okay when I see you smile, smile

I know we both had a hard time. I am sorry for everything that I had done. Wish I could turn back time to the good old days. Wish everything could turn back to day we laugh together at stupid things. I know you might not be to move on now. It broke me into pieces knowing that you've been crying because of me. The more I think of how much you've been hurting, the more I hated myself. I will always love you. I hope one day, I'm not sure when but I hope it's soon, we will be back to where we were. Continue where we paused and start all over again with stronger deeper connection. And I see ....

Brief Encounter

To "you", I still remember our first encounter very well. It was a few years ago, it was when I was about to go home but I saw you were struggling with getting your bike out. We were total stranger to one another (even for now). So, I decided to help you. It was a little bit windy day, and as I was helping you, because of a light blow of the wind, flipped up your skirt a little bit. I thought maybe it was uncomfortable for you because of the wind, so I offered my jacket for you to cover yourself, but lucky, you got a motorbike tower of your own. (Sorry for too detail) After I got bike out, we exchange a normal pleasantry, "Thank you very much","you're welcome" and we part way. I only happened to know that you and I were in the class after the incident day. However, back then, I was in my rough patch, and it was so rough that I decided to drop the course. However, Within those few years, you always cross my mind, and I kind of have a fondness for you as well, even though we never got a chance to know each other. I really do wish and hope that we will have our paths cross once again, then we can get to know each other, and somehow, I hope we can work it out, and we end up being together. I really think that you are a very sweet and nice person, I really really like to know you. As if you were book that I would spend the rest of my time to read. (Even I'm not quite a reader) Hope you see this, and hope you remember me as I remember you. From a stranger.

??

If you and your bf live in the same borey (literally 4 streets from each other) but he never ask you out also he rarely replies your text (4-12 hours — that’s ghosting yeah??) That means he doesn’t really like you right? The answer is clear as day yeah?

Request for DIS

I’m not sure if I can request this here but can DIS provide wifi for students too? Pleaseeee🙄 (Not sure whether they already provide or not)