I will keep telling the stars about you
In the future, If we ever cross paths again, please fall in love with me once more.
My parents don’t support me on what I’m doing, and this cause me anxiety day after day… what should I do in the future…?
In the future, If we ever cross paths again, please fall in love with me once more.
Through a heart break of rejection and the lose of my best friendship, I felt like losing my own home. I got no one by my side, that's what a child far from home like me felt. Just then, I met you, someone I can share all my sorrow and believing. If you happen to see this, I just wanna let you know that you were my strength to confront and overcome those challenges. I'm grateful for your existing through my darkest hour, where your presence told me I have you. And you're in my memory too and I felt whatever you felt. I can't keep in touch with you for some reasons, that's why I couldn't tell you all this. And I know if I could tell you, you won't settle down. I have a different life now and I can't be a late night talk companion like I used to. I forgave you whatever you did and do forgive me too for whatever I said to you. Please think of me like a good friend you had. You gotta live your good life and one day, someone's gonna take my place from your memory to a living moment.
Consider this a respond to #KJ0061 – as a fellow person with ADHD (side note: ADHD more common than you might think). ADHD is often not talked about here (our country) and more often than not, this neurodivergent behavior is misjudged for laziness and reckless. There are many forms of ADHD, but in my specific case, I often hyper fixate on things and lose feelings really fast. I can start a new hobby and forget about it the next day. I can place my keys somewhere and would lose it just as quickly. In class, it is very difficult to concentrate and online class isn’t making it any easier. I often find myself fall short when it comes to tasks such as organizing and planning. I would forget to bring even the simplest thing. I’m always running late for class, and falling behind on certain tasks. That doesn’t mean that I am unable to do anything just like the neurotypical (people with normal brain). It just take a lot more effort. Some of you will never understand how much effort it takes for a person with AHDH to bring everything to class, complete assignments on time and manage their time. It’s not impossible, but it takes us so much effort just to seem normal. I try my best to walk at the same pace as the neurotypical, but I’m sure many people with AHDH struggle more than me. If you’re reading this, be kind to people who you think might have ADHD. Maybe it’s not that they don’t try. Maybe it’s very, very, very hard for them to do the simplest things. Be understanding.
To my best ex-lover, It’s raining now. It’s a beautiful cozy evening. I suddenly want to tell you something but this is the only way I could convey this message. You may not see this, or you may not recognize me. Yet, I hope you still remember the nickname we gave each other. This is not the letter of regret. This is the letter of appreciation. I guess, it’s been 6 years already. I hope you’re doing great and living your best life. I hope you know how to love and cherish yourself, first and foremost. I hope you’ve found the path that can lead you to your dreams successfully. I hope you’re being honest and true to yourself. I hope you find the one you sincerely love and gives the same response back. Our love story might not have a happy ending, but looking back all I can see is—grateful and precious memories. You were and will always be my best partner in crime. We were too young to understand what love is, or how it works. If, only we were more mature back then, perhaps we could have embarked on a longer quest together. Yet, after all, it’s still a beautiful piece of my journey that I’ll never forget. We’ve grown now. Life moves on after all, and I hate to admit the fact that we’re just two strangers with fond memories. Still, I’m proud to say that you were my best boyfriend. I also told people how great you were as an individual and a partner. Our story didn’t end in the ugly way. At least, we knew that we were right for each other, just at the wrong time. Our short journey was a beautiful adventure. I hope you feel the same way too. Eventually, I hope you are sincerely happy right now. You surely know how I am as a person, right? So, if we see each other next time, can you at least say “hey” to me first, just like how we used to in the past? I think it will be a beautiful reunion of old friends. - kepler
I cant stop thinking about suicide. I don't know. There's nothing much about the problem i've got but i just dunno how to solve it and i cannot think how to too. I cant tell anyone anymore, just like they'll just judge me and thinking im attention seeker. (Even here now, i have no confidence writing this without thinking they will judge me) Stuck on anything, and my mind keep telling me "if you die that'll be solve cuz it's you, you are the problem." I really am maybe... I'm sorry if I ruin your day, really sorry.
It's hard to get through the night without thinking about you. It would've been easier to just go back to where we left and let the alcohol speak for myself again. I really wanna talk to you again, so much but I know if i texted you you might not gonna reply, guess you hate me so much now. It hurts me so much imagine u hate me u forgot about me and how you can easily moved on but I’ll just have to accept the fact. We didnt end well but im glad im glad that you gave a chance between us and made up with all these wonderful joyful memories. Thank you for the efforts you put into this relationship and I wish you all the best. ❤️
Maybe this lifetime isn’t for us. I just hope you will be happy with your marriage. After all these years, I am the only one who fooled myself into this hopeless love. You did it. You made me feel like a fool. I had caught myself smiling while texting you, waiting for you and now? Now you’re with someone else and even getting married? How am I supposed to feel. That moment when you told me about the date of your marriage, what was I supposed to tell you? Congratulations? I don’t even know how to feel now. It felt so real for me, but I guess we just end up as best friend even after everything we’ve had together. You even told me that I will and always be the one? No one will ever replace me? I have no right to do anything except congrats you, seeing you be happy with someone else. Thank you for everything. Thanks for making me feel so special even if you don’t mean it. Because I will never not think about you.
I love you XD