The saddest thing …
The saddest thing in the world is loving someone who used to love you :)))
"You deserve to be treated like the way you treated me. I'm sorry I can't treat you like that."
The saddest thing in the world is loving someone who used to love you :)))
Remember when we used to say we will meet? Remember when you said you were so eager to meet me? Remember how we were happily discussed about this so call date and plan it all out perfectly? Remember how you and I both had our hands on our first date gift for each other? I still had those photos of our gifts which we had sent to one another. But now, where was it? Where had it gone to? Where are you? Just how cruel are you leaving me all alone in this world before we could ever meet. Just…why? Why did you have to leave so soon? It’s been 1 year and a half since you’re gone from this world. May your beautiful soul be at ease. You are the most beautiful human I ever meet.
Friends asked me do I like the guy I introduced to them before? My answer? Yes I do. Then does that guy like me? I guess so. Then why isnt it working? I don’t know if there is any specific right answer to it tbh. Maybe it just I’m not ready. Maybe Im still haunted by my past relationships. Or maybe I just feel like I’m not good enough for him. Or actually maybe it’s just wrong timing and it’s not working overall. We both tried our best, we both tried to give it a try again and again yet failed again and again too. I guess overall, we meant to know one another, like one another, has a chance to start it in which we blew it up, so after that no matter how many time we tried to bring it back it’s not working. Maybe this is really like “you only have one chance at love”. I like you still yet I guess it’s just not working. So just get over it and be happy, maybe not immediately but eventually, please be happy.
Girl! You do experience and have a long lasting realtionship but how could you do this to me? Remember when there is stranger who try to talk to your man. You act up and blow it on social media about how disspoainted, sad, anger and how much you hate or dislike girl who behave like this. Then how should i react? When it is just a one time meeting but you try to stick around, try to fit in to the circle. I know it is just about friendliness, you have it toward me too. However, I got driven away and you got a place to stand. Not just a place you found one for your friend too. That is how I got repalced. I don’t know how to feel or react. How could I being treated like this? And You too girl! I do know love can’t be forced but I can’t make myself believe that you are not related in this. Even if it was just a one time gather but you sure know the history of me and that person. Then why do you still let one of your ally in? Standing in my place? I mean if there is no you or just don’t be too friendly or just stay in your circle maybe thing won’t turn out like this. I just feel so stupid or maybe I am one. That why even after you saw me, knew everything you still find a place for her because I am just something that is already thrown away anyway and that space is empty so it got to have a replacement? I mean don’t you understand what attachment is? Or am I a narrow minded who still dwell about the past? What if you were me can you stand and watch calmly without anxious, curiosity and wonder how could it happen if you are not between it? But I am happy for you. You don’t have to imagine yourself in this situation because you got a good person by your side! Still how could you take my good person for your alliance? I felt so insecure, regret of open up and afraid of getting to know new people. But maybe I shouldn’t feel like that anymore becuase now I got nothing else to lose.
កន្លងទៅ4ឆ្នាំហើយ ជាអត្ថបទដែលខ្ញុំសរសេរទុកសម្រាប់បង: ប្រហែលនេះជាstatusចុងក្រោយដែលខ្ញុំសរសេរសម្រាប់បង ខ្ញុំចង់និយាយពាក្យខ្លះទៅកាន់មនុស្សម្នាក់ដែលខ្ញុំស្រឡាញ់ហើយក៏ស្រលាញ់ជាទីបំផុតនៅក្នុងជីវិតស្នេហារបស់ខ្ញុំ ថែខ្លួនផងណា៎ ញ៉ាំអីអោយទៀងទាត់ណាប្រយ័ត្នឈឺ មើលទៅដូចជារាងរងារដែរព្រោះយប់នេះព្រោះភ្លៀង ហើយមើល៍ទៅដូចជាមិនអីទេបងរាល់ងៃដូចរាងសប្បាយចិត្តដែរ(ខ្ញុំក៏រីករាយដែរពេលបងបែបនេះ) ពេលមានស្នេហា កុំភ្លេចមើលថែគេ ផ្ដល់ក្តីស្រលាញ់ ភាពកក់ក្តៅ សុភមង្គល ពាក្យសម្តីល្អៗទៅកាន់គេព្រោះនេះជាអ្វីដែលមនុស្សគ្រប់រូបចង់បាន។ ហើយជាចុងក្រោយនៃ Statusមួយនេះខ្ញុំចង់ប្រាប់បងថា ខ្ញុំស្រឡាញ់បង ខ្ញុំនឹកបង ខ្ញុំសរសេរStatus1 នេះទាំងទឹកភ្នែកនិងក្តីស្រលាញ់ដែលមានចំពោះបង ខ្ញុំមិនដឹងថានឹងត្រូវបន្តបែបណាឫជាមួយនរណាម្នាក់ក្នុងជីវិតស្នេហា1នេះទៀតទេ ខ្ញុំចងចាំសម្លេង ការព្រួយបារម្ភ ការTake care ពីបង ក្តីស្រលាញ់មួយនេះវាធំធេងណាស់សម្រាប់ខ្ញុំ បងមានដឹងទេ? បេះដូងនិងចិត្តរបស់ខ្ញុំ គឺប្រគល់ឱ្យបងអស់ហើយ ទោះបីយើងស្គាល់គ្នាត្រឹមរយៈពេលខ្លីក៏ដោយ ខ្ញុំដឹងថាខ្ញុំមិនល្អគ្រប់គ្រាន់សម្រាប់បងទេ ទេីបបងចាកចេញ ដោយមុនបាននិយាយអ្វីសោះ សុខៗបងក៏ចាកចេញដោយសារខ្ញុំមិនស្អាតដូចគេ edit(ពេលនេះអ្វីៗផ្លាស់ប្ដូរហើយ នៅឡើយតែចិត្តរបស់ខ្ញុំ)♥️។ #ISTSTYMFPTILTM #Stone
If you ask me, it breaks me in million of pieces trying to say " No, it's the end between us." I badly wish you were the right one, who came in the right time. But being in a relationship with you really make doubt if it was not a mistake. It's silly, but it has be admitted that loving you each and every cost the loss of myself. I have felt the loss and miserable self for a long time ago before I finally asked for closure. Tbh, loving didn't make me feel exited to discuss about our future at all. Instead, I spent most of the time trying to figure how to detach myself from you. I questioned how can I unlove you. The only thing I felt was falling for you too deep that I still wanted your love while knowing I was being ignored and mistreated for many times. I was trying my best to fight with my heart, and let the love go. I did give you chances, too. But you ruined them yourself. You came and ask for the last one??? No, darling. NOT AGAIN. You know when you go against your conscientiousness, ego, pride to admit that you should have said "I will try to change for you." on the night be broke up, I went through sadness again. Why? I have to keep my answer unchanged even though I badly want to be in love with you. I was afraid to love you again, to lose myself again, to know that hurt me again, and still love you. I was so scared. What if I started to never recognise my worth, and blindly love you again? What if it happened again? I don't know if I could save myself one more time if I let you in my life for the last time. I wish you know how to love me. Just a little bit more. That could have been enough for us... I'm sorry! But you're late to do so.
រាល់ទង្វើបងធ្វើគ្រប់យ៉ាងក្នងនាមត្រឹមជាប្អូនរបស់បង កំដរបងព្រោះពេលនេះបងនៅឆ្ងាយពីសង្សារបង ក៏មិនដែលមានបំណងបំបែកបំបាក់បងពីគេ មានត្រឹមតែចិត្តស្រលាញ់បងតែម្ខាង អរគុណដែលមិនភ្លេចថ្ងៃខួបកំណើតរបស់ប្អូនម្នាក់នេះ អរគុណជាមនុស្សទីមួយដែលជូនពរប្អូន អរគុណដែលបងចំណាយពេលវេលាជាមួយប្អូនតាមពាក្យសន្យារបស់បង នៅតែជាក្មេងតូចម្នាក់របស់បង បងសម្ដែងរឺមិនសម្ដែងប្អូនមិនដឹងទេ តែរាល់ទង្វើដែលបងធ្វើពេលនៅក្បែរគ្នា ប្អូនពិតជាមានសេចក្ដីសុខណាស់ ប្អូនដឹងច្បាស់ថាព្រំដែនរបស់ប្អូននៅត្រង់ណា ប្អូនសុំទុកបងនៅក្នុងចិត្តប្អូនបន្ដទៀតចុះ បងនៅតែជាមនុស្សម្នាក់ដែលប្អូនឈោងមិនដល់ តែប្អូននៅតែប្រាថ្នាហើយស្រលាញ់បងដូចដើម ក្ដីសុខរបស់បងជាក្ដីសុខរបស់ប្អូនម្នាក់នេះដូចគ្នា។ ពីក្មេងតូចរបស់បងដែលតែងតែស្រលាញ់បង⭐️✌️
I fuckin went berserker mode on my toilet and my shit went all over the place. EVEN MY MOUTH