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Wondering am I the only one who push people away, ghost everyone and get mad at everything when I’m stressed out or is this a normal thing but some people just could control it more easily than others?
Generally, I’m a happy person. I laugh a lot, I smile a lot. My friends called me “យាយប្រិមប្រិយ”. It's hard to see me without a smile on my face. Everyone thinks that I don't have any problems in my life, since I always laugh and smiling in every pictures that we captured. Deep down I’m slowly dying day by day. I literally cannot find any form of joy in my life. I feel like I can't show my real feelings; I feel like I have to keep smiling and i feels really guilty if I tell them about that because it’ll ruin their day. I’m jealous to those who brave enough to talk about it especially admit that they’ve suicidal thoughts. Smiling and laughing has become a reflex for me and it’s easier for me rather than tell them what’s going on. I no longer “ME” for a long time ago but nobody noticed it. I feel like someone is clawing away at me on the inside. I feel so empty. I don't know what to do.
Wondering am I the only one who push people away, ghost everyone and get mad at everything when I’m stressed out or is this a normal thing but some people just could control it more easily than others?
Since I broke up with my ex bf in March 2021, I never had any bf until now. Not because I didn’t fall in love with anyone else. It’s because I used to asked s1 abt feeling during I broke up. And the answer is “ death both side”xD. And yeah at the time he’s the only person that I chatted with, told him how’s my feelings, sometime cried while sending my voice to him. Then we haven’t chatted for awhile. Currently, And he just text me and get on with each again.
Him: Would you still be with me if I came back to you that time? Her: Yes, I would. Him: Even after I left you several times? Her: yes, always. Him: why? Her: because I love you. Him: Now? Her: I have to love myself. Him: Maybe we would have been together if I were braver. Her: Maybe.
Please don't ever come back to me when I finally forgot you and has moved on. Please don't let me experience all the pain again. Please don't ever mess up my life again.
I met a girl, let's called her M, we date for almost 2 years but we are not in a relationship. We took like 2 or 3 breaks during the time that we talk. And we decided to broke up 2 weeks before we hit 2 years, but we still talk as a friend because before that we aren't even in a committed relationship too. M has a lot of friends even a lot of people want her too because she's a good girl, she's friendly, and she's gorgeous. And I know there's no chance of getting back together because she's talking to a guy that made me completely insecure, they were very close since before we broke up. He's close to her than I am now. I want to meet her but she always denies and she always goes out with that dude and her friends ship her with him too. And now I am seeing another girl which happens to be one of her friends too but they're not that close, So now what should I do should I stay away from her friends or should I or ask her out?? What are the consequences of dating her? what could happen next? what should I do? We went to the same Uni
Although my ex-boyfriend cheated on me , I’ve learned to move on without having anyone new. Deep down inside, this process is literally miserable since he’s the only one on my mind. After 2 months of breakup, I can say i don’t utterly heal from this heartbreak , but my inner wound has been gradually healing day by day to the point where I finally say I’m better off without him . To all the heart-broken girls out there, don’t pressure yourself. Moving on is not easy as some people say , but one day, pain that you have tried to handle will be finally withdrawn. Embrace yourself as much as possible. Self-love is a must.
Again, thanks for coming back to me and stay until our anniversary day.. I knew i am stupid to say this alone, I always remember everything of us, and i always wanted us to get back again.. But it’s never worth it, you are not in love with me anymore and you had a someone better than me , hope he can treat you better and give you whatever you want… So what i have to do , i let you go, and please don’t even look back as a friend or still remember what I have done with you! I will never bothering you again.. so hope you are doing great, always meet up with someone better as you wish. Don't worry, no one will mess your life up again, no one will ask you to stay again.. You can choose him and start over with him.. Thanks for came back again to completed our 2-years day! Saturday, 25 Sep 21 Walked away day!
There are many men out there in this world Surly I haven’t met all kinds of men yet. I have found my type but I don’t see that type in many men yet. So why am I rushing myself into this? And the only question that keep running in my mind is Why HIM?- yes, I want him and I love him I can see myself that I’m not crazily fall in love with him which I used to but I can’t live without him as well. I hate that’s the person I’m in love right now is him cuz I know we can’t be more than just FRIENDS. From all these months we’ve been messaging, calling, are all caring as friends? Or more than that? YES, we flirted for fun but I can’t believe I’m the one who lost in this game that we both started. It seemed unfair to me, how can he sleep peacefully every single nights without feeling anything while I couldn’t sleep properly because my mind is thinking about him. The happiness feeling which made me feel so loved, special, the smile that I wear on my face while facing my phone’s screen, feeling someone is giving me the best comfort or comfortable hug which I thought it was gone and never comes back suddenly comes into my life. All because of who? - it’s HIM I hate how biggest role play he plays in my life without realizing anything.. like nth until I can’t lost him. I hate how his sweet words and action melt my heart into water. I hate how I am to him like an open book but for me I can’t even read his mind a bit I hate how every songs I’m listening to is always remind me about him. I hate how many articles I have read always related to our situation. I hate when I know we can’t be more than this and how many times I try to stop myself to fall for him but end up losing I hate how today he treated me like I’m a queen then tmr I’m just someone simple to him. Is it because of me? Am I the only one who fall for my own dream? Does he ever feel the way I do too? Is it my fault? Should I make a first move to get the answer or take a step back ? But HE- he’s really the one who I got inspired these days. Never ever I got/ know a man who can give me this positive energy before. They told me to finding a man who keep pushing you and making you improve for better. YES, I found that person, I found him but I can’t have him. I found someone who I’m about to lost in love way not friendship. The smile I have, all good feeling I have is from him but the painful feeling right now, a drop of smile on my face also because of him cuz I can’t feel that feeling anymore [ BABE ] I know we joke around calling each other like this. But I want us to keep calling each other like this as forever. One day someone will come into his life and replace me with this nickname, one day he’ll find his true [ BABE ] and takes care of his heart which I know that isn’t me but sometimes the little hope in my heart still think however I’m still here being happy for him to find somebody new and best for him. I miss him, miss the old vibe we used to be, am I being trapped by my own feelings/ game I have set for myself again? Having crush is ok and fun not until you truly love someone too much and for real. And for me this situation isn’t having a crush this what we called, right person wrong time. Or I can say right person wrong situation. I swear to myself that I won’t end up in this kind of love situation again but look? Why the boys that I fall in this situation always the nice guys. This situation is harder than having a crush on someone and the feeling I have for men in this situation is much much stronger and it just hits different. I still remembered how much time I had to move on from that old person, even after years he’s still the one who I remember and he lives free in my heart. And now look at who coming again. Same way, same feeling but this one is stronger. He actually being the same way as the old person. How he drives me crazy, how much he make me fall in love everyday. Are we gonna end our relationship like I did with that old person? By stop messaging anyone? It’s hurt. There’s only one thing both of them don’t have in common is everyone knows/ sus on me with old person but between me and him no one noticed it yet unless I told people.